𝐺𝑎𝑚𝑒 𝑂𝑓 𝐻𝑒𝑎𝑟𝑡𝑠♡︎|COMPLETED |

19

Krizen

" Mukhang nasaktan talaga si Alyxianna sayo " napatigil ako sa ginagawa ko at umangat ng tingin kay Joshua na prenteng nakaupo sa couch at hawak ang cellphone.

" I know.." I utter in low voice and look away.

I know that. We may not be in a relationship but it felt like break up. She became part of my life. She became my special someone. My favorite person.

The situation was the reason why we need to be parted away, the people specially her fans.

Seeing all those hate comments about me having a relationship with her reminds me of the painful and traumatic incidents of my past. It was never easy to just move on and take the risk for her. I'm not yet fully healed.

But I can't wait to heal from my traumas and grow into the strongest version of myself..

I don't really understand why some people wants to find the best for them but they didn't even think if they are best for the others.

I believe that in order to find the best person, be best also.

" She's really a chic magnet." He said. " I saw a photos of  her with some girls. Kissing her cheek. Meron pa nga 'yong malapit sa labi---"

" Enough!" I cut him off. I hate him for being like that! I told him that he don't need to tell me about Amora but look what he's doing! damn this loquacious man!

" Chill babe" he teasingly said. I can't believed that he has this attitude. I mean Joshua is one of the smart-nerd cold handsome man inside the campus. But now, I'm seeing his playful side. Plus the fact that he is a closet gay.

I don't know the exact time we really became friends. Its just happened. Unexpected friendship. He is a great help to me kasi paunti-unti naring nakakalimutan ang issue namin ni Amora dahil sa mga kumakalat na chismis sa campus na nagdedate mga kami.

I'm afraid that Amora will buy it. I hope not pero hindi malabong isipin niya nga.

" I'll give you a ride" he said. May night class din siya pero mas maaga siyang natapos pero tumambay pa siya kaya naabutan ko pa.

" Hmm.." was all I said. I didn't bring my car so it's good if he will give me a lift.

I stopped myself when I saw Amora drinking while sweats all over her face. She's hot!

My heart beats faster than normal when she walk towards our direction.

Her face is showing nothing and it added her sexiness.

I close my eyes when she just passed by like she didn't saw us. I was hurt. Parang piniga ang puso ko nang hindi niya ako pinansin o tiningnan man lang.

" Alyx.." I can't help myself but to called her name but she didn't look back.

I bit my lower lip while watching her back.

I always experience saudade since we stopped seeing each other.

I miss you, my Amora...

Nakamove on na kaya siya? ayaw niya na saakin? may gusto na siyang iba?

F-ck! I'm frustrated of what I'm thinking!

Inis na sinara ko ang laptop ko because I can't pay attention. My mind is in chaos. Amora is invading my mind.

Nakuha ng atensyon ko ang small calendar sa table ko dito sa room ko.

It's her birthday the day after tomorrow.