Losing It ~ TeenWolf

Part 47

Charlotte

I sat down at the dinner table while Stiles and his father brought out the food.

I had offered to help them but they insisted that I was the guest.

Stiles put a plate of pizza on the table and I felt instantly slightly nauseas, I hadn't been eating much recently so the smell of the grease was sickly.

Stiles's father brought in a bowl of salad and some drinks.

They both sat down, Stiles sitting next to me and his dad sitting opposite.

"Take whatever you'd like, there's plenty more if we need it." Mr Stilinski said.

"Thank you.. for having me, sorry if this is a burden." I said without looking up, even though I felt entirely out of place and awkward, I couldn't help but apologise for having to stay with them.

"It's no problem, really, stay as long as you need." He answered.

"Thank you." I smile slightly.

"So dad, are you coming to the game on Tuesday?" Stiles asked.

"Yeah, I should be." He answered.

I was a little anxious about the game, I'd never played with the team before so I wasn't sure how it would work.

But I had my fair share of experience when it came to games, in France I would go to every one and I loved it.

"You're playing too, aren't you?" Stiles asked.

"Yeah, I am, so is Liam." I smiled and took a bite from a slice of pizza.

"Are your parents coming to watch, Charlotte?" Mr Stilinski asked.

I swallowed the piece of pizza painfully.

"Dad.." Stiles warned.

"No, it's ok. No, they won't be, they don't even know about it." I wasn't fragile, mentioning my parents wasn't going to break me so it didn't bother me.

"Well, I'll be there cheering you on then." Mr Stilinski said and I couldn't help but smile, I was glad that I had someone to cheer me on.

"Thanks." I smiled again.

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Once we finished our food, we put our dishes in the dish washer, I helped clean the table, I insisted that I wanted to do my fair share.

Stiles and I went upstairs and I took a shower, I grabbed my clothes and placed them on the sink counter, I took off my clothes and placed them out of the way on the floor.

I stared at myself in the mirror, it was something that I did occasionally, I studied my body, my eyes wondering from my face to my waist, the mirror wasn't long enough to see anything further.

I had definitely gained weight in the last few days and I was good.

My shoulder blades stuck out into my skin along with my hip bones but it wasn't as noticeable as the last time.

I stepped into the shower, it took me a little while before I managed to figure out how to work it but I washed my body and my hair before shaving and then stepping out, I dried myself off and got changed.

I grabbed my shower bag and then went back into Stiles's room.

He was lay on his bed looking up at the tv on the wall looking through Netflix.

I put my old clothes and shower bag into my back pack and grabbed my phone, sitting down on his desk chair I opened Liam's messages.

Charlotte
Hey, just checking in,
did you get to stay at Theo's?
21:04

I stared at my phone in my hand waiting for Liam to reply, I needed to know that he was ok.

"What are you doing?" Stiles whined.

"Trying to get hold of Liam." I said, biting my thumb nail out of anxiety.

"Come to bed, he'll be ok, he's resilient." Stiles said, holding out his arm for me to get into his bed next to him.

I turned off my phone and went over to my back pack, pulling out a smaller purse, I put my phone on the nightstand and sat on his bed next to him,crossing my legs and opening the purse.

I tipped out its contents and three bottles of pills fell out along with a slip of more pills.

"Which ones are these all for?" Stiles asked, sitting up.

"Well, these," I picked up one of th bottles, "are benzodiazepines, anxiety meds," I placed them down and picked up another bottle, "these are antidepressants," I put them down and picked up the last bottle, "these are for weight gaining, my doctors recommended them but they aren't compulsory unlike the other two. And then these," I picked up the slip, "are just birth control." I shrugged.

"Hmm." Stiles hummed, running his hands along my shoulders and kissing up and down my neck.

His lips attached to the skin just under my ear lobe and butterflies swirled in my stomach.

Stiles pressed his hand to my inner thigh and inched closer.

I put my hand on his to stop him and then I pulled away slightly.

"Stiles... I.. I can't." I said looking down.

"You can't what?" He asked, holding my hand in his.

"I... I don't like.. sex." I said awkwardly. I looked into his eyes trying to make sure that he wasn't taking my words the wrong way.

"Was it.. wadi it something I did?" He asked, looking down at our hands.

"No. No.. not at all, I just.. I tried it out, but I just.. don't really like it?" I questioned myself, I didn't exactly know how to explain it. "Amy says that there's something called asexuality which is where a person experienced little to no sexual desire.. It can change but at the minute I'd rather just be here.. with you." I smiled.

"That's ok. We can take it one step at a time." He smiled and grabbed a water bottle from the nightstand before passing it to me and looking down at my pills.

I opened the three bottles, rowing the three pills with one mouthful of water, then I pushed the smaller pull out of the slip and took that one too.

Stiles lay back down and lay his arm down flat on the bed, I lay my face on his chest and he hugged me close to his body as we tried to find a show to watch.