Let it kill you (Dabi x reader

Chapter 36

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Your grandpa just looked at you and silence fell over you two. You could feel the tension. When Nick left he never really talked about it to you. However you can vaguely remember your mom and him talking about it while you were doing something else. All you remember is that he was sad for a while. As you got older you figured he started to help you with the bow and arrow to distract from the fact that his only grandson was gone.

"How long has he been back?" Your grandpa asks and you sigh.

"I'm not sure I saw him for the first time in 6 years and it wasn't pleasant" you said and you could tell that peaked his interest.

"What did he say Y/n?" He asked sitting up more. "Tell me everything"

You told him everything leading up to when he brought you to the cafe to talk to you. But you left out what he had said.

"Y/n what did he say to you" he said sternly noticing you were leaving it out intentionally.

"We went in the cafe and Jasmine had followed but he told her to leave and she stood her ground but I told her I would be fine. We sat down and he started talking."

At the cafe
"So how have you been Y/n its been a long time" Nick said to me in a sweet tone.

I don't know what to do. How do I react? What do I say?

"Not talking to me?" He had said snapping me out of my own mind. "I mean I get, it I've been gone a long time I can imagine this is like talking to a stranger"

He's not wrong. He doesn't even look like my brother besides his face. If it wasn't for that I wouldn't even know it was him.

"I guess it is like talking to a stranger" I say softly.

"Why so shy aren't you excited to see me? I can imagine you have a lot of questions for me" he says and I can't help but feel like I'm 12 again.

I do my best to try and muster up some courage to ask him the question I want to know the most but my nerves are getting to me more then ever.

"For starters where did you go for 6 years Nick" I say trying to put up the front that I'm not intimidated.

"I was around you know" he says nonchalantly

"Around, really? Gone for 8 years and wont even tell me where you were. Fine then, if you were around where were you when mom died?" I asked and saw his eyes change. They almost clouded.

"I didn't know she was dead until after her funeral" he said plainly no emotion on his face.

"That's weird considering it was on the news everywhere. She was a topped ranked hero Nick, and if you were around you would have seen it" I said starting to feel emotions resurface.

"Well I didn't. I don't watch the news much" he said looking at me.

"Okay then why didn't you come see me after you found out, or did you forget that you had a sister" I said getting a little loud.

"I knew you were fine you were a big girl" he said with a smirk on his face.

"Fuck you, I was 17 and lost my mom you should have been there!" I raise my voice.

"Y/n you losing mom was your fault" he said matching my tone.

His words made me shrink a little bit. My fault? How was it my fault? I did everything I could to get people to go help her?

"What?" I ask not knowing what he meant by that.

"Oh come on Y/n dont be stupid" he said making you shrink. "You are the reason she died Y/n."

"No you're a liar. I did everything I could to try and get her home, no one listened to me" I said feeling tears start coming to my eyes.

"Have you ever thought that maybe you didn't try hard enough? You should have made them listen to you but you didn't you let her die Y/n" he said looking down at me seeing me start to crack. "To bad you weren't good enough with that bow and arrow so you could have saved her. But you didn't and now we are both out of a mom"

I sat there with tears pouring down my face as he sat there and watched with a smile.

"You're wrong" I mumble trying to keep myself together.

"Am I? Then let me show you something" he said before the cafe around us turned into a place that I never wanted to see again.

I looked around and took in the scene. It was where they found mom. I felt tears fall from my eyes.

"Nick stop I don't want to see this" I said closing my eyes.

"Just look over there" he says and I open my eyes and see a bunch of hero's coming to save her. "You did that Y/n you made them listen to you. But to bad this isn't real" he said as the picture faded away. "So she's dead because of you"

I sat there not knowing what to do. Maybe he was right. Maybe I did kill her. I could have made them go get her and save her I just didn't try hard enough.

"I really did come to see how you were to bad it turned out like this Y/n" he said getting up and just looking at me with a smile I barely saw as I kept looking forward. I felt numb "But I mean someone had to tell you that you're a killer" he whispered in my ear as he left the cafe.

Back to the present

"Y/n" your grandpa said looking you as you just let the tears stream down your face. "Your moms death was not your fault" he said and you looked at him.

"Maybe he was right maybe I could have tried harder to get them to go" I said feeling my eyes start to pure from the tears.

"No" he says sitting down next to you. "You did more then what was asked of you Y/n. You were only 17 years old. No one should have to go through any of that and it is not your fault do you hear me" he said as you looked at him and nodded your head.

He pulled you into a hug and you started to cry a little harder and hugged him back. You both stayed like that for a while until you stopped crying. You just don't understand why he would say that to you. He is supposed to be your brother and that was someone you didn't know. After you had finished crying you both went up to bed. You didn't sleep much you just looked up at the ceiling. You knew deep down you had done everything you could to try and save your mom so why did you let his words get to you so quickly. You looked out the window and up at the stars. If you knew you did as much as you could why did you let him make you feel like you didn't.
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