Sae-byeok / Ho-Yeon Imagins

Left ~ Sae-byeok

I was sad when writing this- sorry.

Y/n pov-

The sky was dark and clouded in grey, stretching my arms as I sat up in bed I could sense something was off; looking to my side I realise I'm alone. I walk out of the room to look for Sae-byeok, checking the kitchen, bathroom and finally the lounge room. A small note was left on the coffee table and I immediately rushed over to read it.

'Y/n, I'm sorry but I can't do this. Staying with you any longer will just make it harder to leave later, you are an amazing person and I'm so sorry if this hurts you but I can't stay. You didn't do anything so please don't put that burden on yourself but this was just never meant to be. Goodbye my love- Sae-Byeok'

I Broke down, collapsing on the ground holding myself in my arms. My world felt like it was breaking and would never be fixed, I had lost a vital part of my life and so easily as well. I didn't think she could have gotten far, I don't bother with shoes or a jumper as I quickly run out of my apartment building and around the streets; they were empty with no one around. No one in sight- it hurt, even more, light raindrops falling from the sky as I hopelessly roamed the streets but once the rain picked up and I was standing there cold, alone and drenched I knew it was over. 

I sit down on a nearby seat pulling out a picture of me and Sae from my pocket, looking at it one last time I let out a loud scream and threw it on the ground letting the water absorbed into the paper and ruin the picture. I didn't care about the very little amount of people around who were probably giving me weird looks, it hurt too much. I couldn't tell if I was more mad or upset at her.

I cried for ages, my throat was sore and I couldn't dare say a word, my chest hurt and my breaths were deep yet rushed. Finally, I picked myself up off the bench, shaking as you would after sitting in the rain for like an hour in nothing but your pj's. When finally getting back to my apartment I let out another scream, not as loud though due to neighbours. I went to the wardrobe pulling out any items she had left behind and chucking them in one big pile, I would deal with that later.

Looking at myself in the mirror I was a wreck, my eyes were puffy and bloodshot, My lips cracked and bleeding from bitting them, and dried tears on my cheeks leaving an odd feeling on my face. I jumped in the shower to try and warm up, I had calmed down by now and at this point, I was drowning in questions; questions that would never have an answer. 'What did I do wrong? Why did she leave? Was I not good enough?' The thoughts went on and on and on till I felt like I was suffocating.

Month later-

I barely left my apartment, only when I had to. I didn't know what to do now, I felt... Numb. Getting myself into terrible habits, sure I was still mad about everything but I was more scared than mad. I didn't want to trust anyone again, not when I know it's that easy for someone to just walk out. For a while, I tried to reach out to Sae but she never answered and eventually, I gave up hope and blocked her on everything so that I wouldn't have the urge to go back.

It was another normal day for me, mope around the apartment questioning what to do with my life. I was shocked when I heard a knock on my door, I was hesitant at first but opened the door- big mistake. There stood a taller, raven-haired girl, her head hung low as she fiddled with her fingers. After a while she lifted her head, I froze, I didn't want to believe it. 

"Y/n I'm so-" I don't let her finish, I bring my hand up and slap her hard across the face, tears immediately filling my eyes. My anger gets the better of me, I throw myself at her, hitting her chest with my fists letting all the anger I had built up inside me out. 

'Why was she back? What did she want?' The thoughts consuming me once again, I finally calmed down and pulled myself back. She never fought back... "Y/n I know your mad but please hear me out i-" "No! no, you don't just get to leave with no explanation why and come back a month later expecting me to listen to you!" I yell at her, the neighbours definitely hearing. "I know, I know and I'm so sorry-" Tears fell down her cheeks.

 "You need to leave" I firmly say, wiping all emotion away from my face. She looks up at me shocked and broken, just how I looked when she left "Y/n don't do this" she begs "You did it first- now go!" I raise my voice again and point my finger to the exit sign down the hall.

She gives me a final look before giving in and walking away, I watch her take a few steps before walking back inside my apartment and slamming the door. My body slides down the door and I burst into tears, my vision blurs and my thoughts are unknown. It feels as though I am at square one back when this all started except this time there was another feeling, a sense of relief like I didn't have so much baggage anymore. My anger was gone, relived from myself and although I wasn't better yet... I was on the right track.

A/n-

Ummm sorry.... :) I don't really know how I thought of this but um I did so enjoy I guess. If you have any requests please let me know I would love to hear what you guys would like. Thank you to everyone reading and voting I love you all XXX