365 Days(JENLISA)

CHAPTER 52 (HER NAME)

Lisa is waiting for her friend's answer, she still can't believe that Chaeyoung signed the divorce papers.

"Are you out of your mind, Chaeng?" Lisa asked.

"I just gave her what she asked for" Chaeyoung answered, coldly.

Lisa massaged her temple, "It's all my fault" she whispered. She blames herself for what happened, Chaeyoung and Jisoo's relationship ruined because of her.

"Can you please stop blaming yourself Lisa?" Chaeyoung said, irritated. "I signed that because I don't need someone who doesn't trust me," she continued.

Lisa didn't say a word, on the other hand she understood her friend. She witnessed how Chaeyoung chased Jisoo to explain, but Jisoo refused to listen.

"I'm tired, Lis" Lisa looked at Chaeyoung when she heard her weak sob. "I'm tired of chasing her, I'm tired of begging her to listen" Lisa approached and hugged her friend.

Of the two of them, Chaeyoung has the softest heart, she can't hide how she feels so Lisa knows when she's hurting too much.

"Let's let them go Lisa, let's accept the fact that we are no longer part of their lives"

Lisa was stunned by what Chaeyoung said, she couldn't let go of Jennie. She had never dreamed of being with anyone but Jennie, but sometimes she thinks what if it was really destined? What if they're not really the ones for each other? Should she just accept it?

JENNIE'S POV

Day 185

Hi Love,

We haven't seen each other for almost half a year. Do you know how much I miss you? No words can describe how much I miss you, every night I talk to the moon and stars to bring you back to me, but it seems like they don't listen to me because until now you are still not here. I miss your kisses and hugs so much, I can't wait to be with you again. I still believe you will come back and I will not get tired of waiting my love, just like how you waited for me when I was the one who left. I love you.

I don't know why I still read the letter every day that wasn't for me, as if it had become part of my every morning. I wake up early to pick up the letter in the mail box because I don't want anyone else to read it. I don't know who it came from because there is no name written, and I also have no idea who it is for because in every letter the writer does not mention the name of the person he/she loves.

***

We were inside the ice cream parlor, Lucas and Kai were in the comfort room and I was looking at their menu when a child approached and hugged me, and he called me 'Mommy', but when I said I didn't know him he cried and said his name was 'Luan'. Fortunately, the tall woman who I think was with this child approached us immediately. The woman explained to me that the child thought I was his mommy, I wiped the child's tears and I don't know why but it hurt me to see him crying so I said he could call me mommy, and when he hugged me I felt so relieved as if I had longed for his embrace.

They came out of the ice cream parlor, but I was still staring at the door, his name was familiar to me but I can't remember where I read that, even the woman with him was familiar to me.

"What happened?" Kai asked when he noticed that my clothes were wet, it's because of the child's tears.

"A little boy came up to me and said I was his mommy" I replied to him.

"What's his name?" Kai asked with a frown.

"Luan"

"Luan? Did you see Luan Mommy? Where is he? I miss him" I was surprised by what Lucas said.

"Do you know Luan?" I asked him and he nodded.

I was about to speak again when Kai suddenly spoke, "Maybe Lucas knows a different Luan"

"I don't see Luan anymore, Mommy, maybe he left with Bud"

"Who's Bud?" I asked.

"It's Li-"

"Let's order" Lucas couldn't continue what he was going to say when Kai spoke again.

I don't asked again, but I noticed that Lucas looked at me from time to time. When Kai stood up to order he spoke.

"Bud is Lisa, Mommy, don't you know her?" He asked me.

Lisa...

I shook my head, Lucas didn't spoke again but he seemed to want to say something but he didn't know how.

***

Until we got to the Mansion I was still thinking of that name.

Lisa, Lisa, Lisa...

I touched my head because it suddenly hurt.

"Are you okay, Babe?" Kai asked as he approached me. "My head hurts I think I need to rest" I replied to him.

"Let's go to your room" He led me to my room, I sat on the bed and he spoke again "I'll get you some water" He said, and left the room.

A few moments later he came back "Here's your water" he handed me a glass of water, "Just rest first, I'll wake you later" He kissed me on the forehead before leaving the room.

Minutes pass and my headache still not losing, so I opened the cabinet next to my bed and re-read the letter for today. It's not for me but every time I read it I feel relieved, I feel like I'm falling in love with every word written on this paper, and at the same time I'm hurting for no apparent reason. If this letter is for anyone he/she is definitely very lucky because there is someone who's not getting tired of waiting for him/her and I can say that the writer really love him/her. What I don't understand is why it's here at the Mansion being delivered.

I suddenly looked at the ring on my finger, in six months I will be married. Everything is ready, but I don't know why it has to take a year before we get married, we were supposed to get married last month, but Kai didn't agree. I feel like he doesn't want to marry me.

Every day he shows and makes me feel that he loves me, and the way he looks at me as he says 'I love you' I feel he is sincere, but sometimes I can't understand myself why I can't feel that I love him, and I feel guilty every time I don't answer his I love you's.

I turned my gaze at the paper that I was holding, I noticed at the end of the letter there was always 'I love you' and every time I read that, my heart beat faster as if it was for me.

I was about to hide the letter when I heard a familiar voice in my mind.

I love you, Jennie.

To be continued~