Losing It ~ TeenWolf

Part 42

Charlotte

I started the car and drove down the street, getting ready for the 1 hour journey to the shittiest place ever.

The atmosphere was easy, I'd never experienced any sort of tension when it came to being alone with Amy, she was a very chill person and she accepted everyone for everything, every flaw, she overlooked, it was just the type of person she was.

I met her when she was 13, it was around a year after I had transferred to the school and she had been put into the same dorm as me and Fiona. I was already a werewolf at that point but she had no idea about the supernatural world.

After two months of her being there, I had killed my alpha and she found out everything. She wasn't hard to convince, even though I wasn't the one who convinced her. I didn't want her caught up in all of this considering how young she was but she was also very persistent. After only a month of knowing about the supernatural, she got her wish, it was some sort of initiation thing I had to do to see if I was strong enough to actually be the alpha, if I wanted to remain an alpha, remain alive, then I needed to prove that I was strong enough to turn someone, so it was a benefit for both me and her.

Amy turned to me and I already knew what she was going to say, I could see it in her eyes. 

"So, you and Stiles, huh?" She raised her eyebrow, smirking at me.

"I guess so." I said without taking my eyes off the road.

"Well.. details, please. Was it good?" She asked.

"Yeah, it was, I mean, I have nothing to compare it to but yeah.. it was good." I said, still not looking at her.

"How? What did you do? Was it just... handjobs, or was it more?"

"God, you're such a prude." I grimaced.

"I know." She beamed.

"Well.. no, it was more." I said.

"Aww, my girl isn't a virgin anymore." She fake pouted. "I was beginning to think you'd be lonely forever."

"Gee, thanks." I rolled my eyes.

"That's it? You have nothing more to say?" She laughed slightly.

"What more can I say?"

"Well, usually when people, yknow, have sex, they are... happy. Why are you so.. dull?" She asked.

Now that she'd mentioned it, I did feel sort of off, my body didn't feel like it was mine.

"I don't know what more I can say to you." I said, glancing slightly over at her.

"Well... how did you feel after?" She asked.

"Odd. I felt like I had lost something and not in a good way or anything. I felt nothing. It was really strange." I admitted.

"So you didn't like it?"

"I'm not sure, I mean, I wasn't really into it as much as I convinced myself that I was."

"What does that mean?"

I sighed. "I think that I convinced myself that I liked it because people told me I was supposed to."

"So you didn't like it?"

"It's more that I didn't feel anything, I didn't dislike it, I just didn't feel that way."

"What way?"

I sighed. "How everyone explains it. They say it's erotic and pleasurable but I just didn't feel that way, I guess."

"That's a thing, y'know, we were learning about it in sex Ed class, it's called being asexual, it's a person who has little to no sexual attraction to anyone." She said.