WE ARE ALL GUILTY : Maybe Even You Are?

34) Step 1 completed

Lilie
I could see myself on his computer. All clothes discarded and tears unleashed. I know that it'll be worse now. So so so much worse....
"Ace......D-Don't", I whimpered.
"Why? I'm only supposed to. And you only deserve it".

I did not tell him anything anymore, not like he'll listen and not like my words and begging can convince him. He'll get what he wants at any cost. I quickly ran downstairs with my dress etc still in my hands and wore it in his living room as fast as I could. I saw him appear on the staircase as soon as I had put on my dress.
"Just thought you should know". He looked down at his watch. "It'll be out in an hour or so".

I put my legs forward one by one. Faster, faster, faster, till I was running. Running far, far away from him. Or trying to from the reality of me. Occasional but consistent electric shocks running through me, till every inch of my skin was cold and numb. The dull ache in my eyes due to all the crying. And my head which was harrowed by all the thoughts circulating in it over and over and over again.

It made it impossible not to do what I did. I ran faster and faster and did not stop or slow down. A car passed by and I just couldn't care about it. I was glad I could even notice due to the haze in my mind and tears blurring my eyes. I reached my room and locked myself in it. Mom was away as usual and dad was in his room, working. Rhyss probably doesn't care and has her dang big headphones on. Good for me. Cause I needed this. I needed to vent it all out without having to explain. I can't explain what just happened or what is about to.

I slowly sank down with my back against my door, till I reached the ground. And I looked at the timing. It was so close, to what felt like my end. It is infact like I'm waiting for my ending to come. I still have the knife in my hands. I don't know why. He was right. I'd need it. I need it now. It was 11:10. Ten more minutes. Just ten.

I bit my hand and cried and whailed but nobody heard me. I prayed to anything and everything to wake me up. Tell me this is a nightmare. But still nobody heard. I brought the knife on top of my wrists and placed it on. Still nobody came to help me. I rubbed it's rough edge against my veins. And still nobody came to stop me.

It was 11:20 when I realised I have to help myself. So I gripped the knife firmly and put my hands across my left shoulder. Getting the perfect angle to shatter my veins. And with one strike, I fell to the ground. Bleeding out on the floor. Everything was red. Red and bloody and a bit sticky. Till it was black. My skin no more cold or numb, no aching. No nothing. No sensation. No life........

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Ace
It's 11:20 and my scheduled post from my fake account had already been posted on the dot. Now I can rest for sometime knowing I have just completed one very big step to bringing justice for my mom and giving that b****rd William Cameron, what he rightfully deserves.

Unfortunately D came in right after a minute of my post. Not because he knew I did this....or so I thought.
"The hell did you do?"
"If you can please explain", I fooled about with his concern
"Why the hell did Lilie just go running and crying? You definitely did something yeah? Something too terrible. What is it?", He forced his question
"God, D. Just chill yeah?", I said and my laptop occasionally ringed due to notifations from instagram. Both of us got interested in what the hell was happening. Only that I knew what but D did not.
"The hell did you post, mate? Not your abs, please", he teased me
"Why not? They're handsome"
"They are not the best is what they are. I pity the girls dying for it", he entered my password which he knew since we are homies
"Yeah cause if they see your's they'll definitely prefer MINE", I fooled around with him. But his expression quickly changed once he saw what post I had actually made.
"What the hell you jerk?!", he shouted on me
"Chill D!", I suggested as he banged the desk, seeing the post blow up.
"You tell me the f*** did you just do?!! We need to delete this", he advised
"No!", I snatched the laptop out of his hands and kept it on my bed, out of his current reach since I stood in front.
"Ace, this isn't right ok? If the police find our, you'll be screwed for life"
"From the shame she potrayed, I don't think she'll be alive tomorrow", I tried to calm hin down. But his face was still tense. Not about her but about me.
"Give me your laptop, Ace. If she isn't gonna be alive then you've got what you wanted. Just delete this"
"Well, I will. But first let her die"
"Ace.......stop this now, mate. It's done and dusted. Enough is enough", he motioned towards my laptop. He always knew I would do something like this with Lilie. He is just surprised at the extent of it. It's okay. Everybody is always surprised to know how much of a stubborn a** I can be.

My phone rang and I needed to pick it up cause it was Alex calling. I let D pick it up instead. And so he did.
"Hey, Alex"
"Yo, Ace. Can you reach Lilie? She isn't picking up", Alex panted from the other end of the phone. D quickly nodded at me.
"Um...I'm Dominique hear actually. I'll try her phone and infrom, yeah?". He called back Lilie asap and put it on speaker. It kept ringing. After 10 fricking tries, he informed Alex that she wasn't picking up. "Think work's done", he opinioned.

It was a maximum of 30 minutes before the news came from Alex that indeed my work was done. So I happily handed my laptop over to D. He lawfully deleted both the post, my new fake temporary account and also deleted the photoes from every possible device of mine. Though I only had them on my laptop.

But I had the original copy of the photo from the barn, with me. Kept safely in my drawer. That I'm never letting go. Neither this nor the one I'm yet to take with Ms. Cameron 2. We had switched on the tv and skipped to the news channel. I guess William did not want to release it publicly cause come on......indirectly he is th reason she did what she did.

2 days later
Finally the funeral was announced. I only got to know cause it had circulated around the school by Alex's pets. Good for me. Finally a break. I have to focus on my exams now. Then again I'll focus on Rhyss Cameron. My second and last step.