daddy - j.m

chapter 15 - woman

Madison Lowe

"Did you talk to your mom yet?" Jason hovered me in bed. Alyssa had just gone back to sleep and hopefully she would sleep the night through once again.

"How would you expect me to do that?" I scoffed. Maddie's mother didn't have a phone, we didn't even know where she was or if she was alive. "Of course I didn't talk to her yet."

"Babe, don't be so tense." His soft lips started trailing kisses down my neck and I giggled from the ticklish feeling.

"I'm not tense. I'm an 18 year old girl."

You see, there were things I missed when I was pregnant. Being able to paint my toe nails, being able to laugh without peeing a bit. I missed having a killer body. But there was that one thing I did not miss a second during those nine months. You can probably already guess it. Periods.

"Oh," It finally clicked in his mind and Jason rolled off me, trying to hold his laughter back. There was absolutely nothing to smile about.

"Are you that childish? Are you about to laugh?" My sudden anger caused him to bit his lip harder.

"It's just strange and makes me nervous, like I know you're a girl and I know what happens and I can imagine that it's shitty but..." When he calmed down he continued explaining himself. "You seem so perfect when I look at you. I couldn't even tell something was up. It's like, you're too good in my eyes to be natural and have the whole natural woman package. You're like beyond human for me. Am I making sense?"

I pryed his lips open with mine and smiled into the kiss. "You made a lot of sense." I kissed his cheek before switching over to my usual spot on my big, cold pillow. "Night." I smiled.

"Night, baby. I love you, okay?" He ran a hand through my hair and kissed my head. "Love you."

When I was on the edge of falling asleep I saw a tall creature as the moonlight reflected a shadow onto the wall. I'd normally panic but I could tell who it was, it was Calvin. I kept pretending to be asleep just so that I wouldn't blow my own cover.

"She's sleeping? Good. Let's get to work. I found more details on Antonio and the business. We better get going now." My mind swirled off to disappointment. I felt so cold inside with the fact that they were working on this behind my back and hiding everything they found. They hid it so well, too well. Jason and Calvin were both great liars. The whole gang was. Jason told me that he would take care of it but I'd actually like to know what was going on with my parents.

They both walked out the room and Alyssa started crying by the front door being shut loudly. "It's alright, baby." I whispered softly and kissed her head. I honestly didn't know what to do with her tiny curls that kept getting tangled up. Her poor scalp wouldn't be satisfied with almost being ripped in two because of a hair brush.

"I hope you don't understand english already, baby girl, because I have to talk to you," I giggled. "if nonna doesn't make it to the day where you meet, know that she loves you very much." Alyssa seemed very entertained by my voice and the words I was saying.

I spent the rest of my awoken hours like that, my daughter on my chest as I talked to her about everything from family to boats and animals. I talked about her daddy a lot, how much he loves her and how he will protect her with his life. I might have mentioned what an asshole he could be. "Can we do this every day, Lyssa?" I kissed her cheek before putting her back in the crib. I stayed awake for a few more minutes, watching her lay silent in her pink, blinged up crib.

She was so happy and careless that it kind of spread all the way to my mind and emotions. I felt happy for once and this time it wasn't Jason making me happy for the moment by giving me a flower, I had happiness for a lifetime right in front of me. My sunshine. Our sunshine.

Jason McCann

Waking up by lunch shouldn't be an option as a parent to a newborn. I don't know how I could sleep through Alyssa's loud cries or Madison telling me to wake up or help her out. I was given silent treatment by my girlfriend and it was killing me.

Blossom felt the tension as she became slightly anxious, I'm pretty sure Alyssa could feel it too. "Madison. Stop this." I sighed and sat down next to Maddie on the couch. "Please."

Continuing the torture, she turned the tv on and kept her mouth closed. My daughter was facing me and she stared at me with her eyes reflecting curiosity. "Hi." I spoke softly and saw a smile grow on her lips. A beautiful smile, as beautiful as it could get without teeth.

"That's cute. Don't do that when I'm trying to be mad at you." Madison spoke in honesty, later on realizing what she said.

"What was that, baby?" I teased as her cheeks turned slightly red. "Am I doing cute things?" Since her arms were occupied by Alyssa, she wasn't able to drop her hair down to hide her heated cheeks. I could actually watch her blush harder for every second passing and I was enjoying this.

"Why are you so red?" Blossom cut in and I laughed quietly.

"Shut up, I'm not." Madison responded to her little sister who sat down on the carpet in front of us.

"You totally are."

I moved closer to Maddie and kissed her cheek. "Am I forgiven, baby? I love you." Madison's smile dropped and looked into my eyes.

"I'm not mad because you didn't help me out this morning. I'm mad because you're doing dirty shit behind my back. You know something about my family that I don't. I thought the whole thing was about my mom being in danger but you've known this whole time what's actually up."

I started playing with my fingers, a sign of me being extremely nervous. I knew the confrontation was coming.

"It hurts that you have the heart to keep it all away from me and straight up lie. I'll forgive you once you actually tell me what's going on. I want to know the truth about my dad. And mom."

"I can't tell you like this. I can't. I need some time to put an apology and explanation together with the right words. There are things your sister can't know and stuff. Forgive me for now and I'll make it up to you later?" Madison agreed with me.

Here we go.