In which Neve keeps texting her deceased friend's number, at first in order to cope with the loss, and later on, as a force of habit. After four years, she is about to stop, but suddenly, the number responds.
***
An MNR epistolary collaboration wit...
Oops! Ang larawang ito ay hindi sumusunod sa aming mga alituntunin sa nilalaman. Upang magpatuloy sa pag-publish, subukan itong alisin o mag-upload ng bago.
FRI | 11:20 PM
Neve: Big Boss? Gising ka pa?
Lorenzo: Yeah What's up?
Neve: May idudulog sana ako sa 'yo. Kung pwede?
Lorenzo: I don't know what that means haha But sure :)
Neve: Pumayag ka kahit 'di mo alam ibig sabihin ng sinasabi ko? 😅
Lorenzo: Yeah haha It's always a yes with you But you can tell me what it means now :)
Neve: 😅 Ano... Uh... Hihingi sana ako ng advice. Gano'n meaning n'yan.
Lorenzo: Silly girl You don't need my permission for that You know you can always ask me for anything What is it about?
Neve: Kasi si Ollie... Ano... Um... Pano ba 'to? 😰
Lorenzo: What about him?
Neve: Kasi ano... Inaya niya ako... Tapos 'di ko na alam gagawin ko 😥
Lorenzo: Invite you to where?
Neve: Inaya as in... inaya ako mag-try daw. With him. As in... dating, gano'n.
11:27 PM
Lorenzo: And then?
Neve: Ang tanong ko sana sa 'yo... 'di ba parang too early? 'Di pa kami gano'ng magkakilala pero sabi niya, interested daw siya sa 'kin at gusto niya pa 'kong makilala 😅 Sabi noon ni Milly, sa dating daw talaga mas nagkakakilala at palagayan ng loob bago magdesisyon na maging steady. Pero... ewan ko. Gano'n ba talaga?
Lorenzo: Yeah To some How do you feel about it?
Neve: Kinakabahan ako. Ang lakas ng kabog ng dibdib ko. 'Di ako makatulog at mapakali 😣 Parang lalagnatin yata ako sa kaba 😣
Lorenzo: Because you liked the confession?
Neve: No!! I don't know... Ang gulo ng isip ko...
Lorenzo: Then you can say no if you're not interested, Neve If he's as nice as you say he is, he would understand Do you wanna say no?
Neve: I don't know... Naaalala ko kasi yung sinabi mo noon, e. No'ng sinabihan mo 'ko subukan makipag-date sa friend. Napapaisip ako na baka ito na yung chance? Na baka dapat mag-take risk din naman ako?
Lorenzo: You just got confessed to and that's what you're thinking about? Haha That's not what's important right now What do you feel about him?
Neve: Okay naman? Sa tingin ko... Masaya naman kami kapag magkasama. Komportable ako at alam kong safe ako sa kanya kasi siya rin naman tumulong sa 'kin noon no'ng dinala ako sa kung saan ni Dennis. Saka... Crush ko rin kasi siya... dati...
Lorenzo: Hmm
Neve: Nakakakaba naman yung hmm na 'yan 😭
Lorenzo: No, sorry, I'm trying to understand where your head's at, that's all Let me try again What is it you're struggling with? It seems to me that you could possibly like this guy after all
Neve: 'Yon nga... I don't know what to do 😢 I don't want to lose a friend 😢 I don't know what I feel 😢 I don't know what I want 😢
Lorenzo: Neve, it's okay You don't need to decide now You can sleep on it tonight and think it over again tomorrow
Neve: Actually Isa pa nga 'yan 😭 Nakapag-yes na 'ko. I mean, 'di ako nakapag-no. Nahiya ako mag-no. So umoo ako kanina 😭 Nahihiya na ako bawiin 😭 At 'di ko rin alam kung dapat ko bang bawiin. Gulong-gulo isipan ko 😭
Lorenzo: Oh
Neve: See? 😭😭
Lorenzo: Relax It's gonna be alright Your best option now is to sleep on it and wait for your head to calm down a bit You'll be able to think better when you're well rested
Neve: Mali ba nagawa 'ko? ☹️
Lorenzo: You panicked is all It's alright. It happens You can pick things up again tomorrow For now, what you need is to calm down a bit
Neve: Okay 😭
Lorenzo: I know your head will go on and on in circles tonight But try sleeping, alright? Don't be too harsh on yourself The situation is not as difficult as you think it is
Neve: Okay 😭
1:16 AM
Lorenzo: Hey... You got this... I know you're still beating your head up trying to find answers to your questions, but take it easy It's gonna be alright
