Poems of Pain and Solitude

Independent

You think you're strong

Because you can tear me apart

And break me until I'm shattered

And drink me until I'm drained and empty.

You think you have the power

To make me smile and dance,

To make my heart beat in your presence,

To make tears flow when your words harm.

You think I couldn't live

Without your love that fed me

You think that everything

Depended on you.

And that was true,

But now it isn't.

Your evil smile depends on me,

As much as my naive soul

Once depended on you

And the hope you gave me.

The good thing about evil is,

You can always count on evil

To be evil

And to act evil.

You needed to be cruel

As much as I needed to be loved.

You needed to harm

As much as I needed to thrive.

You depended on me,

To express your cruelty.

I depended on you,

To hope and to love.

But now that you left,

Try as you might to reach back,

I'm free to love whatever person,

And you can only find one to poison.

I know what your words are now,

Nothing but twisted lies.

I know what your touch is now,

Nothing but a knife, scheming the worst.

But you.

You know only a heart to harm

You know only a soul to destroy

You know only a life to ruin.

They're mine.

But my heart has already been harmed,

My soul has already been destroyed,

And my life has already been ruined.

Now the one person you depended on,

Is gone.

And now I'm free from dependance,

On love from an evil heart.