Let it kill you (Dabi x reader

Chapter 48

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Everyone one had left or gone to sleep. Jasmine went home to go shower you could tell she was feeling exhaused and you could see it all over her face that she was a little traumatized by what occurred. Toga went to bed after she gave Dabi the blood as did Spinner and Compress. You sat up front on the floor and just watched Dabi to make sure if he woke up he wouldn't be by himself.

"You should go home" you heard Hawks say walking over to you. "Shower and get some rest, I'll watch him" he said standing next to you.

"No its fine, I'm good" you said not even looking at him.

"Y/n" he said before he sat next to you. "You look tired. You gave 3 pints of blood, you need rest" he said looking at you.

"Hawks I'm fine" you said. "I want to be here if he wakes up"

"Then I'll stay with you" he said taking in the rest of your appearance.

You hadn't changed. You still had blood all over your jeans and your white shirt. You had it on your arms, hands, neck, and face. Hawks had blood all over his arms and some splatters here are there on his face. He could only imagine how you were feeling right now. He knew way more about Dabis feelings for you then you would know and he could guess your feelings based on the reaction you had to him being hurt. He could see that you were exhausted but if you didn't want to leave he wasn't gonna make you but he was going to stay with you.

"Do you know what happened?" You asked softly.

"From what I understand he was walking the back alleyways and some hero's found him. He fought hard enough to get away. I can only imagine what they look like." He said looking at you.

"Where was he?" You asked looking at Dabi.

"Y/n that doesn't mat-" he started and you stopped him.

"Where was he Hawks?" You asked again and your tone said enough.

"He was a few blocks from your apartment" he said and you looked over at him.

"My apartment? Why would he be going there?"

"I'm not sure, you'd have to ask him yourself" Hawks said "he tells me a lot about his feeling towards you Y/n but he never seems to tell me what he'll do about them"

You didn't ask anymore question you just sat there lost in your own mind. A few hours went by and you could see the sun start coming up.

"Hawks you should go home" you said and he looked at you. "Go see your wife, I'm sure she is worried about you" you said looking at him.

"Okay" he said softly before he stood up and walked to the door. "Also Y/n" he said as he opened the door and you looked over at him. "None of this is your fault. Even if you would have answered the phone sooner it would have played out the same. So its not your fault" he said looking back at you and leaving.

Hawks always seemed to know what you were thinking. You did and do think this is your fault. You feel like if you would have answered the phone earlier it may have played out better but you knew that wasn't true. Even if you did answer the phone sooner he still would have been hurt. You sat there in silence as the sun continued to rise. You leaned your head back and closed your eyes for a while. After another hour you heard a groan. You opened your eyes and looked over to see Dabi trying to move. You immediately got up and went over to him.

"Don't try and move" you said putting your hands gently on him. "We don't have strong enough pain killers for you right now" you said as you felt his body try and relax.

You looked at him and you could see in his eyes that he was in pain. He didn't respond to what you said but you could see his chest rise and fall as he took a deep breath.

"Why are you still here?" He asked in a low voice.

"Because I wanted to make sure that when you woke up you weren't by yourself" you said sitting on the stool that was next to you.

"I'm fine, you can go" he said not looking at you.

"No, I'm fine here" you said and he sighed.

"Y/n you are covered in my blood" he said looking over at you. "You need to go take a shower and get it off" he said trying to get you to listen.

"Dabi I already told you I'm fine right where I am" you said and he shook his head.

"You already came and did what you needed to do, I didn't wake up alone. So go" he said with a harsh tone and you didn't move a bit.

He gave in to the fact that you weren't going anywhere. He hated when you got hard headed like this. You were so difficult. You had to change his bandages after awhile so he wouldn't get infected. As you changed them you could see that he was gonna have scars. You did your best and so did Jasmine but you weren't a doctor. You could only do what you could and hoped it worked out. Everyone did their best with not having been in a situation like that before. When you got to the bandage that covered the wound that was on his side you could see his body tense.

"Relax" you said softly. "I'll be gentle" you said and he nodded doing his best.

You peeled off the bandage and looked at it for a second before continuing.

"Where were you?" Dabi asked fully taking in what you were wearing.

"Doesn't matter" you said gently putting the new bandage on.

"Come on Y/n where were you" he said and you ignored him. "I just want to know what you were dressed so pretty for" he said and you sighed.

"Dabi I was on a date" you said softly going to the wound by his neck.

"With that guy you were talking about?" He asked with a slight switch in his tone.

"Yeah, I was with him" you said glancing at him as you changed the bandage.

"You should have stayed with him, the others could have figured it out" he said softly.

"I'm sure they could have" you said and he looked at you.

"I'm serious, I would have been fine" he said and you fully looked at him.

"No Dabi you would have been dead." You said "and I know you are just saying that because you didn't want me to see you like this, but it doesn't matter how much fun I may be having, I'll pick you being alive over that any day of the week" you said and he gently nodded.

You finished up his bandages and sat with him holding his hand until he fell back asleep. You just looked at him. You didn't know why he was coming to your house but you had an idea. You looked down at yourself and sighed. You did need a shower but you didn't want to leave him. You stayed until late in the night until Hawks got back. He took over for you and you walked back home.
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