After For His Kindness (Shattered Pieces Series #2)

Chapter 50

Hello! This is the last chapter of After for his Kindness. I hope you did enjoy the journey with me. This is the second installment of the Shattered Pieces Series and it took me a long time to write this, I am thankful and happy to be here with all of you. Until then, eiyzally! Thank you very much from the bottom of my heart. I love you all.

Happy reading :)

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"I want you to be honest with me, Xy." Bulong ko habang pinaglalaruan ang aking kamay. Huminga ako nang malalim. Hindi ako makatingin sa kaniya ng diretso dahil pakiramdam ko ay ang kapal kapal pa ng mukha kong humarap sa kaniya matapos ng nangyari sa relasyon namin noon.

"What is it?"

Inangat ko ang tingin sa malawak na lugar kung saan karamihan ay puno ang makikita. Nasa likod kami ng orphanage. Papadilim na. Kanina pa kami natapos sa pag-aasikaso sa mga bata pero hindi pa rin kami umuuwi. Nauna na sila Sha at Mang Lado, kami nalang ni Xy ang natitira dito.

"Did you regret everything?"

Gusto kong malaman. Kung sakaling nagsisi nga siya, tatanggapin ko naman kasi alam kong ako ang mali.

"What?" he trailed off.

Hindi ko siya tinignan. Ayokong sabihin niya na nagsisisi nga siya sa mismong mga mata ko. Hindi ko iyon kaya.

"Did you regret meeting me? Did you regret having a relationship with me? Did you regret that you gave me your all?" Lumunok ako. "Did you regret loving me?" Nanghihina kong saad. Kahit na takot ay pinilit ko na ring tignan ang mga mata niya.

Malamlam ang mata siyang nakatingin sa akin kaya napalunok ako. He is giving me that soft look that gave so many butterflies before. Dati, titingin palang ako sa mata niya parang nalulunod na ako pero ngayon parang dinadala ako sa isang hukay na hindi ko alam kung kaya ko pang makaahon.

Before it was dark, deep, and unknown but now, it was even darker, deeper, and unfamiliar.

"No. I never regret anything. You are the best gem that I ever valued, Sierra Jem."

Napalunok ako at bahagyang kinagata ng pang-ibabang labi.

I am not as precious as the gem that you are talking about, Xy. I was nothing but a sharp rock that hurts you the most.

"But just like a gemstone that hasn't fully polished, your edges hurt me. But you've grown and you turn out into one beautiful woman."

Kinagat ko ang pang-ibabang labi ko at saka umiling-iling. I was not polished. Hindi umabot sa ganon. I was shattered, broken in a million pieces, waiting for him to mend me but at the end of the day, hindi naman nabuo. Hindi rin nagamot. Kasi hinayaan ko nalang.

Inipon ko sa isang jar upang magmukhang maayos. Hindi makalat, kahit lusag lusag ay ayos pa ring tignan. Ganoon ako nung mga nagdaang taon magpasahanggang ngayon.

Namutawi ang katahimikan sa pagitan namin. Hindi ko magawang ibuka ang bibig para magsalita.

We were just college students before when we broke up. Now that we are facing each other; him as a doctor, and I, as an owner of Sierra's, marami na ang nabago.

I missed those dates. I missed how he brought me into restaurants. I missed how he bought candies for my cravings. I missed going to the dentist together. I missed everything.

"Nakakamiss yung dati, no?"

Mas matagal kaming nagkahiwalay kaysa sa naging bilang ng taon ng relasyon namin.

It's such a good feeling how much he cared, how much he showered me with his beautiful heart, and how much he kissed my wounds with kindness.

Before, I was only after for his kindness. I found comfort, I felt safe until my feelings grew. It ate my whole system. The outcome of it didn't appear to be good but it feels surreal, it brings out a magnificent feeling that lingers in my heart.