Serendipity (Thalassophile)

Forty-five

Just like the other days that passed, Krislene is nowhere to be found when Dylan is just around. Huling kita ni Dylan dito, graduation pa nito. Yes. Krislene already graduated from College just few days after they broke up.

Imagine Krislene graduating with a heavy feeling on her chest? That's torture. And he's the reason behind her pain.

After that time, hindi nya na ito nakita muli, or looks like, umiiwas ito sa kanya. That's what Dylan also noticed whenever he visits Kristene. But his main reason is to see and talk to Krislene.

Inaamin nya. Naging gago talaga sya at gusto nyang itama iyon. He already tried everything he knew he could do to reach out to Krislene.

He tried calling her and messaging her but Krislene doesn't want to talk to him. Sino nga bang gugustuhing kausapin ang isang gago na tulad nya? He also tried asking Vaughn about Krislene but Vaughn is aloof with him. Mag-uusap lang sila kapag tungkol sa trabaho pero kapag personal na bagay, hindi ito masyado nakikipag-usap sa kanya.

And he knew the reason behind it. For sure, alam nito ang nangyari sa kanila ni Krislene.

He doesn't have the chance to talk to her parents because it looks like Krislene still didn't tell about what happened to them because Krislene's Mom keeps on asking him about their relationship. Nag-kuwento rin ito noong panahon na tinulungan nito si Krislene sa pagluluto ng mga paborito nilang pagkain para sa one year anniversary nila.

By hearing Krislene's Mother's stories, he felt happy but at the same time, his chest feels heavy.

Tuwing tinatanong sya kung kamusta na ang relasyon nila, hindi naman nya alam ang isasagot. Ayaw nyang pangunahan si Krislene sa dahilan nito kung bakit hindi pa nito sinasabi sa magulang nito ang nangyari sa kanila. Isa pang dahilan, gusto nyang ayusin dahil baka may pagkakataon pa sya na itama ang lahat.

He also tried asking Serein, Krislene's best friend but just like Vaughn, Serein is also aloof with him.

And it looks like he won't have the chance to see Krislene once again today because it's already evening and he'll be going home in a while.

And it goes on for like every single day of his life and honestly, he felt empty without her by his side. This is the consequence of what he did. Gago sya eh. Puro pasakit ang ibinigay nya sa babaeng pinakamamahal nya.

And just like every single night, he will just drink up to his hearts content until he pass out. But the pain on his chest goes on every single day of his life.

It's the sad reality that realizations always come to a point when someone already gave up on you.

And truth to be told, it's really killing him.

Does she moved on already? Because by the looks of her, it felt like, she doesn't care about him anymore. While him? He's dying inside each and everyday because he can't and doesn't want to move on.

But what will you expect Dylan? You inflicted too much pain on her. Then you'll question her care towards you?

Isa syang malaking gago at tanga. Sa sobrang galit nya sa nangyari, sa awa at pagiging importante ni Kristene sa kanya, hindi nya nabigyang pansin ang babaeng walang ginawa kundi intindihin sya at hintayin kung kailan sya magkakaroon ng oras dito. Kung kailan nya ito mabibigyan ng atensyon. Krislene never, even once, commanded him to do what she wanted him to do. But instead, Krislene is just waiting for him to do the move. But he didn't. Not until he realized that he's already an asshole and it's too late.

Wala na eh. Sumuko ang pinakamamahal nya.

Sa sobrang pagmamahal nya dito, sobrang gulo rin ng isip nya na maski sarili nyang kompanya ay naaapektuhan na. And to return the favor, it was Alexander who helped him for quite some time for his company to still stand on the ground, high and mighty.