After For His Kindness (Shattered Pieces Series #2)

Epilogue

Staring at the cold and unfamiliar city of Canada made me realize that I really did leave her. Wala naman akong planong makipaghiwalay noon but I really planned on going here in Canada. It was all a plan because I don't want to leave but she was also the one who made me leave. Siya rin ang naging dahilan ng pag-alis ko.

Hindi ko man lang nagawang magpaalam. May party na nangyari nung umalis ako pero hindi ko man lang siya naimbitahan kasi ayaw ko siyang mas masaktan.

I was the one who asked for a break, I cannot handle it if she'll cry because of my sudden parting.

Nung una akala ko mas makakabuti kung lalayo ako pero nagkamali ako. I was miserable without her. She became my world and funny how I repent with myself because of my poor choices.

If only I understand more. If only I didn't let my emotion take over me. Sana kasama ko siya ngayon.

But I also realize that this was for the best. Parting our ways to go for and achieve our dreams is a key to growth. We cannot grow if we will be with each other. Hindi mangyayari dahil masyado kaming nakadepende sa isa't isa. She's ready to let go of everything to support me and that was not healthy that's why I ended up accepting everything because that's what I need after everything.

Looking back at the time where she used to chase after me to give me her sandwiches and her dishes, I laugh. Pag naalala ko yung mga panahon na 'yun natatawa ako kung gaano ko siya pinagtabuyan pero hinahanap hanap ko naman siya pag hindi siya nagpapakita sa akin.

She knows her worth. Alam niya ring magpahinga pero alam niya rin kung paano lumaban. As long as she know that she is winning, she won't let go. At ganoon ang nangyari kung bakit at paano niya ako nakuha. She's persistent and I love that about her. She's built different.

I saw how furious she is when I told her that her parents will be very disappointed if they know how she chases after me. No matter how furious she is, she still manages to sort her emotion. She didn't burst into anger. She even smiled.

Nang talikuran niya ako noon ko lang narealize na masyadong pantanga ang mga sinabi ko sa kaniya. I was just pressured since Mom was bugging me about my relationship when I clearly told her that I wasn't interested. Wala sa isip ko ang pumasok sa relasyon. Wala akong panahon at kahit na anong mangyari, hindi ako papatol ng mga babaeng mahilig magpapansin sa akin.

Idagdag pa 'yung inis ko dahil nakita ko siyang nakipag-usap kay Lee na kaklase ko sa isang major. Akala ko ako lang ang pinupunta niya rito, nun pala may iba pa siyang inaabutan ng sandwich niya.

Man is the one who should chase the woman.

Ilang araw ko siyang hindi nakita sa campus. Hindi niya ako ginulo, I waited for her in the library, in the back of our building but she didn't come. Nagpunta na rin ako sa building nila kaso kahit anong daan ko ro'n hindi ko siya makita.

Napatunganga ako ng nakita ko siya sa grocery store, she was the one who approach me. Akala ko hindi na niya ulit ako lalapitan dahil sa mga pinagsasabi ko last time but she approach me with her twinkling doe eyes.

"Do you want to have a coffee with me?" I asked, hoping that she'll say yes. She was always eager to be with me so I taught she will come with me but I was rejected, isang bagay na hindi ko inaasahan na gagawin sa akin ng isang babae.

I thought she was just like those flirty girls, but I was wrong. She puts her friend first; she has those traits that I wouldn't imagine that I'll see in her.

"Xy, I'm fine if you don't give me your number but let me at least give you mine."

Napaawang ang labi ko. Ang lakas ng loob.