The Wolf King and I

Chapter 40

The Wolf King and I
Chapter 40

In all my life, I've never experienced losing someone.

As a child who grew up in an orphanage with no one beside me, I've never understood the feeling of losing someone dear.

Dati, kapag may naririnig akong namamatay ay nalulungkot lang ako ng panandalian. Pagkatapos ay babalik na ako sa normal kong buhay na para bang walang nangyari.

Death, for me, is just a fleeting moment of sadness. Surviving is what matters most from the past.

So, this is the first time that I've felt something like this.

The great amount of pain from losing her majesty completely shut me off.

It's so numbing that I can't even cry.

"Chin!" I heard that familiar voice calling for my name. "Chin!"

Kung ilang araw na akong nakatulala lang sa kawalan ay hindi ko na matandaan.

"Someone tell me, what is happening to her?!"
It's Zhang Wei's voice.

"Your majesty, calm down!" I heard the royal physician said. "Her majesty's death took a toll on her and her consciousness is still not coming back! A part of her brain is dead! We can only wait for her to regain her consciousness!"

I can't eat.

I can't sleep.

The last image of the Empress kept coming back to me, and it left a trauma in the deepest part of my chest.

My world just completely shut off and I can't even get out of this pain.

Alam ko na nasa loob ako ng kwarto ko habang nakaupo sa malambot na kama. Ngunit hindi ko na alam kung anong araw na ba ito. Basta naririnig ko lang ang mga boses na nasa aking paligid.

I've been locked inside my own consciousness and I can't get out. I think this is my brain's response to the immeasurable amount of pain that I'm experiencing right now.

"Chin!" I can hear Zhang Wei's desperate cries for my name. "Love, come back to me! Please!"

Nakikita ko ang mukha niya na punong-puno ng pag-aalala at ramdam ko ang mga maiinit niyang kamay na nakahawak sa magkabilang pisngi ko.

He had been calling my name for the past few days, never leaving my side. But I can't even move to respond.

Zhang Wei, why do you look so sad? The Empress's heart will break if she sees you like this.

My hand wants to touch him so badly, but my body won't cooperate with me. Nanatili lang akong nakatulala sa kanya.

"Chin!" he called for my name.

Ngunit naramdaman ko nalang ang unti-unting panlalaki ng mga mata ko nang bigla niya akong yakapin ng sobrang higpit.

"Please, forgive me!" I can hear the pain in his voice while I can feel his warmth. "Chin, forgive me! Just come back to me and I will make everything alright. Please, don't punish me like this! "

Eh?

Bakit siya humihingi ng tawad?

Ito rin ang unang beses na narinig kong nagmakaawa siya.

The only thing I know about Zhang Wei is his immeasurable pride and strong personality. But while embracing me like this, I can feel the soft side of him that's existing.

At hindi ko rin alam kung bakit, pero nang maramdaman ko ang init ng yakap niya ay doon ko na naramdaman ang isa-isang pagpatak ng mga luhang hindi ko pa naiiyak magsimula ng mamatay ang Empress.