Wreck (Royal Series #4) COMPLETED

Chapter Twelve

Chapter Twelve

Resolve

There will always be two sides to stories. One cannot know the whole idea behind the story without actually knowing what the other side holds. There must be a balance every time, it can never flatter. 

But it wasn't always that people have the courage to unlock the story of the other side. Some will rather look away and continue their life without even looking back. Some will close their eyes and stay rooted in their place without doing anything. And some will try to keep their eyes wide open and even offer their hand, but still not enough to reach the people of the other side.

To have courage... means to have the strength to understand and try living in their position. Hindi pwede basta na lang na sinabi mo na naiintindihan mo sila kahit hindi naman talaga. Because those people who have been ignored will know if you just said that to appease them.

The untold stories of their experiences taught them not to trust anyone so quickly. It was their defense mechanism - to doubt and to find fault in the person helping them.

Alam kong mahirap. I understand Sean's sentiment that he would choose that if he could only have a better choice. But the thing is, he doesn't have any other option. It's only either, it can never be both. 

And in my situation, it's either changing Sean's principles to fit our clan's situation or letting our economy suffer under my watch. I can't have them both and I know I have to rectify the situation as soon as possible. 

If I won't consider Sean, my decision is easy. But there's a part of me that doesn't want to touch Sean's principles and morals. I don't want him to change, to be specific. I want him to stay pure and kind as he is. 

Because if he will change just because of the clan's stability, then it will be an awful thing to do as his wife - to force him into changing to a person he isn't.

I know the feeling of trying to be someone that you aren't. It was not a good place to stay and I don't want to put Sean in that place. 

His soft smile is enough to pacify my worries. Looking at him made my resolve stronger than ever. How could I let him lose that smile of his?

"Were you waiting for it the whole time?" I asked.

He sighed. "Isn't obvious? Your words gave me some kind of strength I couldn't explain. But when you started being quiet, I waited for you to at least tell me what's wrong or if I did something that disappointed you."

Natawa ako sa sinabi niya bago umalis sa pwesto namin. I went towards the white couch. Uupo pa lang sana ako pero inunahan ako ni Sean at tska ako hinila papalapit sa kaniya dahil hawak niya ang kamay ko. 

Hindi ko malaman ang gusto niyang mangyari kaya sumunod na lang ako hanggang sa pinaupo niya ako sa tabi niya. Kala ko naman kung ano ang gusto niya, iyon lang pala. 

"So, tell me, wife. What can I do to improve the situation right now?"

Umiwas ako ng tingin sa kaniya matapos ang tanong na iyon. He seemed interested in knowing but it seemed forced because he doesn't have any choice.

"Blaire," tawag nito sa akin. 

I bit my lip before facing him and smiled. "Nothing," I answered. "Just continue what you were doing the past few months."

Matagal siyang nakatitig sa akin na parang sinisiguro kung tama ba ang dinig niya. 

"Hmm, you weren't that amazing but... that's who you are, Sean. And I intend to keep you that way," I elaborated because of the look he gave me a while ago.

"Why won't you let me change? I can adapt easily, Blaire."

Tumango ako sa kaniya. "I know, you already proved to me that one."

"Then tell what can I do? Because I don't like it when you are keeping me in the shadow, wife." His frustrated voice is evident but my resolve was stronger.

"I'm not, Sean. See? I told you you aren't that amazing when you make a decision, but I understand that," mahinahon kong sabi sa kaniya.

Pumikit siya ilang sandali bago bumuntong hininga. When I looked into his eyes, there was no conceding emotion in his eyes, it was determination. 

"You don't want me to change, fine. But I will rectify my decision, Blaire. I will put everything back to its proper place."

I slowly nodded at him. 

"Sure, but be prepared for the minister's attack on you," pananakot ko sa kaniya. It wasn't an empty threat anyway. Sigurado ako na kapag binawi niya ang desisyon niya, madaming aalma. 

Then he smiled. This isn't good. "Thanks for the support, wife," he said and stood up, leaving me behind.

My mouth went agape at what just happened. He thought I support his suicide mission? "Damn it!" Inis along tumayo at lumabas ng kwarto but I immediately stopped when Kuya Vince welcomed my vision.

"Let's talk. Now, Blaire Magdalene!" Mabilis akong sumunod sa kaniya nang pumasok kami sa study room. 

Inunahan ko siya magsalita. "If this is about the finances, again, I will resolve this, Kuya."

Hindi siya nagsalita at umupo sa couch at tinuro ang harapan na upuan para sa akin. When I settled down, hinalamos niya sa mukha niya ang kamay niya na parang problemado siya. Then he massaged his neck.

"Say it again?"

Napabaling ako sa kaniya nang marinig ang bosses niya. "I will resolve this issue, Kuya."

Peke siyang tumawa sa harapan ko at isinandal ang likod sa upuan. "How, Blaire? Selling out your personal assets? What a great idea," he said sarcastically.

"Kuya -"

"Blaire, you know I won't meddle in your business and will stay on the side as long as you are ruling it right. But this! This is chaos!"

Napayuko ako sa sinabi niya. It is indeed chaos but I don't want to admit that to myself. Masyadong mataas ang paniniwala ko sa sarili na mareresolba namin ito.

"Can't you trust me on this one, Kuya?" 

Narinig ko ang buntong hininga niya kaya inangat ko na ang ulo ko at tinignan siya. My Kuya has always been soft for me kaya ang pagtaasan ako ng boses ay alam kong nasagad ko na ang pasensiya niya.

"I want to protect this clan as long as I could, Blaire. This is the clan my sister revived and I don't want to witness it going down once again," Kuya Vince said.

Ramdam ko ang lungkot niya pero hindi ko magawang baguhin ang desisyon ko. 

"Kilala kita mula bata ka pa lang kaya alam ko na hindi ko agad mababago ang desisyon mo tungkol sa isang bagay. Pero alam ko rin na hindi ka magdedesisyon nang ganito kung walang nakasalalay na tao."

Napatingin ako sa kaniya na nanlalaki ng mata. Then he leaned forward with his hands clasped together and looked at me in the eyes.

"Tell me, Blaire Magdalene. How did that motherfucking Sierra hold you back in times like this?"

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First day of the semester is tomorrow! Expect late updates but I assure you I'll update at least twice a week. Goodnight :))