Wreck (Royal Series #4) COMPLETED

Epilogue

Epilogue

The West Clan

As much as I wanted to stay in place, embracing him and keeping him close to me, I also wanted to know what happened. That's why I chose to put a distance between us and dragged him with me to our room - to talk. Just talk. 

Why do I sound bitter anyway? Right, because ever since we somehow got back together, he never do something intimate! Even kissing. And it frustrates me so much. 

I closed the door and found him waiting for me where I left him kaya napailing ako. He really won't move an inch. I once again dragged him to the couch where we could talk. He, coming back home to me should be enough, it actually is. But I am also eager to know the decision.

"What happened?" I asked. 

Hindi siya nagsalita agad at tumitig lang sa akin. Then he placed a few strands of my hair behind my ear. "I'm proud of you, wife," he said instead.

"I've watched your statement while in there and you really made me proud."

Hearing him say those words warmed my heart. It felt so good to be recognized but it actually felt so better to know that I, myself, am proud of what I did. There is nothing better than that. His compliment just made it so much better.

"But you aren't answering my question, Sean," sabi ko dahil iniba niya ang pinag-uusapan namin. It's unfair, he knew what happened here while I don't have any idea what happened to custody.

He pursued his lips and sighed. Then he took my hand and enclasped it with his. "I'd have to step down from my position."

I was expecting that but I still can't stop myself from reacting violently. In my perspective, it was unfair. It wasn't his fault, it was just an unfortunate accident. But to the Custody, nothing could ever justify the word, unfortunately. There was to be someone to blame for. 

The Clan suffered for days. They were all dreading who will lead the clan because, without a leader, there will be chaos and no order at all. That's why the people suffered for days and of course, the Custody won't turn their blind eye to that. It is after all their job to carefully assess the welfare of the people.

Sean sighed. "I should be held accountable for disregarding my responsibilities. For a moment, I've become selfish and forgotten the fact that there are people... relaying on me yet I abandoned them."

He is guilty. I can see from his eyes that he felt like he abandoned them when he should not have. Because he knew, that the people placed their hopes on him. But he shattered them. 

"Sean," tawag ko sa kaniya.

"You don't have to feel that way because no matter how nice you are and no matter how much you wanted to do good for the people, if you, yourself is not okay, then you cannot accomplish your goals. You wanted to fix their lives but how could you when your life is a mess?"

Because he was the one who taught me that. If I were to save people, I should also learn how to save myself. It doesn't work one way because as much as the people need me, I also need my people. 

"I love you," iyon lang ang naging sagot niya na nagpangiti sa akin. Sean has his own ways on making my heart beat faster. I bit my lip and shook my head at him.

"Until when is the punishment? A year?" Tanong ko dito.

Hindi siya agad nagsalita at iyon ang ikinakaba ko. I don't like his silence. May masama akong kutob dito pero hindi ko lang magawang isantinig. Because I'm afraid that if I voice it out, it will be true.

I don't want it to be true.

"I cannot be reinstated anymore, Blaire."

Tears formed in my eyes because I silently dreamed of us leading this clan together. Making decisions together and planning the future of our people together. It was two of us... 

He smiled at me and caressed my cheeks. "They wanted to bring you down with me but I refuse to. That's why I made a bargain."

"Please say something," mahinang sabi nito.

"Why? Why would you bargain something like that?"

"Because I don't want to take that away from you. You love leading the clan, Blaire. You had to step away from the leadership when you married me because they questioned your power and credibility as a woman. You had to watch me make decisions that were the complete opposite of your goal. And you had to silently protest in it and sit idly in your position as if it doesn't bother you."

"Am I wrong, Blaire?"

Hindi ako nakasagot sa tanong niya at yumuko na lang. My heart hurts so bad while listening to him. Hindi ko alam anong ginawa ko at nakatagpo ako ng taong katulad niya. He is too much. It was like his existence should be forbidden because he is way too good for anyone.

"My wife, you may not be able to say anything to me but I am not blind. I am a firm believer in myself, you know that. I trust myself so much that when I bargained with the Custody, I know I made the right decision."

Then he smiled at me. "I know from the beginning that it wasn't my calling. I was too soft for people that they could easily waver my decisions which is something a leader should not possess."

"You should lead the clan, Blaire. No one deserves that position other than you and doesn't even think that it doesn't belong to you because you are a woman. A leader knows no gender. You should not waste your time saying those words to prove them wrong because you don't have to put in such an effort. It's already evident that that position is rightfully yours."

"Why... why are you making me cry?" Sabi ko habang nakatago ang mukha sa dibdib niya.

I felt him chuckle as he caressed my head. "Son, your mom is such a cry baby."

"I will now be a house-husband," natawa siya sa sarili niyang sinabi. I rose from my position just to roll my eyes at him. "What? It's true. We will be waiting for you every day and I will raise our child while you are gone."

"Then I will eagerly come home every day just to spend the rest of my day with you and our child," nakangiti kong sabi sa kaniya. He nodded and gathered me in his arms.

We are inside our home yet his arms felt more like home to me. Comfort is an understatement to what he is making me feel. It is beyond that. It is the unnameable feeling that makes you want to spend your day with him doing nothing at all because, with him, there will be no dark moments, only gray. 

"Graeishaughn Matthew," bigla kong sabi. "Then we're gonna call him, gray."

Gray. Because at an early age, I already know that life is not full of rainbows and unicorns. The life I envisioned when I was young was black, too dark, and too cold. Because I was terrified that I will make mistakes and fall into the disappointment track. 

But then Sean came. He was able to turn the black life I have to gray because of him. It wasn't still full of sunshine because life is too unpredictable to say such a thing. But I could say that my life is a lot better when with him. It made me feel like I could continue putting the wrecked pieces of me together.

With Sean beside me and Gray in my arms, I would lead my clan towards success.

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