Kabanata 12
Maybe I was just jealous when I decided to quit liking him.
Jealousy. I've never felt that before. That annoying feeling...
Palagi kong nakukuha ang atensiyon ng lahat. Nakukuha ko rin lahat ng gusto ko. I dated a lot of handsome guys here. I can say that I didn't put a lot of effort on making them like me. Gaya ng sinabi ko, sila na ang nagtatapon sa kanilang sarili sa akin. Then eventually, I will just dispose them like nothing happened.
Then I will date a guy again. Then disposed it again, it's a tiring cycle.
That's where I got my title. Being a playgirl. It didn't gladden me because I caught a lot of attention from a lot of students. I don't like being in the spotlight. I don't like their attention. What I want is the attention of my parents.
But it changed when I learned about Sahil. The enigmatic and the apathetic man who just appeared like a mushroom. I wasn't ready. I was annoyed for I always caught him staring at me. I don't like him. I was telling that to myself, repetitively.
But he already caught something in me, effortlessly.
I suddenly forgotten about getting the attention of my parents. What I want is to get his attention, just like how he caught mine. Nang walang kahirap-hirap. I just hope he'll cooperate.
At ang imposible naman ng napagdesisyonan ko. Quit liking him? I realized I really can't when my feelings for him is so real and blazing.
"Uminom ulit kayo?" tanong niya mula sa kabilang linya.
He did cooperate, I can say.
"Oo, Sahil." sagot ko sa maliit na tinig.
I can trace the coldness in his voice. I don't wanna assume but I think he's mad, or I'm just intoxicated?
Ilang linggo na kaming nag-uusap sa telepono. I gave him my number when he asked for it. Sino ako para tumanggi sa gusto niya? Gusto ko rin naman. Paminsan-minsan din kaming sabay na kumakain sa kubo dahil nahihila agad ako nina Kaira para sumama sa kanila. I will just text him when I can't be with him. He's not replying but I know he reads my texts.
Today is Friday. May balak sana kaming kumain sa may plaza. Doon daw sa paborito niyang stall na may tindang dugo. We agreed to meet in the hut but Nova suddenly grabbed my wrist. Mabilis akong hinila patungo sa silid-aralan nina Kaira. Napag-usapan kasi nilang iinom ulit. I already told them that I can't but they didn't listen.
Now we're at Kaira's house. Tulog na sa pagkalasing ang apat habang ako ay malapit na ring tangayin ng antok. I was about to doze off when Sahil called, sounding so mad learning about me drinking liquor again.
"Are you drunk? Can you atleast walk? Uuwi ka na? Umuwi ka na..." His alluring voice is gone.
Humagikhik ako. "Galit ka ba, Sahil?"
"Hindi."
I pouted. He refused but his voice is already telling me the answer... or maybe, I am just assuming things. Ganiyan naman talaga siya minsan.
"You sounded mad. Akala ko lang..." huminto ako at bumunga ng hangin. "I can still walk, uuwi na ako ngayon..."
"Oo."
Kumunot ang aking noo sa ikli ng kaniyang sagot. I mean, he's always like this. It's just that I his voice is really telling me that he's really mad... Ayaw ko lang maniwala kasi baka mali na naman ako ng akala.
"Sige na. Bye-"
"Susunduin kita. Where are you, Raquelle?" he cut me off.
Natigilan ako at hindi agad nakasagot. Damn.
