Dating Felix means you are the third wheel. You don't need to have all of Stray Kids in one room to confirm that, it only takes one member, really. Hyunjin's name only had to be mentioned and Felix lights up. You couldn't really complain, as it made your boyfriend so happy for you to be comfortable with his best friends and family. But sometimes you end up in situations you really couldn't explain.
For example, when Felix opened his wallet and Hyunjin's mini photo fell out on the floor. You were hanging with your friends-people who weren't familiar with the bromance they shared-and they wondered if maybe he had other interests. It took a lot of reassurance that you were highly aware of the photo and what his members mean to him. They were still skeptical for a while though.
Another occurrence was when he was over for dinner at your home. Your brother was in town visiting and questioned one of the rings Felix wore. When your boyfriend happily announced that it was a couples ring with Hyunjin, you had to explain that you were also aware of this and had accepted it long ago. Your brother made a face that night, confused and questioning you nonstop about your relationship. Eventually he became used to the language Felix used.
The most recent event was with his parents. You traveled to Australia with Felix to finally meet his family. You engaged in conversation with his younger sister while he was on a video call with Hyunjin, informing him of his safe arrival and so on. His sister made a face of concern, often glancing towards her brother in wonder.
What they didn't know was how much he cared for you. Ways that he couldn't care for anyone else. Although he cared deeply for his members, you were the one he absolutely adored every aspect of. You were the one he thought of the moment he woke up. The voice he wanted to hear before he fell asleep in hopes he could dream of you. Your scent was the only one that could calm him almost instantly as the image of you came to mind; you felt like home to him.
Felix was very outwardly affectionate to you as well, which is why it became easier to convince others how madly in love with you he was. He cherished those around him, and the gifts they gave him became an attachment to that person. What your friends and family didn't know was that he did the exact opposite when he was with Hyunjin. Your gifts to him, like his gold necklace, were mentioned frequently to his best friend. Felix would call you when he missed you, even if that meant having Hyunjin talking to you as well. He'd show off pictures of the two of you to everyone like he was fan-boying.
Your sunshine just was a bundle of love, regardless of who it was. The people he cared for most were always engulfed with his love like a sweet blanket that keeps you warm through the winter. No matter what anyone said, you knew how much he loved you, and that's all that mattered. You didn't mind him feeling joyous over small things his members did for him, not when he did the same over the things you did.
Not everyone would understand Felix or your relationship. But those who have received his affection before know exactly what he is like, and they can't help but feel envious of the bond you share. Hyunjin and you even became closer through this connection. You were able to plan special days for Felix in hopes to reciprocate the feelings he gives.
So on days when you feel alone and your mind is cloudy, remind yourself that Felix's love has no bounds. Even through a phone screen as you watch someone else attend a concert, or you listen to audios he recorded on bubble, you can still feel his sunshine aura radiate through to you.
"Smile for me tomorrow."
