A Road To Azlan's Heart (Azlan's Heart Sequel)

Kabanata 18

Be There

It was always breaking my heart every time I took a step to go forward. To move on. Dahil hindi ko rin naman talaga alam kung saan pupunta. I have no clue which way to choose, or what choices I'll take to move on. Purong kadiliman lang ang nasa paligid ko kaya panay ako kapa. Walang makita, walang maramdamang iba kung hindi takot.

Kasi paano kung magkamali ako? They were always telling me to move on without teaching me how to. They didn't lead me the way, they just left me behind. And now, someone came back. She is willing to help me, to teach me.

Naramdaman ko ang paghawak nito sa kamay ko. I glanced at the person beside me who smiled at me gently. Maga ang mga mata nito dahil iniyakan niya talaga ako kagabi. After our talk, my heart calmed down. Even with the pain I beared, I felt at ease. Dahil ngayon, alam kong may isang nandito. May isang nanatili para gabayan ako.

"Are you alright?" she asked. Sa tanong niyang iyon ay pasimple kong inilibot ang tingin sa buong paligid namin.

Around us are sofas located on different areas. Napalunok ako nang magtagpo ang tingin namin ng taong minahal ko noon, hanggang ngayon. Then my gazes fell on my family whose eyes were on him. Inside my office is Tita Anemone, Lezzana's Family, my family and Azlan with Shaira Nessia. Kasama rin namin si Nicho at Xian na tahimik lang sa likod namin ni Lezzana.

It was Lezzana's idea to call all of them. Gusto niyang marinig ko ang mga sasabihin nila. Gusto niya na huli na ito. All secrets will be out now, there will be no more what if's. Just the truth to free me. At pagkatapos nito ay nasa akin na ang desisyon kung anong gagawin ko. Now, Lezzana is leading me the way. I just need to find out next on how to lift my feet to take the biggest step of my life.

"I'm nervous," I softly murmured under my breath. Napayuko ako nang lumingon sa akin si Tita Anemone. Lezzana held my jaw for me to look at her. She smiled at me when I did.

"Ito na ang huli kaya kayanin mo, hm? Kahit anong mangyari ay mananatili ako. This time, I won't let my fear interfere whatever it is that I needed to do for you. Hinding-hindi ko na uulitin pa ang maling nagawa ko noon." She tucked some loose strands of my hair behind my ear.

Nabigyan ako nang lakas kahit papaano sa sinabi niyang iyon. Sabay naming hinarap ang mga taong kailangan kong lagpasan para tuluyan nang bitawan ang mga bagay na siyang ang ginawa lang naman ay basagin ako. Sa pagkatataon na ito ay may kasama na ako sa paghakbang. I have now someone who will lift me up against them.

Because I may have Xian or Canix with me, but what I wanted was someone closed to my heart. To the deepest part of me. A blood related person who'd help me out, who'd understand me for everything I felt. At kung hindi man maintindihan ay gusto ko ng taong handa akong intindihin pa rin. Dahil iyon ang hindi nila naibigay sa akin. Iyon ang ipinagkait nila sa akin simula pa noon.

"What is this all about, Lezzana?" Tito Zanie asked. Siya ang ama ni Lez. Beside him is Tita Katey whose also confused of what's happening. Pero ang mga mata nilang pareho ay hindi rin makaiwas sa pagtitig sa taong inakala nilang patay noon.

They all knew he was alive, but seeing him in person may have really give something else to feel. Kahit ako rin naman ay nanibago noong nakita ko siya kahit alam kong buhay ito. Funny tho, I didn't want to look for him. Yes, I was hoping but for the world to really let our path cross? That's something painful that destiny did there.

Pero kung hindi kami nagtagpo ay hindi kami aabot sa puntong ito. I wouldn't know anything about the truths they hide from me. At ngayon, isang katotohanan na naman ang kailangan ko para makalaya. Dahil kung hindi man ako makaahon sa alon para makarating sa dalampasigan ay hahayaan ko na lang ang sarili kong sabayan ito. I'd go along with it until the waves and I synchronized as one.