BTS Ships (COMPLETED)

Story 2 - Namjin Part 2

Top - Namjoon
Bottom - Jin

Namjoon Point Of View

After going to the bathroom and getting snacks and drinks I went back to my studio where Jin was waiting.

When I went in it was quiet. I didn't think much of it. I thought he was in his thoughts but he turned around. When I put the stuff down on the table I went back to close the door and it was only when I looked at him he looked like he wanted to cry his eyes out. I looked at the screen more closely and saw it was the song I wrote about Jin.

I held his hand and stopped the song as it replayed again. After I did that I looked at him and he was looking down at the floor. Still holding his hand I stood directly in front of him and softly called him but I got a sniff as a response. I took my other hand and placed it under his chin and slowly and softly made him look at me with his eyes showing so much emotion and tears falling. He was still holding back or trying to but when I pulled him into my chest he couldn't hold it any more.

With my arms around his shoulders, his arms around my waist tightly and his head fitting perfectly onto my shoulder/chest. I was whispering sweet things trying to help him to calm down but it resulted in him hugging me tighter and him putting his face into my neck.

Now one of my arms is still round his shoulders but my other arm is now going up and down his back with my fingers which seems to be working. We stayed like that for 10 minutes even after Jin had calmed down and stopped crying. We were just enjoying being close to each other which we can't really do. If we hug it is for a couple of seconds and we part, which is a shame. I love hugging Jin and I wish we could stay this close longer but unfortunately we can't.

I pulled away slowly and took Jin to the sofa and gave him tissues. I held his hand. I was going to come clean about my feelings. I just had to.

'Jin, I want to tell you about the song but I want you to promise me you will listen carefully until I'm done. I don't want anything to change or be awkward but it might.' I said in a soft tone sitting as close to him as I could, holding his hand and silently praying. Jin nodded in agreement so I continued.

'I wrote the song a while ago when I felt I was at breaking point. I wrote everything on paper and thought it would be a good song so that's what I did. I wrote the song and did the beat within a day and spent days perfecting it and once i was happy i showed it to Yoongi and he helped with adjusting small parts and is one of the songs that when we got more songs we would get everyone together so the songs could get listened to one at a time and everyone can give their thoughts and opinions on it'. I said.

Jin says a small 'Okay' and I keep explaining.

'Everything is 100% real, raw and my exact feelings and thoughts'. I pause and intertwine our fingers and give Jin's hand a small squeeze.

'The song is about you Jin. Everything i want to do and everything we could do together but not as bandmates, friends, brothers or anything else. I love you Jin more than anything and it got to the point where it physically hurt that I couldn't hold you and cuddle going to sleep and waking up and seeing you first thing and having couple time before the day begins. Everything couples do I want to do with you. Go on dates and have passionate make out sessions everything. I didn't want to say anything because part of it is the contract but another is I didn't want anything to change and become awkward if i told you and you didn't feel the same way. I couldn't deal with that so I kept it to myself. So if you feel the same and everything that i have said to you, you have thought about it carefully i would love to date you. To be your boyfriend, to love you. To be your happy and safe place and to cuddle all the time we can. If you want that i will be really happy'. I said. I took a deep breath.

After I said what I did I looked at Jin and he was so shocked I don't think he was expecting this which is fine. I will give him time.

'I will go to the others and say we will get take out for dinner to think of what they want and where. I don't think you can cook with the news I said. I will come back and let you process everything I said because it's a lot and we can talk when I'm back. I will support your decision no matter what it is so I am okay with whatever it is. Take your time and if you need longer then its okay as well. We will take one step at a time so don't worry'. I softly and slowly let go of his hand. I stand up and leave to give him space.

Jin Point Of View

Speechless. Absolutely Speechless. I was not expecting the song to be about me and everything he feels about me i feel the exact same way. I'm happy he left so I can have space to think but at the same I didn't want him to leave. I just stared at our hands intertwined and resting on his thigh and fitting perfectly. I smiled.

I could scream. I'm so happy and excited to see what's going to happen. Then I think about the members, the company, the contract, the fans. I start panicking but I remember Namjoons words and I feel better already. Taking one step at a time and we will sort everything out.

After 10/15 minutes later I hear a knock with Namjoon coming in and closing the door. He looks relieved that he was able to say how he felt but nervous with what is about to happen if it's good or bad and it's every good.

I slowly go to him and when I'm there I give him my happiest smile and lunge at him. My arms wrapped around his neck, face into his neck and my body against his. I can feel him tense at first and then relax. Namjoon wrapped his arms around my waist holding me tightly and pulling me closer to him letting out a sigh in content his face in my neck as well. I feel him smiling like crazy and it's so cute.

After a while we pull away slightly, my arms still around his neck and his arms around my waist smiling like crazy.

'I love you too Namjoon. So much. Everything you said in person and in the song I feel the exact same way. I want to be your boyfriend so we can do all the things you said which I'm looking forward to. I love you so much I can't believe this is happening and hope it's not a dream'. I said.

'Well there is only one way to find out if it's a dream or not'. Namjoon said, smiling looking into my eyes.

'What is it then?' I asked curiosity getting the better of me.

Namjoon pulled one of his arms from my waist to cup my cheek gently. Smiling softly.

'This'. Namjoon said softly leaning in closing his eyes and placing his soft lips on mine. I was in heaven.

The kiss was soft, sweet, gentle and no rush whatsoever. It started to get passionate. Mouths opening slightly. That was until Namjoon softly licked my bottom lip wanting entrance.

Going to the sofa Namjoon sits down then pulls me so I'm straddling him and we go right back into kissing passionately.

I feel Namjoons hands go to my waist from cupping my cheeks holding me close and my arms around his neck with my fingers in his hair. Completely in the moment.

After a while we stopped still in the same position but now my head resting on Namjoons shoulder in silence enjoying our moment.

First moment of being in a relationship never wanting to get up. Namjoon was right. Being with him in his arms is my happy and safe place forever.