Sour But Sweet

Chapter 25

Elena pov

I don't think I'll need to shop for god knows how long. The girls and the guys took the liberty of buying me maternity clothes even though none of them know how big I will be. I had to firmly say no to some of the things Damon picked but luckily I had Jeremy helping Kol and Damon. The girls on the other hand fought over what is better not bothering to ask what I think. Is this what it's going to be like? Having others choose what I wear and do when my stomach is bigger than what it is. Throughout the day I have felt as if I was more connected to him. At one point I felt as If I was flashing back to where he was staying. Then it was more than that. Memories of his past. I haven't had anything like this at all yet and now suddenly it's all happening. Is he coming back? Or am I just hungry? From the outside of the shop we're in I spot Elijah. "Elijah" I called out to him for him to come over. He approaches us and I allow my weight to fall on him. "Please tell me sister that you didn't teach these two girls from Mystic Falls how to buy more than what you need" Elijah rhetorically asks. Rebekah rolls her eyes at Elijah. "Not that we don't love being your personal slaves but can we please leave now" Damon begs.

"Ugh you're no fun" Caroline complains. I used to love shopping, now it just tires me. Aren't I supposed to be less tired being a hybrid? "Caroline we have been in the mall for three hours and some of us don't have the patience to stick around for another 3 hours more" Ric states. Wow Ric could be pushy when he wants too. Caroline sighs in frustration while the guys sigh in relief.

When the others start to move towards the entry I hold onto Elijah tighter. "I need blood, I haven't had any today, it slipped my mind" I whispered to him.

"Drink from me" I stop dead more than what I already am by my brother's request. Jeremy is a vampire hunter and he wants me to drink from him. "Jer no I can't do that to you" I turn him down except he looks over to Elijah then back to me. "Elena, you're my sister and it's okay. If you try and take too much Elijah will pull you back," Jeremy pleads. I guess I'm not going to win this argument. We follow the others out first before I find a bare corner that I can feed in. Damon and Caroline start up a fake argument to cause a distraction while I feed.

I bite into Jeremy's wrist and take in the blood from the vein. He winces a little when my fangs pierce his skin. His blood rushes through me, intoxicating me. The adrenaline soon kicks in causing me to want more. I take more in before I reach my satisfaction. I pulled away! I was able to control the bloodlust. Elijah covers up the bite on Jermey's wrist while I wipe the blood off my mouth. "Thank you Jer" I give him a quick hug and we continue to move along with the others.

I plump myself on the couch when we get back to the manor. Something within me made me feel as if Klaus is getting closer to the City but I am not certain. I want him to return but what would I say to him? It's been a month and a bit with no contact. The only contact I had was the connection last night. Christmas had a way of bringing things back. At 8pm Cami, Davina, Marcel, and Haley will arrive and all of us will have a Christmas dinner. Elijah and Kol started cooking as soon as we got home with a bottle of bourbon beside them. "Elena, can I run something past you?" Bonnie asks, sitting beside me. "Yeah what's up?" I hope that it's nothing bad that she needs to tell me. I don't need any more drama, let alone waiting. "I know that Davina has been monitoring your pregnancy but something isn't sitting well with me and I want to see if I'm wrong or not" she answers. Bonnie sounds as if she is confused but I trust her. She places her hands on her stomach and closes her eyes. When she opens them she smiles. "I was curious to know how far along you will carry the baby for, Davina is right, possibly only 7 months or less" less than 7 months. How long until I'm going to be holding a child!? I'm two and a half months along so if it's 7 months then I only have 4 and a half months left! This is happening way too fast let alone not knowing when I'm giving birth. "Hey Bonnie can you send Elijah up to my room for me?" I ask her. Bonnie smiles in return so I go up to my room and stand by my window.

