"Can we talk privately?" His eyes sunken as though he'd spent the day crying. His hair a mess and he's still in the same clothes as yesterday. It's fair to say this break up has hit him hard. As bad as he has treated me the last few years, I feel stupid to say I feel sorry for him right now. "Please Sarah." He begs her in front of the biggest crowd. His dignity is non existent.
Sarah nods and they walk off together. Her lips pursed and her eyes filled with anger as she walks past me.
The crowd disperses now the drama is over.
"Hey, you okay?" The guys are surrounding me checking up on me.
"Yeah I'm fine. I'm just gonna go get a drink." I feel mean walking away from them when they're just checking if I'm alright but I think if they start talking about it again I might cry and I do not want to cry tonight.
I'm sat alone on a broken tree trunk sipping my drink watching my friends throw each other around on the sand. A smile edges onto my face as I watch them.
"Hey."
A familiar voice catches me off guard. The smile immediately retreats from my face and instead my stomach sinks to my feet.
I look up to see Topper.
"What Topper." I deadpan, what more could he possibly have to say to me.
"Is it okay if I sit here?" He points to the empty part of the tree trunk beside me.
"Look if you're here to tell me more of how badly you hate me or because Sarah told you to, save it. I already get it." I warn him shuffling uncomfortably around him.
He sits anyways without me saying yes or no.
"That's not why I'm here. I think I owe you a very massive apology and an explanation." His voice soft and somber. I don't even remember the last time he spoke to me like this.
"I don't hate you, you know." He states randomly.
I furrow my brows with a sarcastic smile. "Are you sure about that."
He doesn't even crack a smile. He's being serious.
"I don't. I'm sorry for not being a big brother to you these past couple of years." He begins taking a deep breath. He must have a lot to say.
I scoff in agreement but he doesn't even bat a lid at my reaction. "Listen. Since Dad left I've been very blameful. I've felt like the black sheep of the family. Mom is amazed by you, she adores you, she lets you do whatever you want! But me? I had to work for praise, I had to work for adoration. I had to follow the rules. Me and Dad had a good bond V, and when he left I've felt pushed aside. I've took my feelings out on you when I shouldn't have. I know you probably won't forgive me but I'm begging you to let me begin trying to make it up to you." His voice honest and sincere. He chokes the last few words and I can tell he's trying not to cry with that massive lump in his throat.
My cheeks are already streaming with tears. I am shocked in disbelief I am hearing these words come from my brothers mouth. I can't believe he's felt this way all these years and hasn't told anyone. "I don't forgive you." Is the first thing I can choke out. "But I still love you, even though you are a dick most of the time. And if you're being serious then I will let you begin making it up to me."
He wraps his arms around me engulfing me into a brotherly hug. I've never felt so content in my brothers arms.
We stay like that for a while. We converse for a bit longer and have a small joke with each other before he leaves to go to his friends.
"What the fuck did I just see." His voice causes my hairs to stand on end. My eyes meet with Rafe's.
I lightly laugh. "I know I still don't believe it really happened."
"I must admit I had to rub my eyes a couple times." He sits beside me where my brother was just sat. The seat probably still warm.
"What did he say?" He asks nosily.
I'm surprised Rafe is even talking to me after earlier. What is in the air tonight?
"He apologised for everything. He said he's been struggling since dad left and he's gonna try and make it up to me. So we'll see how long it lasts." I sigh hopelessly. Deep down I really want everything Topper said to be true and not complete bullshit.
"It's about time. I hate him when he treats people like that, especially you." Rafe mumbles honestly.
My head swells and my heart beat begins to race. "Why especially me, Rafe?" I can't help but question him. I don't know exactly what I'm expecting him to say.
"Well you're like my little sister too, aren't you?" My heart feels like it has been sliced in two.
"Yeah. Sure." I sigh. "I'm gonna go back to my friends." I stand up from my seat.
"Oh right yeah of course." He nods sipping the rest of his drink as I walk away.
On my way to my friends I am intercepted by Kelce. "Hey V, party at mine tomorrow night. See you there?"
"Erm, yeah sure. I'll be there." Before I even realise what I'm agreeing to kelce walks off and I finally reach my friends.
"Hey guys!"
"Why did we just see you hugging your brother?" Pope questions warily.
I explain it all to them and they're just as shocked as me. "Where's Sarah?" I look around and she's nowhere to be seen.
"She left with Topper." John B answers with a disappointed tone.
"Are you fucking kidding me?" I shake my head not really surprised she's gone back to him.
The boys shrug in unison just as confused as me. "I'm gonna leave guys. I'm just not feeling the rest of the night. I'll see you all tomorrow. Tell Kie wherever she is that I've gone home." I give them all a quick hug before heading off the beach.
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Inconvenient Attachment
Fanfiction[STILL WRITING] School has just kicked out for summer. The pogues are ready to have fun and party hard. Vanessa a kook by blood but pogue by heart, has no clue what's about to occur. Rafe, the boy she has known her entire life somehow crosses her p...
