All Over You

Unlike Me

For the rest of the day I am firmly stuck on cloud nine. It is as if someone has injected the magic back into my life. I feel as if I have put on glasses and everything around me has become crystal clear. I don't need to see Liam again today, just the reassurance that he's here to stay makes me more relieved than I can put into words. The possibility of bumping into him is reignited and my heart feels so full. I am more relaxed now than I have been in days. I have skipped all the way down to the studio, joining the rest of the crew, and comically throw on my camera headset for transmission.

"How's Alex?" I ask Keira, the delight evident in my voice. She stands on camera one which is next to mine, and I adore working with my best friend. 

"I don't know if he likes me!" Keira wails, she seems pleased that I have some life in me once more.

"Why not?"

"He says all the right things but he never seems excited around me. Maybe it's just his accent or his laid back nature but I want someone who is thrilled to see me." She explains.

A smile rises to my lips as I realise Liam might like a girl who is thrilled to see him. I refuse to let him slip through my fingers this time. Liam and I are going on double dates with Keira and Alex one of these days. I can picture it. My glass half full view on life is back with a bang. Just one encounter with him was a breath of fresh air and I don't care if I'm being delusional.

"Just see it through, keep talking to him and he'll get more comfortable."

Hayley walks past us, her frail arms firmly crossed against her chest.

"Quiet on set, Tiffany!" She hisses.

I roll my eyes as she once again singles me out. Thankfully, I am too euphoric to care. I grin at Keira who glares at Hayley supportively. She always has my back. Maybe I should've just explained things to her earlier instead of taking it on alone. She would've helped and forced me to come out or stuck by my bedside. Then again, that might be the exact reason I didn't tell her. She is so supportive and wouldn't have let me be alone, which was the thing I craved most at the time. It also sounds a bit daft to say it all out loud. Especially now he's back. 

"I'm secretly falling for Liam who barely even acknowledged my existence until a few weeks ago, hates relationships and would never feel the same way about me."

No, I'll definitely keep that to myself.

The floor manager begins to count down, her fingers in the air to signal that we have three, two, one seconds and we are on air. I focus on getting the best shots of my life, being daring with the camera and taking risks I don't usually take during shooting. My job is still my solace and the half hour slot goes by in what feels like five seconds. By the time we wrap, even Geoff has taken notice of my newfound confidence. 

"Wow, Tiffany. You'll be in that head of department role long before me!" He smiles sweetly, wrapping a cable around his arm in a perfect figure of eight.

"No chance, I'm going to be here forever reigning over you." Keira teases, stepping between us. 

"Anyone up for a round of drinks tonight?" I offer, a grin permanently rooted to my face. 

I adore the changing attitude within me. Liam staying has given me a second lease of life. I will always remember how lost I felt without him and will hold on to the pain which struck my body with every moment he was gone. Maybe the universe is pulling us together after all. Liam has shown a new level of tenderness around me which he seemingly doesn't share with anyone else. When he was gone I felt like I was missing an appendage. He came back out of the blue. I will be confident and not let him go ever again. It starts today, I am not missing out again.