Losing It ~ TeenWolf

Part 21

Liam

Charlotte was sat at the island, playing with her fingers, she refused to look up at us.

I knew that Theo knew about Charlotte being a werewolf and he didn't tell me. I had become good at being able to tell his lies from his truth and I could tell that he was being secretive, he was always being careful with his words, making sure that he wouldn't say something that could rise suspicion.

After Charlotte had been shot, he was weirdly quiet, same as Stiles, he also didn't seem as scared or shocked as he normally would've been, which usually would be fine, but I just had a bad feeling about it.

My suspicions were confirmed when he turned to me, he was very visibly worried because he and I both knew that this wouldn't end well.

"I'm sorry." He said.

"Sorry for what?" I wanted him to admit that he hadn't been telling me the truth.

"For not telling you about Charlotte before."

"It's supposed to be you and me," I raised my voice slightly, "you're my boyfriend, you're supposed to tell me things especially when it has to do with my sister."

"I know and I'm sorry but she told me she would tell you and I didn't want to take that from her."

"I don't care, we aren't supposed to keep secrets, if we start keeping secrets, then we start lying to each other and I don't want to lose you."

"You won't, I promise." He was almost pleading with me at this point.

"But that's the problem, how do I know that if we keep secrets."

"Liam, how do I fix this? I don't.. I can't lose you."

"I think.. I just need some space."

"Should I go?" He looked down at the floor and his voice was small.

I looked down and nodded, I looked back up to meet his eyes and he nodded slightly at me.

I watched him walk through the kitchen, Charlotte gave him a sorrowful look and then he walked out of the door.

I had to admit, I did feel bad. With him gone now, I was left alone, I felt more alone than I had ever done before. Normally, I can call or text Theo whenever I wanted to and he would come over, but now, I pushed him away and I don't know if he will want to see me, for a while at least.

I turned to face Charlotte but she wasn't looking at me, I walked over to the island and took a seat across from her. She looked up slightly and I saw that she had tears in her eyes.

"I'm sorry..." she said quietly, "..that I didn't tell you sooner, I wanted to.. but I didn't know how to bring it up."

"You can tell me anything, always. I would never be ashamed of you, I may get angry and upset but you're my sister.. basically my only family, at this point." I let out a dry laugh and looked down at the counter.

"I just wanted to protect you, from my past, from... me." She whispered as a single tear fell down her cheek.

"Whatever is going on, we will work through it togethor. I am not letting you deal with this by yourself."

"Thank you." She wiped the tear from her cheek and stayed quiet for a moment before she looked up and smiled slightly. "Do you have any more questions? Anything I can answer for you?"

"What's going on with you and Stiles?" I asked. I had noticed the way they hugged after her lacrosse practice, also the way she always sits next to him at lunch, the little glances and comments.

She smiled slightly and looked down. "I'm not exactly sure, but I really like him and I think he likes me too."

"I can tell he does." I added.

She smiled and looked down, we stayed quiet for a few minutes before she sighed and looked back up. "Why'd you get rid of Theo?" She asked.

"I just... need some space to figure shit out, I guess." I sighed.

"Figure out what? You're not breaking up with him are you? Not over this? I don't want to be the reason you guys broke up, I mean, you've been together for so long and I don't want to come here and wreck shit, I just-" she rambled.

"Hey." I interrupted. "It's not your fault, alright? Things have felt... off for a little while and it's no ones fault. After the break in February we had to distance a bit, cause of everyone, y'know? I mean, during the break it was great, we didn't have to worry about anything, it was just me and him but after we distanced.. It hasn't really felt the same." It felt nice to finally open up about everything I had been feeling.

"Shit... I'm sorry, I've been so distracted by my own crap that I didn't realise you needed someone to talk to.." she said.

It felt strange after so long to talk to her like we used to, there was so much we needed to catch up on but things kept getting in the way. A lot had changed, I figured out who I was and who I wanted to be with, we were both werewolves, which I was still wrapping my head around, she somehow became an alpha to a huge pack. I felt like I hardly knew her but the comforting feeling that stuck to my chest told me that I was glad that she was back, no matter how hard I would've liked to deny it.

"Not everything has to fall on you." I breathed out a laugh, "you don't need to take care of everything and everyone."

"But you're my baby brother, I feel like I need to." She gave me a sympathetic smile.

"In case you haven't noticed, not so much a baby anymore."

She laughed, "I noticed. So, tell me about mum, I mean, I know she wasn't very reliable when we were kids but at least she came home... most nights."

"She has some new business she's working for, I think she's trying to trick me into thinking she's sleeping with guys."

"Why would she be trying to trick you into thinking that? I mean, wouldn't she want to hide that?"

"To cover up something else. Drugs," I shrugged. "Sleeping with some random dude isn't illegal but drugs definitely is."

"Why would she be doing drugs?"

"Who knows? Maybe she has a new boyfriend who is into it."

I stood up and went into the living room to grab the bottles. I shoved them back into the bag and walked back into the kitchen, placing the bag onto the counter.

"We should probably get to sleep, it's late."

She gave me a slight smile before standing up and putting her, half empty, Pepsi bottle back into the fridge.

"You want me to hide those in my room?" She asked and pointed past me at the bag of alcohol.

"I think if mom were to suspect anything, your room would be the first place she'd look." I gave her a half smile and she returned the gesture.

"Fair. Goodnight." She said as she walked out of the kitchen and upstairs.

I grabbed the bag no one hand and used the other to turn off any lights as I made my way upstairs.

I hid the bag in my closet under some dirty washing I had and fell backwards onto my bed.

I took my phone out of my pocket and stared at the bright screen for what felt like hours. I was waiting for him to call or even just text, I wanted him to know that I wasn't mad at hi, but I guess I was too scared to do it myself.

Eventually, I fell asleep with my phone in my hands and my clothes still on.