Life & Love of the Tormented

Chapter Fifteen

Carter kisses my cheek before leaving Starbucks and I'm left stood there, my heart and stomach clenched in knots because of his confession. I'm a mixture of irritation and awe. How can he even look my way when I carry such darkness. He doesn't fucking understand. I'm so beyond fucked I'll end up tearing him apart into shreds... He doesn't see how unworthy I am of a person like him. I don't know how to love without pain... and that ain't a fucking privilege.

I join Colton at the counter as he finishes paying and we head to find a table.

"What happened to being the cold hearted bitch of Brisbane?", he asks smugly.

"What the fuck are you talking about?", the defence is obvious in my voice and I roll my eyes in an attempt to deflect.

  "I saw you with that Carter dude, he's more than just your mates brother isn't he?", my smug friend continues.

FUCK YOU COLTON! EHHH!

"No! What the fuck are you on about", I say even more aggressively this time.

"Woah woah, don't get so defensive!", he says holding up his hands like I've got a gun. "I'm just saying, a blind person could see the chemistry between the two of you".

"You have no idea what the fuck you're talking about dude", I try to sound dismissive and roll my eyes again for dramatic affect but I don't think it actually worked.

Colton stops mid step and looks at me. The kind of look that says 'come on bitch, I know you better than that'...

"What?", I ask him, pulling my face into a tight scrunch.

   "Come on really?", Colton presses.

  "Leave it Colt", I warn.

  "Amelia, it's me. Come on.", he shoots back

  "Okay so we've maybe slept together... ONCE... but that's fucking it... Not that big of a fucking deal...", I say as I take a seat at our table of choice, trying to play it off as if sleeping with Carter was just another notch on my belt.

"Oh you've already slept with him and you're both still like that?", he says extending an arm toward the area Carter and I were stood,

"Like what?", I ask starting to get pissed off with him.

"Like you need a whole week to fuck each other senseless and even then I don't think that'd be enough".

"What!?", I defend.

  "The tension between the two of you... It was turning me on from over there in the line", he says with widened eyes.

"Oh fuck up!", I say slapping his arm and laughing at the absurd shit coming out of his mouth.

"All I'm saying is I've never seen you like that with anyone, let alone someone you've ALREADY slept with... You usually have no emotion toward males... But I think you may even... maybe like him?", Colton questions.

"Get fucked Colton, you know I don't do feelings. I can't. I don't know how", my laughter is gone and now I'm really pissed off.

"Yeah, yeah, okay... I know... but you also forget how well I know you Meels and that... that was different", he says as he reaches over, hugging me with one arm.

After breakfast I give Colton a hug goodbye and tell him I'll text him when I'm finished my last class so he can come pick me up. My head is still pounding and as much as I'm loving my classes I really think I'll struggle today.

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Uni is finished for the day and I'm packing up my note book and pens when I look up and see Carter standing at my lecture room door.