Losing It ~ TeenWolf

Part 62

Charlotte

I spent the next week in my bed, I got up maybe twice to go to the toilet and ended up throwing up while I was there.

I only ate or drank when there was no one in the room which annoyingly there usually was whether it was Liam or Stiles or Fiona or Cora or even my mother which surprised me.

Apparently she had known everything from the start, the supernatural and Liam had filled her in on.. Amy.

It hurt when people talked about her to me especially the boys, they didn't even know her and they were telling me that she wouldn't want to see me like this as if I chose to be fucking manic. Well, I kind of did, in a way.

I refused my pills even though I was offered them by everyone every five minutes. Over the days everyone managed to say the exact same thing every single day and at a certain point I learned to ignore them.

And then there was the day, my third day without sleep, five days after Amy died when I started hearing the voices.

At first I ignored them like I did with everyone but then they started getting worse and I couldn't help it.

It's all your fault.

"I know..." I mumbled tiredly.

She would've been alive if it wasn't for you.

"It's my fault." I agreed.

Her parents are grieving right now and you aren't comforting them.

"They wouldn't want to see me... not after I killed her.."

There will be a funeral. Will you be there to mourn over the girl you killed?

"I can't..."

She was only 15. You took her.

"She told me she loved me..." I tried to reason

That's because she was scared. Of you.

"I know..." I breathed.

Liam

Over the few days after Amy's death, I noticed Charlotte getting worse and worse.

I walked into her room and stood in the door way and just watched her. Until I heard her talking to herself. I didn't understand what she was saying but it was the first thing she had said in nearly a week.

I had no idea what she was talking about until I heard those three words 'I killed her.' That finally made me realise.

I knew she blamed herself, everyone did. But it really killed me to hear her say it out loud.

She continued to mumble sentences and the rest didn't really make sense but I felt so guilty stood there watching instead of doing anything so I sighed deeply and slowly walked over to her bed, sitting down. Her body visibly tensed and I became anxious.

"Charlie, I feel like I haven't seen you in forever." I let out a small sad laugh. "The team misses you, you were the star player at that game, most of your teachers have asked about you, 'what's wrong?' and 'when will you be back?' Most of them say you're their favourite student." I smile.

She didn't answer and that's ok, I knew she wasn't but I couldn't help but wish she did.

I watched her for a few more minutes before standing up. I looked at her bedside table and saw that her pills were in the same place as they were days before.

I walked out of her room, shutting the door after myself and made my way down the stairs.

Theo was stood restlessly in the kitchen and Stiles was sat on the L shaped sofa whilst my mother was chopping up food for dinner.

I stepped into the kitchen and they all saw the disappointed look on my face and they deflated.

"I don't know why you bother." My mother says.

"Because she's basically hurting herself, she's not taking her meds and she's going to get worse unless we can get her to talk to doctor Cruez." I answer annoyed. She didn't really seem to care about Amy of this and it ticked me off more than anything.

Doctor Cruez is a physician, a banshee physician. My mother suggested her a few days ago and said that I should try and get Charlotte to talk to her but I've reached a dead end. Dr Cruez was expecting us to call again at some point but we hadn't gotten back to her.

"She won't listen to you, doesn't matter how hard you try." My mother said.

"Can you just stop?" I ask rubbing my hands over my face.

Theo wraps his arms around me and I sigh into his embrace, hugging my arms around his back.

Everything had become such a mess and I felt so overwhelmed all the time. I was so glad I had Theo by my side, I wouldn't have been able to handle it without him.