365 Days(JENLISA)

CHAPTER 15 (SHE KNOWS)

SUZY'S POV

From outside, I could hear the torrential rain. When Lisa came out, she didn't have an umbrella, so I got up and went to the bedroom to put on my jacket. I also grabbed an umbrella from the unit's front door and exited.

My skin was chilled by the breeze. I'm waiting for the elevator to open, and when it does, a tall man comes up to me and smiles at me, and I smile back before entering.

When we arrived on the ground floor, the elevator reopened, and the guard bowed to me when he spotted me. I departed the building by opening the umbrella I was holding. I rushed to the parking lot because Lisa claimed she had forgotten something in her car, but as I walked I noticed two women shouting with each other in the middle of the rain.

I can't stop myself from loving you!

"Lisa" Even though I knew she couldn't hear me, I mentioned her name.

"I knew it" I'm just waiting for her to admit to herself that she still loves Jennie. I was hurt, but on the other hand I was happy for her because she was finally able to admit the truth.

I just stood there watching them hug till tears welled up in my eyes, which I quickly brushed away. I'm prepared for this, but it still hurts when you're in the exact situation.

It hurts seeing the person you love, cry because of other people, it hurts hearing her say another name when she is drunk, but it hurts me more when she tries to smile even though she is not really happy.

The first time I saw Jennie at the bar was also the first time I saw Lisa smile genuinely. She looks so happy that night but her smile faded suddenly when someone called Jennie and she left.

When she had a drink with Seulgi, and Jennie drove her here, she keeps mentioning Jennie's nickname, she even say sorry for leaving Jennie.

The next day I went to Irene's house, if you're wondering how I found out their house address, well I used my connections. I went there to ask about Jennie and Lisa because I really didn't know anything about them. Lisa never told me about her past. At first it was a bit awkward with Seulgi especially with Irene because Jennie is her friend but when I talked to them they understood me. I found out that they had been in a relationship for three years and lived under the same roof but they also couldn't answer my question as to why Lisa left suddenly. In return I invited them to dinner at home.

When Jennie contacted Irene, I know she want to go to Jennie at the bar. I pretended to Lisa that Ji-eun had called and sent me to them, but the truth is I followed Irene and Seulgi until we arrived where Jennie was. I parked my car nearby, and I wasn't mistaken because I noticed Lisa's car a few minutes later. I had just watched her enter the bar and when she came out, she was with Jennie.

She lowered her head and walked back to the building till she came towards me and when she looked up she was surprised to see me.

I tried to smile at her. "Because you didn't have an umbrella, I decided to follow you" I murmured as I share the umbrella with her.

She didn't say anything, so I held her hand and we walked into the building together. No one said anything to the two of us until we arrived at the unit. She walked straight to her bedroom to change her clothes, then came out and sat in a chair near the window where she could see the view outside. I made coffee for the two of us and approached her and laid it on the table. She was just staring out the window, watching the rain pour down.

"Do you want to talk about it?" I asked her and took a seat across from her. Her eyes were sad and she was clearly crying as she turned her attention to me.

"I'm sorry" She said shortly.

"You don't have to say sorry Lis, I understand" I held her hand. "Give her a chance" She seemed surprised at what I said.

"I can't, babe I love you" She told me.

"I know, but you love her too and I don't want to be selfish babe" I noticed the astonishment in her eyes.

"Will you just let me go? That's it?" Her voice rose a little.

"If she's the one who can give you happiness then yes, I'm willing to let you go" She slowly shook her head.

"I'm not a toy that should begiven away" She was going to rise up when I stopped her.

"Listen to me first. I know you love me because I feel that for over a year we have been together, you have done nothing but make me happy and take care of me, but I am guilty because I can't make you happy. I never saw you genuinely happy, not until you met her again"

She did not answer so I continued speaking.

"You loved me because I was always there when you needed me, you loved me because in me, you found the peace you were looking for. But Jennie, you always love her, even when everything gets messy  you still love her, even when you get tired you love her and even if how many times you leave, she's always the one you looking for"

"Don't afraid to take a risk again, let her prove that she really loves you and don't stop yourself from being happy. Your happiness matters over everything Lisa"

I didn’t show her I was hurting because I didn’t want her to choose me. I want her to choose herself this time. She has done too much for me, maybe this is the time to make her happy.

I stood up and hugged her. "Don't worry about me, it's enough for me to know that you loved me. If I am given a chance to go back in time, I will still love you even though I know I will be hurt again. Because loving you is one of the best things that has happened in my life" I said, she kissed my forehead and say her sorry again.

I love you Lisa, but I guess we're not meant for each other.

- Maybe I was just one of the instruments to fix you but you will never be formed if a part of you is left to other person.

To be continued ~

A/n: I don't understand other blink unsubscribing youtube channel of blackpink but I respect whatever their decisions are.

Btw, Did you miss Lisa? I hope she's doing well right now, I really miss her.