Wreck (Royal Series #4) COMPLETED

Chapter Twenty

Chapter Twenty

That Eyes

I held the hand of the door tighter as I continue to calm my nerves. I have never experienced this kind of nervous breakdown in my entire life. I felt like my whole system is shutting down because I can't think of anything else, nothing at all.

"Why are you still standing in here?" I almost jumped while standing because of Kuya Vince. Naabutan pa niya ako dito samantalang, pagkahinto pa lang ng sasakyan kanina ay tumakbo na ako papasok.

I looked at him, showing him how vulnerable I am. Dahil alam ko sa mga oras na ito ay hindi ko matatago ang takot na nararamdaman ko. It shows and people can easily tell if I am terrified. I was always afraid of showing my weakness because I know they will use it against me but it's Kuya Vince I'm facing right now.

He sighed and tapped my shoulders as if saying that it's okay. Then he nodded at me, siya na mismo ang nagtulak pabukas ng pinto sa kwarto ni Sean.

When I took a step, my legs are shaking. I can't even breathe normally as I continue to make small steps towards him. He was surrounded by his family, his brothers on one side, his mom on the chair beside his bed, and his dad standing behind the Queen.

And yes, I avoided him. Hindi ko pinadaan ang tingin ko sa kaniya at mas pinili na tignan ang reaksiyon ng pamilya niya. They all looked relieved. Is that a good sign? I think so. 

I slowly swallowed the lump in my throat as I finally took the courage and looked at him. But his eyes... that eyes that I once loved and adored... held so many unnamed emotions. 

Gusto kong magsalita at bumati pero hindi ko mahanap ang boses ko. I just stared at him while he does the same. But it ended because he transferred his gaze towards his mother. 

"She's from the West Clan, right? Bakit siya nandito?"

My heart dropped. 

Pakiramdam ko namingi ako sa sinabi niya. Is... is he for real? What...

Kuya Vince held my arms because I think, I stumbled back upon hearing him. My legs felt weak and it was so close to giving up. 

"Son, what did you just say? I think I heard you wrong," the Queen said. 

But Sean remained calm as he answered his mother. "Bakit siya nandito? Did you somehow tell the whole Society about what happened to me?"

"Sean Ruzzel," matigas na sabi ng hari.

"What?" Litong tanong ni Sean. His eyes looked so confused by their reaction. 

I suddenly felt like an intruder in here. Right, I was a stranger to him before we got married. 

"Z, hurry and call the doctors. Right now!" His brother, Zean, quietly obliged and walked past me.

"What? I'm fine! The doctors already checked on me!"

"No, you are not fine! How could you say you are fine when you can't even recognize your wife?!"

Sean's gaze returned on me and the look on his face was beyond unexplainable. It was in between shocked and repulsed. There was no sign of relief and it was obvious that he didn't like the idea of him being married to me.

That hurts.

It was a whole dreading minute before Sean finally speaks. "Mother, can I talk to... her for a minute?" He asked, staring at me.

The Queen immediately understood what he meant kaya tumayo ito ang hinawakan ang kamay ko nang dumaan siya sa gilid ko. While Kuya Vince tapped my shoulders before escorting the Queen outside. And I was left with Sean. I felt the awkward atmosphere around us.

I remained to stare at him... but I felt like I was staring at the same person, physically, but emotionally, he isn't Sean. Not even close. He is making me feel the distance between us, the distance I never knew existed because it wasn't even present in our first meeting. 

He pursued his lips and took a deep breath. "So, we are married." It was a statement, not a question. His tone was like he was convincing himself that he is married... to me. 

"Is there anything wrong with you being married to me?" Hindi ko napigilan ang sarili ko magtanong. I know I should not have, given that he just woke up. But I cannot help it when he is giving me the feels of being unwanted.

He chuckled. "You sound as if I owe you some responsibility."

What? Come again? What did he just say? I was stupified by his mere statement. I mean, where did Sean go and why did he let this ruthless bastard in front of me?

"Sean... can't you... really remember me?" I hate that I sound like begging for him. I never begged in my entire life! A Queen never begs... but look at me, right now. Stupid Blaire.

But I was hoping that he does remember me, even a little. We had a rough start as a couple, I admit that. But we eventually found comfort. That tiny hope... I rekindled just got burned out because of the way Sean looks at me ridiculously right now.

I feel pathetic. 

"I don't even know your name or where you came from. You just entered and they introduced you to me as my wife. Do you think our situation is some kind of joke? Because I agree," Sean ruthlessly stated.

I felt like... the Sean that I knew just a week ago, totally vanished. That Sean never existed, like I woke up from the dream and was slapped by reality.  

It's a miracle that I could stand straight even though I am dizzy right now because of the sudden flow of emotions. My head's exploding and my heart is killing me.  Ang sakit marinig sa kaniya ang mga salita na iyon pero mas masakit pala na hindi na makita ang unang Sean na nakilala ko.

Will he ever come back to me though? 

"A-Are you done? Can I leave now because I feel unwanted?" Mahinahon kong tanong kay Sean.

He is not your Sean anymore, Blaire. He is just someone who unfortunately looks like your husband but he isn't. Your husband is way nicer and gentle than him. This man is nothing compared to your Sean.

Nang hindi siya sumagot ay tumango na ako at tinanggap ang walang salita niyang pag-ayon sa tanong ko. As I was about to turn around and leave, he spoke. 

"Did we had sex?"

That stopped me from moving. How... ruthless. Without any hesitation, he asked me that. I cannot believe him. And he asked nonchalantly!

"What if I say yes?" I asked.

And he responded with a, "oh".

I smiled at him sarcastically. "We did, Sean, unfortunately for you. You must be regretting it by now, huh."

Pride. That was the only thing that gives me the courage to talk to Sean. If he is going to be ruthless then I'm going to be prideful Blaire. I should have seen this coming when I was notified about the possibility of amnesia. 

Hindi siya nagsalita matapos kong sabihin iyon kaya nagpasya na along ituloy ang naudlot kong balak. Hawak ko na ang handle nang tumingin ulit ako kay Sean. He was staring at the ceiling.

"And Sean," he transferred his gaze to me. "I'm hoping for your fast recovery."

I thought he would at least smile or nod at me but he didn't. He just stared at me blankly like I am some kind of unsolved puzzle to him. 

Maybe for I am now a stranger to him with a wrecked heart and soul.

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