PILLOW PRINCESS

thirty one

< 3rd pov >

Taehyung and Jungkook sat in complete utter silence when Vivi left. But it didn't last that long. Maybe a good thirty minutes to give Jungkook space to calm down and collect his thoughts.

He needs Jungkook to be level headed and not a hot head who's allowing his emotions to control his thoughts and actions.

Taehyung came because he wanted to talk to Jungkook about Vivi and their situation. He believes what Yoongi mentioned to him wasn't right. They both don't and didn't know the type of relationship Vivi and the other gentleman have.

It's like incarcerating the first suspect of a murder case only because they're the first suspect which makes them automatically guilty. When in reality they could have been innocent to being with.

" Jungkook, I came here to talk to you about last night." Taehyung sighs, breaking the long silence.

" There is nothing to talk about." Jungkook responds coldly.

" I think Vivi isn't a lying two-faced fabulist that you or Yoongi think. He must've misread the situa—"

" She almost slept with someone else and kissed them." Jungkook interjects, jaw clenched.

Taehyung remained silent lost for words unsure what to say. He can only stare at Jungkook with a silent downhearted sympathy look. He notices how his eyes soften glumly, jaw uncleached, dropping his cold façade.

But Taehyung can see through Jungkook like transparent paper and Jungkook can be transparent with him. Trusting him enough to see him in a vulnerable state. It's how much love and trust he has with him. A strong bond like brothers.

" That's why she came over. She told me the truth why she was acting distant and edgy for those couple of days." Jungkook chuckles, scoffing in disappointment. " To add the icing on top, I asked her about last night. She lied at first but now, that I think about it. I'm sure that wasn't something she was worried about."

" She wanted to be honest with you. With what was weighing her down with guilt." Taehyung softly spoke. " I'm not siding with her or anything at all but I do want you to see the difference with her, Jungkook." Jungkook furrows his brows, confused.

" She came to you on her own telling you the truth about a little white lie she never mentioned. She wouldn't have told you what she did if she didn't care, Jungkook. Yes, she did avoid you and was being rude but that's because she felt guilty and couldn't properly look you in the face as if everything was okay."

" If someone else did what she did they would never say anything. They would see you everyday and night as if they didn't wrong you. They can live with a lie for as long as they can till one day it comes to light. You know this Jungkook." Taehyung purses his lips together, reading Jungkook's facial expressions. " In my heart I truly believe this girl doesn't have a bad bone in her body. She isn't Sejeong, Jungkook."

Jungkook couldn't deny that Taehyung had made a point. Vivi did come willingly and was completely honest with him. She didn't have to say anything at all but she felt the need to come clean. Feeling guilty with a heavy heart of betrayal. She even said the truth about being at the bar with another guy but making it completely clear that it wasn't the intention of flirting or being deceiving.

" But I can't just forgive her, Taehyung." Jungkook broken-heartedly whispers. " It's not that easy."

" I'm not saying to forgive her, Kook. I'm telling you to see her actions and the lengths she came to be completely full heartedly honest with you. She could have easily not said anything and not owe you an explanation knowing you guys aren't even dating."

Those last few words did wretch in Jungkook's chest, tugging his heart a bit.

" You decide what happens between you two but I do want you to know something. You too also have to apologize to her for your words. Whatever you said to her to make her leave out of that room angry must've hurt her as well. I cant speak for her but who knows if she even wants anything to do with you anymore, Jungkook."

Jungkook's body runs cold, frozen. Realization was a smack in the face his mind flooding with his unnecessary disrespectful words he spat at Vivi. Those comments were unnecessary and he knows it.

When Vivi walked out of Jungkook's complex she couldn't deny at all that she was in pain. Crying as she went to the closest market grabbing two or maybe three bottles of wine and one tequila bottle.

Right at the moment she wants to drown herself in alcohol, hopefully if she's drunk enough she'd even forget what happened.

She locked herself up in her apartment, opening up her bottle of wine and blasted her favorite tunes to drown out her painful aching heart.

Just to get a good buzz going she downs three shots back to back, feeling nothing. Not even the tequila gets a reaction out of her.

Two hours later, she's drunk enough to dance with herself in her own living room, singing her heart out to Blinding Lights by The Weekend , feeling groovy enjoying her own company.

Just five minutes ago she finished singing Heartless by the same artist. She was screaming the first verse at the top of her lungs.

" NEVER NEED A BITCH I'M WHAT A BITCH NEEDS."

To be completely honest, singing loud enough, shouting and screaming was helping her much more than what she would actually know. Her buzzy mind doesn't comprehend just how a tad bit of her heart is breathing.

" The smell of your skin lingers on me now." Vivi sings, swaying feeling her tears stream down her cheeks, holding herself in a comfort hug.

" Cause big girls don't cry." She laughs sadly. Shaking her head she takes a swing of her wine bottle. "Damn, that song kind of resembles the situation."

Big Girls Don't Cry by Fergie ft. Sean Kingston.

" I hate you, Jungkook." She whispers to herself, smiling sadly staring out her window. " But I can't seem to bring myself to let you go." Scoffing to herself, she chugs her wine empty and goes after the other bottle.

Just as she pops it open there were a couple of knocks at her door. She walks over drinking out the new bottle, answering her door.

It was the owner of the apartment complex.

" Hello." Vivi nonchalant greets.

" Evening Vivi, I've got a couple of noise complaints about you screaming and your music being a little too loud. Do you mind turning it down a bit?" Vivi only laughs in response, sighing.

" I'm feeling like shit." She manages to not slur her words. " So, tonight I'm giving myself a therapeutic night by singing, playing music, and" She shows her bottle of wine, taking a good drink and sighs with satisfaction. " drinking. Is that so wrong?"

" By all means enjoy your evening however you'd like but you have to be mindful of your neighbors. It's not the weekend, Vivi. It's Wednesday night. Please, have some respect." The owner says with such patience.

" Fine."

" Thank you. Enjoy the rest of your therapeutic night." Vivi forces a lip smile, shutting her door, turning her music off. She decides to just sit in the cold night on her balcony, accompanied by her bottle and painful silence.

" fuck man..." Vivi says, sounding more in disbelief and disappointment. " fuck.." She sniffles, her tears winning once again. This time she truly cries her heart out, hugging her knees to her chest. Sobbing.