WE ARE ALL GUILTY : Maybe Even You Are?

4)Flashback ft.Rhyss

"Ok so tell me. What do you need me to do", I started
"Not much. Just help me find some info on Ace's mom. He never talks about her", he explained
"What's Ace's mom got to do with my sister?", I ask confused
"Look, I can't tell all that before I myself know something about it. But I promise you, it might've got to do everything about your sister's suicide.....Just don't tell Ace about this else you know he'll never utter a single word to us"
I nodded to it as a respond. After that, he left. And I wonder what the hell happened to my sister?

Lilie Cameron, the name makes me remember everything about my past till I entered class 8. Cause she was related and mixed into my life, in my blood, in me. By the title behind her name, you can already understand that we are associated. Indeed we are.

Born in 2007 December, a year before me, she's my older sister. Our parents shifted countries during the year she was supposed to be admitted in school so our mom and dad got us admitted in the same year and we thus ended up in the same class.

My dad's had quite a few transfers before either of us were born but after we were, he started going alone. But due to my sister's death, he returned home for......let's say as much time as my mom will need. And honestly, mom needed him more than ever during these two months so it was a good decision.

However, making that decision instead for knowing about Lilie, would've made it more acceptable for me. Cause it's as if all her memories have been wiped off of him unlike everybody else, after she passed away. Least to say, it is suspicious. Especially knowing they had a good bond. A classic daddy's girl cause I was never the kind. Even aftet this, I don't wanna be.

Anyway, I've got over her. And her death. The fact that she suicided is all that I was told back then. Frankly, after that
I didnt even wanna know about her death anymore. Cause she was certainly too selfish to not think about me or even mom, or dad.

It feels like I of all people should not be saying that suicide is for cowards. Because it needs courage and something terrible enough for the thought itself to arise. And yet, I feel that whatever the reason was, she could've told us before being found wrist-slashed in her room.

I mean seriously, the classic straight-A student, beloved child, perfect daughter and the happy-go-easy friend. What can such a person like that, like her, have any relation with suicide or even death remotely? Till date I've been so angry on her that I never bothered to know anything acutely related to her.

I still remember being woken up at 7 in the morning by a police officer. My mom and dad crying on my desk. I was in a complete haze with no clue of what was happening till I reached the police station and got to know that my sister had......suicided. A

As time passed, I could understand that she was missing, rather say a part of me was. It's only been a month or two of her death but it feels like a long time. I just wonder if the reason she suicided was something or somebody.

And after D mentioned her today, I realized that covered in all the anger, all the hatred towards her for me always being overlooked by my parents. All of that and more, I have let's say, not a soft spot, no. But rather a spirit of justice for her. So I agreed to help him in whatever he'll need cause he promised me to tell me the reason, the truth as to why my sister suicided....