I was never much of a dreamer.
When it came down to having goals or dreams I wished to achieve, I didn't have one. During school days when we would talk about future careers, I didn't know mine. Truthfully, I didn't know anything.
I never believed there was dreams, though. Sure people could have hopes, but not dreams. Dreams were fantasies that happened in your sleep. Some were good, some were bad. Illogically thinking you could ever make those dreams come true was a waste of time in my opinion.
I grew up knowing I couldn't just wish. If it needed to happen, it did. If I wanted something, I ignored that want. Even though sometimes that appeared to be more difficult than I wanted, in the end I defeated all urges to do something unnecessary.
For years I spent this way. Not thinking if the future more than a due date for the next project I had. Not wondering what would I do if a thing in my life suddenly changed. I wasn't sure if it was just because I didn't care, or what. It was just my way of thinking.
Yet, I stood here, letting the rain fall onto me as I stared at his back. My heart was racing, hope and despair rushing through my veins for what I felt like was the first time. I couldn't control my breathing or my thoughts, I knew I was lost in this moment.
Finally, he turned around. His umbrella swirled at the movement, his actions being large and exaggerated to fit the situation. When he caught sight of me, his draw dropped. "Li?" He calls out in surprise.
Was he expecting someone else?
I clenched my fist together to keep aside any pain my heart was starting to feel. "Geumhyuk," I said aloud, through the loud pouring rain and the sound of my drumming heart. "I need to tell you something."
He had taken a step closer, turning his head to give me his ear. "Huh? I can't hear you!" His shoe sloshed in the puddles on the ground, splashing me in the process. I jumped back from the action and he immediately went to his original position. "Sorry, sorry."
I heaved a deep breath. "Geumhyuk, I need to let you know."
The man stood with a confused expression. Although completely cluless to my next words, he nodded his head. "Alright, go ahead."
My hands shakily pushed back my sopping hair. I could barely feel my legs as they wobbled from the intense emotion I felt while standing in such freezing rain. "I love you!" I say, biting my lip and retracting my form after the words were spit out.
Geumhyuk scrunched his nose. "What?"
My heart dropped a bit, noticing he hadn't heard me. Even though I would have dropped this all in the beginning, not even considering this to ever happen again, I stepped forward. I was careful of the puddles as I inched closer to him, but still at a safe distance.
"I....I love you, Geumhyuk." My words were left confident, yet still loud. After about a second I opened my eyes, peering through my wet hair to gaze at him. My head couldn't wrap around the millions of emotions running through my body for the first time.
Suddenly he dropped his umbrella, reached out and grabbed my arm. I stumbled from the action and landed into his chest, causing me to gasp and immediately look at him with surprise. Before I could say anything else, a pair of lips were placed over my own.
My eyes widened immensely. My hand gently patted his shoulder, as if to signal that I wanted him off, but his hand slowly crept over my own and squeezed it for reassurance. This made me relax in his embrace. My heart fluttered the moment I closed my eyes to enjoy the sweet kiss he wished to give me.
Geumhyuk pulled back and gave me a soft smile. "That's my girl. I knew you would come around eventually."
I stared at him in disbelief. "You...knew?"
He nods. "Of course I knew! I have been flirting with you for two years, Li. Just recently you started to act differently with me. At first I was worried you would leave me, but the words leaving your lips just now made me so happy."
I eagerly watched him as he spoke, excitement filling me as I hear him go on. I couldn't believe that the first time I started to dream and want something, in had basically fallen into my arms and said 'take me'! How strange it is to have a dream come true.
It felt....weird.
A large rain drop fell into my eye, causing me to flip chart and step back. Yet, I kept a tight grip to his grey coat, afraid that this was a literal dream and I was just sleeping. If that were to happen, I wasn't sure how well my heart would have taken that.
Geumhyuk laughed. "You're so cute." He wipes the drop off my cheek. "You have no idea how long I have waited for your response."
I couldn't help but smile. This man right here had made me the happiest person alive without even trying. And when I finally had realized what he meant to me, I feared it. I feared actually becoming attached to someone and getting hopes. Getting hurt
But I took a risk. Iafe the decision to tell him how I felt before he left for awhile. A singer like him was always on the road, yet this time felt different. It felt like if I hadn't grasped on to him now, he would never come back.
Now he was smiling in my arms.
"Li?"
I acknowledged his presence with a nod. "Hmm?"
He looks down at his feet. "Please get off my foot."
