You're safe when you're with me

Helping Tooth collect the teeth

But Tooth Farrah and I we don't have any memories of before we are we are now. Jack shakes his head. I nod next to him. And I'm sorry about that to you both. She tells us. Are you saying that we once had a home and a family? He asks her. Getting excited. You really don't remember do you? Either of you? She asks us. But we give her frowns as we shake our heads.

All these years and the answers were right here. You have to show me. Show us Tooth. I can't Jack Pitch has them. Then we have to get them back. I reach out for him pulling him back to the ground since he was floating. He looks down at me. And lands. I panic watching Tooth's feathers molt off of her as I go to her and grab her hand.

I whimper frowning at her. She takes my hand and looks at my sad eyes. We're too late she whispers. No! My father raises his voice as I flinch. No such thing as too late. I have an idea he says getting excited. We will help you collect the teeth! What? We collect teeth children keep believing in you.

I slink back whimpering at all this loud noise all of a sudden grabbing onto Jack's sleeve standing close to him. It's ok he whispers to me. He wraps and arm around me. And I let him. Here, he pulls my hand. While they discuss a plan we'll sit on the rock over here near the water. He directs me.

He rolls his sleeve up again. I know how much you like tracing that with your hand. "I like drawing things." I sign to him. Does it actually feel like anything? He cocks his head in confusion at me. Yeah, I whisper nodding. Like what? He asks me. Like.... Have you ever seen kids have temp tattoos? I ask him. Is that what those are? The kind that fade? He asks me.

I think so I shrug. I've seen them be done and I learned how to do them myself. I've practiced them on the elves before. But I only know really how to do Snowflake designs. I mean I can do rainbows and raindrops too and clouds four leaf clovers but those are easy. My favorite are snowflakes. I understand why winter is cool no pun intended.

You're funny. I shake my head. If I'm so funny why aren't you laughing or smiling? He playfully teases. I smile I shrug at him. But you never laugh. Jack I've lived most of my life in fear and without touch and up until this year without speaking. IDK what that is. Wow that is so sad. He mumbles.

Why? What's laughter? I ask him. What makes people laugh? When they're having fun. He suggests. Or sometimes in relief after something bad happens or after something bad could've happened. Or sometimes you get so happy you can't contain your joy so you laugh. Like when you see something incredible and your heart goes wow that's amazing and it can only express itself through laughter.

I'm not a good example but when I do something like cause mischief and I see all the chaos I've made I laugh because I'm having fun. I started a snowball fight with some kids and I laughed because we were having fun even though they had no idea I was there. He shakes his head. Other times you laugh even if you're sad because its better to laugh than it is to cry.

Why? IDK. He shrugs. Maybe to make myself feel better about the situation. I talk about that and then say even though I can't be seen that I laugh because it lightens the mood and it distracts me from the way I really feel. How do you really feel? "Like I'm alone, like no one will ever believe in me or see me." So, I laugh and I make mischief instead I laugh to make myself feel better.

To laugh at the world and mentally say I'm doing just fine, look at me I'm fine there's noting you can throw at me that can knock me down because I always try again. And because I have hope or I try to. He shoves his hands in his pockets but it gets harder and its been hard lately. And then I became friends with you. Having a friend gives me hope someone to talk to after 300 years of being alone.

Sometimes irony makes people laugh or when people say strange things or do silly fun things or tell jokes or be funny. Sometimes even making a funny face makes people laugh. But I hear sometimes that laughter is really more of a panic response. Some people laugh after being scared instead of screaming. I've seen children use a form of gentle touch that makes each other laugh.

IDK what they call it, I just like seeing it. I love the sound of laughter. I love making people smile and laugh even if they don't know it's me. That they don't know I'm the one that brings them all that fun and all that joy. Because I'm invisible. Bunny is right he frowns. I wrap my arms around him. Don't say that. I whisper into his ear. He wraps his arms around me back. I know what this is though and it's a hug.

I know that much I smile at him. Despite being around for IDK 300 years at least I don't really know that much about humans. I try to get close try to listen to observe but no matter where I go I bring a cold chill. And I can't be around many places in spring or summer. I have to be on the other side of the world bringing winter when its fall and winter places where it other places during that same time of year are spring or summer.

I only see what I can when before people go inside their homes or are outside enjoying the winter weather even though it's spring now and I've dusted the streets in some places. Giving Burgess snow days in April or in March. Only for Mary Springs to go through and melt my work. When spring comes or for Bunny to get mad at me when I make it snow on Easter. He laughs.

What was that? I ask him. That was me laughing. Show me again. He laughs again. It's not a let me see kind of thing Farrah it's a sound. The guardians turn their attention at us hearing him laugh. What the bloody 'ell could be so funny over there Bunny mumbles. You laughed when you talked about annoying Bunny. Is it funny to make people mad?

He laughs again. No not really, usually it means you're in trouble when you make someone mad. But he's easy to make mad easy to annoy. It's just easy that's why I laugh. But I'm only messing around having fun having a good time. "I remembered what the other one was called." He signs. "Why are you signing?" "Because I don't want anyone to hear me."

"I could be laughing from you tracing the pattern." He tells me. "Why?" "Because it tickles but not enough to make me laugh." I give him a confused look. I don't understand I whisper. "Why would a gentle touch make someone laugh?" Nerves or something in the body. He shrugs. But it doesn't hurt so I don't pull away. It's a gentle touch. I often hear parents tell their younger children when they play with their siblings or with pets to use gentle touches so that they don't hurt people.

I've never really understood the idea of or the need for touch since everyone goes right through me to this idea of human contact. You're the first human contact minus the yetis to come into contact with me. And it wasn't bad. The yetis were a little rough but hugs are gentle touches gentle and nicer contact. It's a hard concept to explain especially to someone whose afraid to be touched he gestures to me.

But you don't know why and only allow contact when you give it. Otherwise you're scared. The guardians were watching us but we were so caught up in our little world we didn't seem to care. I only used whispers or sign but Jack would speak in a normal voice not loud enough to frighten me. Jack Farrah? North calls for us.

We turn our heads to listen. We're going now. Where? He asks shoving his hands in his pockets. To help Tooth collect her teeth. And if you help us we'll help you get your memories. Both: We're "We're" in "in." Next thing I know Jack is trying to race Bunny to get teeth and dad is excited about the race and hard to tell if Sandy is or not cause he doesn't speak.

But for the most part it seemed that Jack was right there with me and I was close to Tooth. The guys looked like they were having all kinds of fun. And then Tooth got excited and then got hit in the head with a billboard. Jack and I flew after her. Are you ok? He asks her. I'm fine she touches her nose.

I just haven't been out in the field in a long time. How long is a long time? He asks. 440 years give or take. Then gets excited seeing another tooth. When we all meet back up she's thrilled that the guys are taking teeth and leaving gifts as fast as her fairies but then flinch when they haven't been doing that. I feel this funny feeling bubble up inside of me as I smile and my lips twitch.

But its gone as quick as it came. They go back after putting money into the launder mat machines and meet back up with us. But Tooth and I talk before Jack meets up with us. You and Jack seem like you're becoming pretty good friends she smiles and I nod. "He seems familiar to me." I sign to her. "Just like this town." "Especially the house we're right outside." "And the statue in the middle."

After so many years of having me and forgetting what Bob told them about my family the memory suddenly slowly comes back to her when I mention the statue. She frowns and cocks her head. Hey I hear Jack call out to us. Is this our last house? He asks floating next to us. Yeah, I think we're gonna meet up here. Let's go get the tooth.