I feel as if I am a completely different person. I go to bed at night thinking about the past and pushing it away like it's nothing. The Elena Gilbert back then would be disgusted in the one now. I still remember the night of my parents death, the night I should've died. That was the night everything changed but I didn't know it yet. I want to be able to remember that moment and not fear it. I died off that bridge because of revenge. I want to be able to not fear those memories and live not in fear. I want to give this child a life not in fear. The most hunted original is the father of my baby and it scares me. He leaves and I'm supposed to trust that he is safe and not rotting somewhere. I don't want my child to live in fear like I do.

"Lovely Elena you asked for me" I stay standing by my window not moving as Elijah speaks. "I want you to take away the fear that I have to do with Wickery bridge, I want you to compel the fear away Elijah" I request. I turn around to face him as he stands there blankly noble.

"Elena, are you sure this is what you want; fear may be able to be taken away but the compulsion may not stick. Fear is one of our greatest enemies even as vampires," he explains. I know what I want. I want to live in peace but that is too much to ask for.

"It's what I want'' I confirm. Elijah approaches me and his eyes deadlock with mine.

"You will not fear the night your parents died or the night you died on Wickery Bridge, you will remember those nights but not fear them no longer" When Elijah's eyes break away from mine I feel like I'm hit with a bunch of memories from those nights. It worked! I don't scream or cry or even shake the slightest. I can move past it now and not feel the scare towards those nights.

I sit down on my bed facing the window. "You know when I found out I was pregnant I was more than happy, but part of me didn't know if I could keep it. I didn't know if I could have his baby knowing the things he has done. When he left I wondered if I still wanted this chance and I said I do. When he called me his family and that you all accepted me, that is when I made my real decision and knew that I wanted this child" I let out. I hadn't told anyone that but I had to get it out. "Elena, family comes first to all of us and you Elena could've given up that baby and we would've accepted you still. My brother is getting this one chance to turn his whole life around. He's taking it, none of us got that chance to have children of our own and now Nicklaus is getting that chance. It brings hope and faith to this family," he gently says. I haven't looked at this situation in that way. The thought of hope and faith being restored. Klaus's life turning around would mean another side of him. Another side of all of us. "I give you my word Elena, I will always protect you and that child. We all will, ''he promises. Elijah is a man of his word which means this is for real. He didn't have to give me his word to protect me because I already know he would anyways. I get off my bed and walk over to the door but stop and turn around to Elijah. "Come on, we have cooking to do" I cheerfully say. 

Helping in the kitchen is rather fun than what I remember it to be. I baked while Kol and Elijah cooked. Caroline and Bonnie came to help me make some old recipes we knew. Damon, Jeremy, Alaric are helping Rebekah set up for dinner and prepare. I am looking forward to dinner. I got the opportunity to introduce my Mystic Falls family to my family in New Orleans. Bonnie will get to meet another witch, Rebekah will be with Marcel, we will all have someone.

I feel for Damon though. Stefan is back in Mystic Falls while Damon is here. Stefan couldn't stay otherwise nothing would be right where it is. I want to fix things with him and I only know one person who has helped him pull through every other time. "Bonnie I need a favour" I tell her when we're finished baking. Bonnie's face lightens up but soon dulls. "I want to contact Lexi. She can help Stefan and then he won't be alone for Christmas. I know it's a big ask but ''''I'll do it" before I can continue. She cuts me off. I go up to my room with Bonnie and close the door.

We sit on the floor with four candles in each corner. Bonnie holds my hands in hers and chants some sort of spell. When I open my eyes I see the spirit I've been wanting to see. "Well I'm surprised to see you both, so what is the reason I'm getting free time over in the land of the living, oh and Elena on the other side you're the main topic" Lexi is still the girl I met many months ago. I guess the spirits know about Klaus and I.

"It's Stefan, he hasn't reacted well to the news of the baby and mating bond plus I think he's having blood issues" I lay out.

"Say no more, I'll have Stefan back to Stefan that broods but is a softy. Elena congratulations" Lexi says with a smile then she is gone. What did Bonnie do?

"Lexi has a limited time that she can be here for, I hope this works Elena" Bonnie explains. So do I.