Losing It ~ TeenWolf

Part 35

Charlotte

I woke up and I was still downstairs on the sofa. There was a blanket hung loosely over my body which I assumed was Liam.

I looked up at the window and saw that it was dark outside. I had slept all day.

I heard quiet voices coming from the kitchen, I directed my eyes to where they were coming from and saw that Theo and Liam were sat at the island eating some food they had made.

The smell immediately made me feel nauseous. On any other day, it would've smelt amazing but that day I just couldn't stand it.

I took the blanket off of my body and stood up slowly making sure not to stand up too suddenly. My body still ached and my brain was still foggy.

They both looked at me as soon as they saw that I was awake.

"Hey.. we made you some food, it's in the microwave if you want it." Liam said.

I smiled slightly at him and I could see that he appreciated the gesture.

It was nice to see him and Theo in the same room again and I could tell that there was no tension, I figured that was a good thing and just assumed the best.

I walked over to the microwave and pressed the button and the door opened. I was hit with the smell of sea food and my stomach flipped, bile rose up my throat quicker than I could handle, I slammed my hand onto my moth as I turned and ran for the bathroom, luckily, we had a downstairs bathroom too or I would never have made it.

I bent down over the toilet and shoved my head into the bowl as my stomach emptied the little content it had.

My throat was burning and tears streamed down my face.

I felt a comforting hand on my back and immediately recognised it to be Liam.

Once my stomach was empty, I let out a sob and pulled myself away from the toilet. Liam had already stood up and I stood up too.

I looked up at him through my blurred eyes and just cried, his presence brought so much guilt and honestly made me feel worse but I needed my brother.

He wrapped his arms around me and held me tightly. Liam stood slightly taller than me so he rested his chin on the top of my head.

"I'm sorry.. I'm so sorry." I sobbed into his chest.

"It's ok." He shushed.

I felt bad for so many things, I knew that he knew everything because I was sure that Amy told him everything that I told her.

I wanted to take it back, I wanted to have taken my meds that day, it would've saved Liam all of this pain, it would've saved Amy so much worry and it would've saved Theo and Liam breaking up.

Liam and I stayed like that for a while longer and it made me feel safe, he made me feel safe.

I was no longer hurt or angry that they had made me take my pills, I was almost grateful.

Being off them made me confident and powerful but also irrational and impulsive. I wasn't of sound mind, I killed someone even when I told him I wouldn't, I basically kidnapped Nolan, I argued with my mother and now she probably hates me.

Being on my meds made me more emotional but I was also in control of my actions, I could think and rationalise my actions, I could make sense of right and wrong and the world around me.

Liam pulled away from me and I wiped my eyes with the sleeves of my jumper.

"Come on, you should sit down." Liam said.

Theo pushed himself off from the door frame and followed after us as Liam led us into the kitchen.

He sat me down at the island and I watched as he whizzed around the kitchen, he was making hot chocolates, one for me and then one for him and Theo.

When he was done, he passed me and Theo our cups, I held my hands around my mug and let the liquid warm up my skin.

The two boys say down at the island next to each other on the opposite side to me.

"Why did you throw up?" Theo asked breaking the silence.

"Other than that sandwich from before, I haven't eaten in three days." I said looking at the mug in my hands.

"Jesus. How much have you eaten over the past week?" Liam asked.

"Three or four meals worth, spread out over the days."

"So.. you were gone for a week and a half and you had three meals?" Theo said basically putting in perspective what I had said.

"I didn't really feel like it." I shrugged.

"Well, you need to eat." Liam said.

"I will... I just have to start small, you can't just force an entire meal down." I said.

"Can you tell us about everything you learnt from that guy and then also Nolan?" Theo asked.

"It's all a bit foggy in my mind but I was trying to make sense of it all earlier. So, I used to work for this guy, his name was Duron, later on I killed him 'cause, well, frankly, he deserved it. Turns out, the people who are trying to kill me now work for his daughter and she knows that I killed her dad." I said.

"And his daughter is Monroe?" Liam guessed.

"Yeah. Nolan said he would get me more information but I doubt he'll be intimidated by my skeleton looking ass." I smiled to myself.

I took a sip from my cup and felt my insides warm up immediately.

"What did Nolan say when you spoke to him?" Theo asked.

"He said he didn't like all of the death, I think he'll help." I said.

"But can we trust him?" Liam asked.

"Oh, no, definitely not." I said taking another sip from the cup, they both smiled.

"Alright, so what do we do?" Theo asked.

"Take it one day at a time, I guess." I said.

"Are you coming to school tomorrow?" Liam asked.

"If I can then probably but I might still feel sick but I'll do my best." I offered them a weak smile.