Forced to be with you

Wanted 3 ( Special Chapter)

Nothing is more heartbreaking knowing that you lost a child you didn't even know but you wanted to know the most.

Galit na galit ako kay Marley at sa kaniya dahil nilihim nila iyon sa akin. Nakakabakla ang umiyak pero hindi ko alintana. I let my tears stream down on my face. A baby... a supposed fruit of our love.

"DAMMIT RIVER! IT'S BETTER THIS WAY. HINDI MO BA NAISIP NA MAS MAHIHIRAPAN LANG SILA. CLEY IS ALREADY DEVASTEATED WHENEVER SHE IS WITH YOU WHAT MORE IF YOU HAVE A CHILD!" sigaw sa akin si Arkin.

Pinapatay ko ang atay at lalamunan ko sa mga pinakamatapang na alak sa bar na ito.

Tinignan ko siya ng matalim saka kinuwelyuhan habang nagtatangis ang aking mga panga sa galit sa sinabi niya. How could he say that? okay lang na wala na yung anak ko?!!

"FUCK YOU!" sigaw ko sabay bitiw sa kaniya.

"You always find ways to create a knife that could kill you. Una, you could disappear the day of your marriage pero matigas ang bungo mo. Pangalawa, you impregnate her. You know, that will be death for you" pagpapaalala niya sa mga bagay na nilabag ko.

I heard him release a hopeless sigh.

"Hindi porket nanahimik siya wala siyang gagawin. We know him more than anyone else in the faction. Iba siya magalit kaya hanggat maaari umiiwas tayo. You know what he did to Cheetah because he wanted to get out?" ramdam ko ang tingin niya sa akin. " He killed him" he continued with strong emphasis so I will be driven to that thought that it is indeed better this way.

Nilagok ko lang ang mapait na alak na hawak ko. Wala ako ibang maramdaman kundi poot at pighati.

"Nagmahal kana ba?" I solemnly asked.

He softly chuckled.

"Love is only a delusion. It is traumatic. Once you involve, you totally becomes a different person" I heard him say.

I tsked. He dodge my question.

"But, to answer your question, Yes. I did. I even let her marry to another man despite the fact that I could have her because she always wanted to be with me but the more I think about the chance to be with her, I can't; not because of the consequences of the punishment but because I can't give the love she deserves. Makakaalis man ako ng buhay pero hindi na ako buo. Kulang parin ako" mahinahon niyang pagbibigay paliwanag sa akin.

"Love is not for us River. Believe me or not, but I also wanted a life with someone else like you are crazily dreaming for right now, but I think I am better off this way. This is my fate and I accepted it because this is me now. This is us now" he said then he walk away from me.

Love is the most easiest word to know but -at the same time the most difficult word to explain.

The day that I should be celebrating because finally she gave up on us, is also the day that my heart is in great destruction. Pinong-pino ang pagkadurog ng puso ko nang nilahad ni daddy divorce paper namin.

Dad told me everything. He asked Cley to saved me. I only did a few argues because he doesn't know that I can protect myself from my Francis.

Pumutok kasi ang balita na nagkaroon kami ng gulo ni Francis. Their company was our greatest assets that time. We need them that is why he forced me to get married. Alam ko pakaba ni Francis dahil alam niya ang isa sa mga rules ng factions. He knew it intelligently because he is one of our greatest enemy.

I began starting my day without her in my sight anymore. I could tract her wherever she is right now but I didn't. I set her off free this time. Tama si Arkin, we are better off this way.