Otherwise Known As... | Bucky Barnes

Chapter (33) Thirty Three ~ ...the girl who's trying

Lessons with Alex and therapy with Bruce have been going fine. Bruce has helped me separate my powers from my anger so that I don't have a repeat of what happened a few weeks ago with Nat.

Alex has continued to use clones of different people to help me practice. It is amazing how lifelike she is able to make them. She even cut one of their hands so that I could practice with blood that was outside of the body.

I still haven't gotten the hang of everything, but I'm learning every day. I've slowly started to learn how to manipulate people's different body parts, like their legs or arms, but I haven't been able to do their whole body at once.

Alex is hopeful that I'll be able to do it soon, and I'm trying to believe her, but it's harder when I keep failing day after day.

I've talked to Tony about it, and he's told me that I just have to keep trying. That I need to keep my head up. When I was about to argue with him about it, he said that he would never be where he is today if he just gave up. He said that if he wasn't killed, he might have still been in that cave in Afghanistan, working for those terrorists.

After our conversation when I left, I ended up calling Avery to tell her that Tony might need some extra care tonight since we hit a sore subject.

I've also spent a lot of time with Steve. We finally managed to visit Bucky's section at the museum together to celebrate his birthday. We got a lot of stairs from the people around us, but thankfully no one bothered us. They could probably tell we weren't there to be social.

Tony has told me that he and Avery have been considering moving back to California sometime soon. They've already talked to Pepper about it, and she's also been wanting to move back. Morgan also seems to be excited to see her friends again.

I'm going to miss them all when they leave, but I know it's probably for the best. I know Tony for one has started getting restless here around the tower. He's been walking around like a zombie for about a week now.

Natasha and Clint have already left for the farm to see the family. She's also started going on more and more missions, and I think Steve is going to join her soon. Fury, who freaked out when finding out one of his right-hand workers had powers, said I wouldn't be able to do come back to SHIELD until I got my shit figured out.

Because of this, I've been trying really hard to figure my shit out.

It's been super boring just being around the tower, especially since Tony won't even let me touch his suits and allow me to help work on them. I've been wanting to get to work on something so much that I've joined Morgan in disassembling and then reassembling different objects around the tower, like the microwave, vacuum cleaner, DVD player, and the television in the main living area.

Avery was not very happy about that last one.

Tony wasn't either since he had to buy the new TV and pay to have it installed.

Both weren't happy that I was encouraging Morgan to "tinker" with things.

However, Morgan was thrilled I was teaching her these things, so I proceeded to show her how to make her her own record player. I still remembered how to do it from the 40s. We ended up gifting it to Steve, who was happy about the gift but also concerned about where we got the parts for it from.

He was smart in not asking many questions.

Alex has been doing a good job keeping Loki in check while he's been staying here at the tower. We've only caught him playing smaller, non-harmful pranks here and there, and Alex had helped out with just about all of them so he couldn't get into as much trouble as Tony would have wanted.

At one point, before everyone even thought of leaving, the two made it so everyone's hair color changed for 24 hours. Tony had red hair with gold tips, Steve had half-blue half-red hair, Natasha had black hair with a single streak of her normal red - which she rocked around the tower - and Thor had vibrant blue hair with gold highlights. I myself had black hair that faded into a reddish-brown color, and they were a bit nervous about Bruce and Avery so they just gave him a single green streak and her red highlights.

Natasha, Avery, and I actually debated on going to the salon to make it happen for real.

Besides all of that, everything around the tower has been relatively normal. I just hope everything goes well enough with my powers soon so I can get back to work. I heard there's been five fires in the workshop since I've been gone.

I'm trying so hard to get back to work. If I don't, I think SHIELD could be in danger of blowing up from the mechanic's department alone.