THE BREADWINNER

2.8

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Marami akong nakakasalubong na marahas ko rin na nababangga. Hindi ko ginusto dahil mula ngayon, sobra ba akong naguguluhan.

I'm feeling that the world is against me.
Kalaban ko iyong mundo para makamit iyong kasiyahang gusto ko.

"Don Pablo" kinakabahan ako kahit papaano dahil alam kong may pinagsamahan sila ni nanay. Hindi lang simpleng samahan. Siya ang ama ng mga kapatid ko.

His face lifted up after seeing me. "Eva, or should I say Paloma. I can't believe you reach this too far. And I'm also happy that you and your sibling reunited again"
Ramdam ko ang pagiging sensiro niya. Kaya hindi ko man lang magawang makipag pormalan sakaniya.

"And I owe you a lot Don Pablo, inalagaan mo mga kapatid ko ng wala ako. Nagpapasalamat Ako saiyo"

Napatingin si Don Pablo sa stage, kaya napasunod din ako ng tingin.

"Kumukha niyo lahat ang mama niyo. Kung hindi lang asul ang mga mata mo, mapagkakamalan kitang si Elissa."

Tinitignan niya ang mga kapatid ko na busy sa pag papapicture sa stage kasama ang ate nila.

"You've been a very great sister to them. You see, even you left them long time ago, hindi nila nagawang magalit saiyo ng husto. One time, narinig ko silang naguusap usap. I think they're planning to throw a party if they found you. Elissa raised a very pure heart, and that heart deserves happiness and endless love."

I look at Don Pablo who's now smiling at me.

"You're not getting any younger Eva. Listen to him. Hear him out. And decide. I can see in his eyes that he want you that much"

He want me so much yet he hurt me? Ganon ba niya iparamdam ang pagmamahal niya? By hurting me? Angas.

"Hindi na maibabalik ang dati Don Pablo. Sinaktan niya ako." ngunit buong sistema ko ay tumanggi sa sinabi ko

Gusto kong balikan si Trevor kahit galit na galit ako sakaniya. Gusto ko siyang pakinggan at tanungin kung bakit ba humantong kami sa ganito.

"It's not love if you didn't felt pain. Natanong mo na ba kung bakit niya ginawa iyon?"

Napaisip ako. I didn't gave him a chance to talk about what happened in the past. Lagi ko siyang tinatarayan, at iniiwasan.
Napailing ako.

"See? You need communication. And this is the least I can do. I have to go, hinahanap na ako ni Reycie."

Akmang aalis na siya ng tawagin ko uli siya.

"May I borrow a room? I feel dizzy right now" tinanguan niya ako at may ipinatawag na katulong para i accompany ako sa kuwarto.

Napaisip ako sa nga sinabi ni Don Pablo. Should I hear him out? Isn't I'm putting myself in a great danger again? Or should I just stop everything?

But he has a girlfriend and magkaka-baby na sila.

Communication.

Don Pablo is right. I should talk to him. But not now. Everything were still fresh.

As I entered the room, hindi ko maiwasang mamangha. Anlaki at komportable. Ang ganda ng features. Iyong puwesto ng balcony, sobrang sakto sa buwan.

I lay down on the bed and feel the soft mattress.

But when the moment I'll close my eyes, a familiar figure entered the room.

Oh crap, what is he doing here?

Mabilisan pa sa alas kuwatro na bumangon ako.

"What are you doing here? Alam mo bang puwede kitang kasuhan sa ginagawa mo?"

He gave me a cold stare and sat at the edge of the bed. Sa sobrang takot ay napasulok tuloy ako sa kama.

"Sue me all you want. Matagal na rin naman akong nakakulong sa'yo."

Agad naman bumalik saakin ang mga ala ala naming dalawa.

Damn it, stop stop stop!

"Kung ano man gusto mo ipagpabukas mo nalang. Magpapahinga muna ako Trevor."

He chuckle. And it sucks that I find that chuckle from him... Sexy.
Feeling ko sinadya niya. Is he seducing me?

Asyumera ka lang

Alam mo, kung hindi lang kita utak, iisipin kong dati kang gaga.

"Why does it sounds so god damn sexy when my name comes out from your mouth?"

Nagimbal ako ng dahan dahan siyang umakyat sa kama upang mapalapit saakin.
What is he going to do? Damn this man!

"A-anong gagawin mo?! Hanggang diyan ka la--- hmp mmm"

My whole body froze the minute his soft lips touched mine. I could feel the heat flowing up my body. The sensation of his movement make my system lost.

I should push him! But I'm too weak 'cause I'm caught off guard.

Push him, push him!

"I miss this sweet lips of yours sweetheart"
He whispers between our kiss.

And that endearment..

I groan as I felt his broad palm caressing my bare back.
Slowly, our kisses turn into a deep one. Heat is all over my body which made me respond to his harsh kisses.

My mind wants to stop, but my body is a traitor.
I felt him slid his hands below my chest leading him to my mountains.

I was about to remove his coat when he suddenly stopped me.

Thank God!

"I'm sorry, for taking advantage but for now, fix yourself. We will make things crystal clear." and that's it, he left the room.

There's a part of me that is disappointed dahil hindi natuloy ang kagustuhan ng katawan namin. Somehow, nagbibilib ako sakaniya. He's still a gentlemen like before.

That made me smile.

Napakaharot ko kanina,, mabuti nga't hindi natuloy.

I immediately fix my self. He said we will talk, and this is it, we will make things clearer. Explanations, and realities.

Napatingin ako sa salamin na nakasabit sa dingding. God, mukha akong bruhang tumakas sa mental.
Nagkalat din ang make up ko, lalo na ang lipstick.

And then, what happened earlier flashback in my mind.
My cheeks turn Red.

"Forget about it okay? Forget about it-- mierda! Ang lambot ng labi niya!"
Napailing ako sa naisip. Nababaliw na nga ako.

Naghilamos na rin ako at nagpalit ng simpleng t-shirt at shorts, good thing's laging handa si Miran.

Hayyy, I should have talk to Miran. Sana man lang ay maging valid ang eksplenasyon niya. I really can't believe na magkakilala sila ni Trevor, sinabotahe nila ako.

Napaayos ako ng upo sa balkonahe ng maramdaman ang presensya niya sa likuran ko. Hindi nga ako nagkamali, dahil naramdaman ko siyang umupo sa katabing upuan ko.
Ayaw ko siyang lingunin, what happened earlier were still fresh.

"Ehem" every movement of him make me startle. Grabe ang epekto mo saakin Trevor Lim!

"W-what do you want to t-talk about?" I started. Why the hell I'm stammering?

Napatingin ako sa puwesto niya. He is on side view while viewing the bright moon in the dark sky. His fixed hair, his deep gray eyes, his well built nose, and to his red sof lips.. I miss him.

Ititigil ko na sana ang pagsuri sakaniya ng mahuli niya ang mga mata ko.

Like before, his eyes were soft, and hypnotizing me. His emotion is smooth as before.

It is what it is.

Finally, questions will be Answered.

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[Chapter 2.8 End]