After I died

59

Anastasia

The others had gotten onto the boat while Reiner, Connie, Jean, Onyankoon and I stayed behind to work on the plane. I still got myself used to the dashboard while the others were loading the explosive into the back. We might need the stuff at one point. Sun was coming up slowly and we were almost done with preparing the plane. All the others were slowly coming off the boat, checking their gear. I didn't notice who was witht hem until they reached the boat.

I only saw Levi as he got onto the plane with the others. "No. We talked about this. Hanji, why the hell did you let him come, he can barely stand?", I exclaimed as Onyankopon got into the pilot seat. "His decision, I couldn't do anything about it. And if even you can't convince him, I think it's pointless for me to even try.", she replied, sitting down in the plane. "I really hate you, both of you.", I mumbled half heartedly but we didn't have time for discussions now.

"Can we start?", I asked and Onyankopon nodded. "Start the propellers.", he instructed and we got the plane into the sky. "Not a bad co-pilot for someone flying for the first time." "As I said, I know the basics, just not this modell." Onyankopon nodded and glanced over his shoulder at the others, who were making plans. "Once we are high enough in the air, I can fly this alone. You should go over to your friends and listen to the plan."

I was in the cockpit for some more time, until Onyankopon sent me to the others. "We don't exactly know where Eren is, but if we did Armin could just transform into the colossal titan like he did in Rebellio. That would be the most effective.", Pieck explained, looking down at a drawing of Eren's titan form on the ground.

"Bu that is only our last resolve.", Armin replied. I sat down between Hanji and Levi, taking his hand. "Only if all tries to negotiate have failed." "If Eren could only start the rumbling with Zeke's help, it shoul dstop if we kill Zeke.", Hanji then threw in. "Yes, that sounds like it could work, but we have to find out where he is first.", Pieck replied.

"So we need to find this beats in a huge pile of bones. I will... kill Zeke. I need your support for that." I looked over at Levi as he spoke. He'd waited quite long to kill Zeke, it was more of an execution. "Of course.", Jean replied, as everyone else stayed silent. "We have killed comrads to get this plane into the air. We can't risk this massacre continuing. So if it means stopping the Rumbling...." "I shot Samuel and Desk. Ripped they're faces apart so now they're not recognizable anymore. As they called me a traitor, I told them I was doing all this to save the world. Reiner.... you and Berthold and annie probably suffered terribly..."

(Guys my keyboard just died😭 I gotta continued when I get home)

(I did in fact not continue when I get home.... I wrote this on January 16th, today is Februrary 2nd.... ik I'm late, pls don't be mad I had shit lot of school work to do, finsihed my thesis paper, gotta study for graduation exams and learn my text for playing three roles in school theatre. Not an excuse ik, i'll finish the story as soon as possible, but now lets continue)

"I will never be able to repay this debt.", Reiner replied. "Even if we save what's left of humanity, I will never be able to forgive myself. So... let's save what we have left to save." These people kept remining me why I trusted them so much. I was still thnking about how to ind Zeke and if our gas would be sufficient until fortress, so my thoughts averted from the conversation.

If killing zeke meant stopping the Rumbling, then his was indeed the safest and best way to go. But it seemed too easy. It was only ever said that to start the Rumbling, they'd need a royal blood and the founding titan. But once the walls were down, the one in control shoul be Eren.... and who's to say whether it matters if Zeke is alive?

This plan was too unsure, if we find out where Eren is, the safest option would be to kill him- wait..... kill him? Kill.... Eren? Our teammate? Our friend? That Eren? Why again.... why would I think about killing a friend? Why do people have to die? Is this my choice or someone elses? Would I really kill my friend? Or does someone force me to kill my friend? Am I awake? Am I in control? Am I-

"Love? Are you okay? You're mumbling." Levi pulled me back into reality with his words. I blinked a few times, looking around to get back to ealiy after almost spiraling. As my vision came back to normal, I saw Levi looking at me with a worried expression. It calmed me donw a bit. He was here, Hanji as well, they'd never do that to me, I'm awake, f course I am. They would help me if I wasn't.

Would they... ? What, yes. Of course they would. I shouldn't think that way. Oh god, I'm terrible. Accusing my own family like that. I gotta get it together, damnit. "Sorry, I was thinking about something. Doesn't matter, did I miss something?" Levi leaned back slihgtly, but his look didn't get less worried, he was still glancing at me from the side.

"We thought maybe Eren wants us to stop him. He controls all Eldians and titans. He could've easily stopped us by now but he seems to let us pass.", Armin explained. "So that's why Floch wasnt allowed to kill me...", I mumbled to myself and the others looked over at me with some weird expressions. "Floch sometimes said I'd be a risk for their plan because I wasn't Eldian and therefor not controlable in this sense. But Eren always shut him down, he seemed very clear about keeping me alive-"