Let it kill you (Dabi x reader

Chapter 45

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"Likes you, really?" Dabi said looking at you.

"Yeah, why?" You asked feeling a weird feeling in your stomach because of how he said it.

"Come on Y/n don't be stupid" he said before taking a drink.

"What, how am I being stupid?" You said sitting up slightly.

"Because you know you can't date, you'd be the one to fuck around and get him killed" he said seeing your face from the corner of his eye. "And I mean come on who could love a villain unless they are one. You've chosen a life of loneliness. So yeah don't be stupid. If he is as nice as you say he would never be able to except the fact that you do what you do"

You could feel your eyes slightly burn. You looked away from him quickly so he wouldn't see the tears that had started to form I'm your eyes. He was right. You were a villain and if he was as nice as he was he would never be able to love you. No one would be able to love you. You quickly wiped the tear that fell down your cheek before getting up to go to the bathroom. Dabi knew what he was doing and it made him happy he could still do it. He couldn't stand the thought of you with someone else so he decided to say what he said to put the bug in your ear that no one would be able to love you. He knew it wasn't true. He knew you were pretty enough and had a good enough personality that anyone would love you villain or not.

You splashed your face with cold water and looked at yourself in the mirror. You didn't know why you let his words get to you so easily. Maybe because you felt like there was some truth in what he said. You were never going to be able to have someone love you the way you love them. You took a deep breath and walked out of the bathroom  seeing that everyone had arrived for the meeting. During the meeting Shigarki told us some more details about this new recruit he wanted to get and that their quirk was explosion. You nodded your head as that was a pretty impressive quirk to have.  After you and Jasmine started walking home.

"Hey are you okay?" She asked randomly.

"Yeah why?" You asked looking over at her.

"I don't know you just seem off. You were happy when you left but when I saw you again you looked..." she paused thinking of the right word. "Not sad but hurt" she said and you looked down slightly.

"No I'm fine just Dabi had said something to me before you got there" you said and she groaned.

"Please tell me he didn't say he liked you" she said getting irritated. "Y/n please don't go back to him. I know it might seem tempting but  you were hurt after what happed even though you tried to hide it but I could see it. Don't let him ruin what you have going for you right now with Sakusa." She said and you sighed.

"No Jasmine he didn't tell me he liked me." You said with a small laugh. "He just made me realize that being a villain can make it extremely hard to be loved" you said softly.

"What, why would he say that?" She asked looking over at you.

"I had told him about Sakusa and how he made my heart flutter and how I like him and he might like me back" you said and she sighed.

"Look Y/n don't fall for what ever he is trying to pull, he probably said what he said because he's jealous" she said and you made a face making her smile. "I know Dabi being jealous isn't something I could imagine either but I think he is. I think it bothers him that you found someone who makes you happy that isn't him. And I know for a fact Sakusa likes you because he told me" she said seeing you reaction.

"Wait he does?" You asked and she nodded.

"In fact he wanted to know if you were free tonight" she said as you both continued to walk.

"I am but why couldn't he ask me himself?" You asked confused.

"You make him nervous Y/n, that's why" she said laughing a bit. "Just text him and say yes you are free so y'all can go on a date" she said.

You did what she said. You texted him that you were free tonight and he responded immediately asking what time you wanted to be picked up. It was already pretty late but you said in an hour. When you got home you changed and put on some jeans and a white tank top and a grey jacket. You brushed your hair getting all the tangles out. As you brushed your hair you pulled a little to hard and groaned before your mind went back to when Dabi brushed out your hair and how gentle he was. You sighed and continued until your hair was completely brushed out. You put on some shoes and walked out to show Jasmine who was with Ethan in the living room.

"So what do we think?" You said walking out and doing a turn.

"Y/n you look so cute" Jasmine said. "Doesn't she look cute?" She asked Ethan who sat there and got a scared look on his face. "You can answer the question" she said light pushing him.

"You look great Y/n" he said and you smile as Jasmine got up and walked to you.

"You should brush your hair more often" she said with a laugh as she played with your hair.

"Hey" you said pulling your hair away from her.

"What I'm just saying, you have long pretty black hair. If I had your hair I would love brushing it." She said as a knock on the door came.

"Okay he's here" you said rubbing your hands on your jeans.

"Don't worry its gonna be great" she said giving you a small kiss on the head. "Now go have fun".

You went and opened the door and saw is look over and a light pink hue came across his cheeks.

"You look beautiful" he said and you smiled.

"Thank you, and you look handsome" you said closing the door.

You both walked out of the building. While you both walked around trying to find something to do you just talked and laughed together. He was funny and very kind to you. When he would smile at you, you could feel the small flutter in your heart. The moon was full and the street lights were on lighting the sidewalk and parts of the street. When you both got further into the city more people were out then you thought.

"So where do you want to go beautiful?" Sakusa asked looking over at you.

"I'm down to do what ever you want" you said feeling your cheeks warm up from the name he called you.

"Well then" he said grabbing your hand and stepping in front of you. "Y/n would you do me the pleasure of having a very late dinner with me" he said very theatrical making you laugh.

"Yes I would love to have a very late dinner with you" you said matching his energy.
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