Let it kill you (Dabi x reader

Chapter 30

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"I wondering if this is something she would lie about" Dabi said putting his chin in his hand.

"Has she ever lied to you before?" Hawks asked leaning his head his hand.

"No, not that I know of" he said looking at Hawks.

"Then there should be nothing to worry about" he said and Dabi nodded.

You paced back and forth and Jasmine just watched you. She hadn't seen you like this before and started to get a bit concerned.
Her eyes went back and forth following you until you stopped. You looked over at her and saw her concerned face.

"How sure are you that it was him?" You asked as some of your hair moved in front of your face.

"Well his voice sounded the same and from what I could see it looked like him but older but you know how we would say your brother has one of those faces" she said trying to calm your nerves.

"Okay so then it probably wasn't him" you said as you walked into the kitchen to grab new bandages. "Besides my brother left when we were in middle school" you said feeling what you felt the day he left. "He just disappeared. Why would he come back now"

"Yeah" Jasmine said softly.

She could see the pain on your face and then you both heard the stairs outside start to squeak. She looked over to the door then back to you and your face looked normal. Like nothing you two had talked about even happened. You wrapped your hand as the door opened to reveal Dabi. He walked in with a sigh and he looked at Jasmine who was just looking at you. He looked over and you seemed fine but the longer he looked he saw something different but he couldn't figure it out. You could feel him looking at you but you kept your eyes down at your hand that you were struggling to wrap. Dabi looked at Jasmine and gave her a look and she nodded. Jasmine got up and grabbed her stuff.

"I'll see you later Y/n" Jasmine said hugging you from the back and leaving.

You heard the door shut and Dabi let out a soft breath. He took off his jacket and placed it on the couch before walking over to you. He stood behind you and saw you get more and more frustrated. He gently grabbed your wrists and took the bandages from you. You sighed and put your good hand on the counter and leaned on it. Dabi moved your hair behind your shoulder and you turned around. You still didn't look at him as you raised your hand for him. He gently wrapped your hand and you could feel him looking at you.

"Y/n?" He said softly.

"Hmm" you hummed still not looking at him.

"Hey" he said putting his hand gently under your chin raising your head so you were looking at him.

He looked at you for a split second before he kissed you. You leaned into the kiss and it felt nice and calming. When he pulled away he looked into your eyes and thats when he noticed what was different. It was your eyes they were saying a lot but also nothing at all.

"How about we go take a nap" he said and you nodded.

He wrapped his pinkie around yours and led you to the bedroom. He took off his shoes and sat on the bed as you crawled in the bed next to him. You laid down on your back and felt your hand start to throb a bit but ignored the sensation. Dabi laid down on his back and you rolled onto your side and put your head on his chest. Dabi felt you pull him closer and closer to the point of if you pulled him any closer you would morph into each other. He sat up and you felt a little sad. He pulled the back of his shirt up and over his head throwing it to the side. He laid back down and you laid back down on his chest.

You stopped trying to pull him closer and just laid on top of him. The skin to skin contact helped calm your nerves. Dabi knew that you slept better when he was with you but he noticed you slept particularly well when there was skin to skin contact. You laid there with your eyes slightly open as he stroked your hair.

"Y/n" Dabi said and you hummed in response. "Do you have any other family that is still alive?" He asked you sighed.

"Yeah" you said with a sigh. "I had... have a brother" you said and he nodded. "I don't really like to talk about him very much" you said and he hummed.

"Okay then we dont have to talk about it anymore, I was just curious" he said kissing your head. "Go to sleep"

You closed your eyes and faded off to sleep. You don't remember falling asleep or when Dabi got up. He gently moved you off of him and walked into the kitchen. He sighed and leaned his head back. He didn't know what to do about this feeling he was feeling. And he didn't like that he couldn't just push it away. He sighed and called hawks.

"Hey, give me one second" Hawks said when he answered before Dabi heard him say something to someone else. "Dabi what's up?" Hawks asked after he had shut a door.

"She has a brother" Dabi said and looked towards the door.

"Did you ask about details?" Hawks said leaning back in his chair.

"She didn't want to talk about it so I didn't make her" Dabi said and he heard Hawks sigh. "What?"

"You know what's crazy to me?" He said.

"What" Dabi said in a low tone.

"That you love the girl who you used to hate" Hawks said and Dabi dropped his head forward. "You used to talk about how much you hated her and how annoying she was and how you didn't care about her feelings but now you are going out of your way to protect her feelings."

"It's not like that" Dabi said.

"Really then what is it like?" Hawks asked with a bit of a laugh.

"I can't love her dude" Dabi said looking back at the door to make sure you were still  asleep. "If I love her I'm gonna hurt her and I don't want that" he said lowering his head.

"Well then I have one thing to ask you," Hawks said "when are you gonna stop leading her on?"

When he asked that Dabi didn't say anything he just sighed. He didn't want to hurt you but if he stayed with you he would hurt you and if he left he would hurt you. He didn't know how to answer Hawks question so they sat there in silence for a little bit.
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