daddy - j.m

51 - cleansing

(~ 4 years later)

Blossom

"What's school like?" I looked up from my phone to answer Alyssa about our upcoming school years. "I think school is great. You just need the good friends and good teachers and it'll all work out."

"I'm happy I have a big sister for things like this." She grinned and took my hand in her own, entering H&M. "I'm glad, too."

It was hard the first couple of months but it got easier after manipulating, almost hypnotizing her into this lie. At this point she didn't know anything else. I wish I knew if it was a good or bad thing.

"New York's fashion is on a whole new level." I snickered, strolling through H&M. "I agree."

Alyssa grabbed a skirt and exposed it to me, a questioning look pointing at me. "It's too short. There are dress codes, you know."

"Dress codes? Can't I wear whatever I want when I'm 12?"

"I'm 15 and still can't, don't feel like you're in the wrong. It's pretty damn stupid, if you ask me."

"At least it's not uniforms." She sighed, trying to bring light to the situation. "Right."

I walked Alyssa over to the jean section to find some fitting pants.

"I thought it was nice being taught from the apartment, now when I think about it..." Something was telling me that Alyssa really didn't want to wear jeans. I think parts of Miami were still in her, even though the years had taught her that New York was a bit more chilly. "Stop being such a pussy, it's just pants. Normal trousers. I think they're hot."

"If you say so..." Alyssa looked at me and allowed her eyes travel to the endless amount of jeans, grabbing a bunch of them in different colors and models and walked straight to the fitting rooms.

"Give me a show when you're ready."

"I think all of these are pretty and I barely know where to start."

"Dad told us that we could get as much clothes as we needed and wanted to let's just go mental." I snickered.

"He better believe we will."

-

"I cannot believe this." Jason's eyes dropped before us when we managed to get outselves home with all the bags.

"I cannot believe my arms are actually falling off." I responded. "I still have no regrets."

"Blossom. How much money did you spend?" Jason seemed disappointed which made me a bit uncomfortable. "Not too much. And it's not all my fault."

"It kind of is. You better have clothes for your birthday bash in here becauase I'm not gonna pay any extra after this."

"It's okay." I silently said, the knowledge of my party clothes being none exsistant bringing my mood down. "I'll go take a shower and then prepare for tomorrow if that's okay."

"Alyssa you should do the same." I heard Jason say. Him being moody and going against her was not unusual anymore. He had grown balls and so had she.

Back in my room, I wandered from my big bed to my drawer to get some new, fresh underwear. I also got two scented candles from IKEA, with the aroma of mango and raspberries. A relaxing, pore cleansing facemask was also on my mental list of things to gather. When I had everything, I walked across the apartment and entered the bathroom, locking the thick door behind me.

I grabbed a lighter from under the sink and lit my candles up, then I dimmed the lights down to darkness. First, I took my upper part's clothing off and grabbed the bottled facemask. I smeared it all over my face which made me more relaxed than I already was from the mango and raspberry air. When it was all set, I took to my pants and underwear and pulled them to my ankles and stepped out of the clothes. My hands grasped the handle of our shower cabin and I hurried inside, freezing cold from my new, very nude and bare look. I turned the water's heat up and slowly started to relax, the mango and raspberry still within my senses.

When I was completely relaxed from the real world, my emotions came through pretty quickly. My sister, I thought. My sister is what I needed in the moment. She wasn't there for me through my first school experience and I needed her there for my second one to make it right.

I wanted to talk to her. I needed to talk to her. Not only was I worried for my own sake but Alyssa was in my last position. I was 13 when I first got into a whole new life of the public and she was now 12, about to do the same thing. That might have been even worse. I knew, from experience, that Alyssa was going to need her mother for this. And a sister without knowledge wasn't enough in her case.

I silently sobbed, remembering the times Maddie used to take care of me so softly and make sure that I was okay with everything. Her and Jason really did show me the best of the world together but Jason alone wasn't doing any good at preparing me for the bad parts. He was protecting me from it a bit, but not enough. He was busy. He was busy working here and there but also busy dating around. He had been on maybe 25 dates through the years and never took any of them home when we were around. They were obviously not worth meeting his kids. All I could think of was Madison. What if she knew what he was doing? She would be more angry than upset with the fact that Jason was making dolls out of these women. Treating them like nothing but something to fuck.

I realized that deep down I was really angry at the two of them for various reasons. But it was all because I loved them both so dearly and deeply. I couldn't stand sit back and watch them ruin their lives apart from each other when they were meant to be.

-

In my robe, I doubted my plans as I held my phone tightly in my right hand. I wanted to go through with this so badly, that I didn't even know if it was going to work out anymore. I was over-thinking it. That meant I just had to do it.

I looked up "Alex McCann" in my contacts and called right away before I could grow any possible extra doubts.

Alex picked up the phone. "Hi, princess."

"Oh, shush. I'm not 10 anymore." I giggled.

"Right! You're almost 16, how crazy is that?"

"Very crazy." I smiled. "But I heard you were coming up here for my 16th birthday party and I have a wish."

"I was gonna ask you what I could bring to make you the happiest girl on the planet. Go on."

"Well it might be complicated but...."

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LAST TIME SKIP WHICH MEANS THAT THE END IS NEAR!

what is blossom asking for?

how will alyssa adapt to school?

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