Wreck (Royal Series #4) COMPLETED

Chapter Twenty-Eight

Chapter Twenty-Eight

Wreck

"W-what? What are you talking about? Sasama ako sayo pag-uwi! Blaire!" Alma niya agad, I already expected this kind of reaction from him anyway. What surprised me is his... push to come back home. Mali ba ako ng nasa isip? Am I assuming wrong things again?

He seemed so desperate to come back home. Ako lang ba ang nakakaramdam ng mali? I'm so confused. My resolve was already firm but the way he responded wrecked it. It made me doubt my speculation.

"Blaire, don't do this to me. I know, I know it may seem like I was not ready, but when will I be ready if I don't face it now? Should I just keep on running away from it?"

Hindi parin ako makapagsalita. It feels like I lost the ability to speak. His pained face... I just want to agree with whatever he is saying just to erase it.

They were right all along... he will be the downfall. Because with him, I could not see anything but him. I just wanted to be good for him. But this... this isn't just about us.

When I opened my mouth to finally speak, my phone rang. Parehas kaming napatingin doon dahil hawak ko. It was Kuya Vince. He probably knew where I am right now because of Dusk. He knew kung sino ang kasama ko, I wonder why he is calling me right now?

I feel uneasy with his call kaya sinagot ko habang nakaharap kay Sean.

"You're with Sean, yes?" Bungad sa akin. Hindi pa ako nakakasagot ay dinugtungan na niya agad. "I know you are. Don't move, papunta na ako diyan."

"Why?" He sounded so urgent. It was so unlike of him because Kuya Vince was always calm.

"I'll tell you when I get there. I'll be there in five," he said and ended the call.

Sean was silently asking me what was the phone call about. I brushed my hair in frustration. Something is wrong, dama ko iyon sa boses ni Kuya Vince.

I was about to go inside when Sean grabbed my arms and made me face him. "We aren't done talking."

"Right," tumango ako sa kaniya. "Okay, come back home with me," mabilis kong sabi sa kaniya at halos wala na sa sarili. My mind is too preoccupied at the moment that I just agreed to whatever he said.

Sean sighed. "I'll come back home whether you like it or not, Blaire. I want to know what was that about. Don't you want me to come back home with you?"

When I heard Sean's painful voice, my mind suddenly cleared up. I can now hear his voice clearly and I am now aware of the situation. His question somehow pained me. He sounded like a little kid whose mother is going to leave him alone for some reason.

I looked at him and sighed. I don't want him to think that way because that wasn't my intention from the beginning.  "I've been waiting for you to come back, Sean. If it isn't obvious, I sneaked out of the Palace with hopes of seeing you in the streets. But then I saw you..."

And I heard his doubts and pain during the time when we were together. I don't want to make him feel that way again. It made me feel like I will be dragging him back to the place that suffocated him.

His words will be forever etched in my mind, how he said that my presence suffocates him. I know he only said that because he is currently having a war against himself but it also made me think that... what if it is really what he felt during those times he was with me?

Just like he said, he was just waiting for me to speak up about my problems. That feeling itself must have suffocated him, knowing that I cannot disclose anything to him.

"And you thought I am more at peace when I am not beside you? Is that it, Blaire? Is that how you really see me? A shallow person who easily backs down and relies on comfort?" 

Umiling ako sa kaniya. "No... I just can't have you back with me in exchange for you... being trapped and suffocated again," I honestly said. 

He closed his eyes for a moment and when he opened it, he dragged me closer to him and caressed my face carefully. He was staring at me like he was trying to pierce my soul with his gaze.

"I know I was right not to believe those people who said you were selfish," he said.

"I am selfish."

He shook his head and smiled a bit. "No, wife. You aren't, because if you are, then you should not have given any consideration and just went on to what you wanted."

After that, he leaned down and placed a chaste kiss on my forehead, and inhaled my scent. Then he pulled away, making me look at his eyes again. 

"Listen to me, wife. I get that you wanted to protect everyone around you, that's your nature. You don't want them to be hurt. But, wife, making yourself a shield every time doesn't make you a hero. You aren't saving them, you are teaching them to be cowards and stay behind your shadow."

Sean... gosh. How could he make my heart flutter even in this situation? His words... and the way he deliver it to me so I won't be offended... He is really back, my Sean.

"I ain't one of them, wife. I refuse to stay in your shadow because I want to stand beside you. I won't even dare to stand in front of you because I know you can protect yourself but allow me to stand beside you... as someone you can rely on, someone you can depend on, and someone you can hold onto."

With tears in my eyes, I slowly nodded at him. Maybe it is time, to finally repair the wrecked Blaire. I've been protecting my people for so long that I used myself as their shield. I've been saving them from despair even it costs me being the one in their position. I've been embracing all the sufferings just so they could live a peaceful life.

I've been wrecked for so long that I thought no one can fix me anymore... but there is someone who had the courage to step out of my shadow and turn on the lights to heal my scars and wounds.

He pulled me again for a hug. This is my comfort. He is my comfort, he has always been. Even back in the palace, his presence makes it seem like everything is okay. He has that power over me. And I'm only wishing that nothing else will separate me from my comfort anymore.

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2 Chapters + Sean's POV + Epilogue and we'll say goodbye to the power couple.