A Boy From Slytherin | Draco Malfoy X Reader

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Y/n's POV

I need to get up. I've been in my bed all day, crying on and off, when I'm not crying I'm feeling numb, and when I'm neither crying crying nor numb I'm sleeping.

I've been ignoring the fact that I haven't eaten in about two days, but I don't feel hungry, I still feel repulsed by eating.

Pansy came in earlier at lunch time and checked on me, she left after I started to to fall asleep again. I haven't seen anyone but Pansy all day.

I wondered who all knows about what happened, when I began to think about the whole of Hogwarts talking about the most popular couple in the Slytherin house breaking up I almost cried again.

My bed doesn't feel comfortable anymore, I've been tossing and turning, but I stopped, because any movement just tires me at this point.

I'm not sure what time it is, I wanted to grab my phone from my nightstand, but I didn't want to move, so I just tried to think what time Pansy left, she left around middle of lunch, that would have been about noon thirty.

How long has it been? I turned my gaze to my window, there's a green curtain over it but I can see that it's almost dark outside.

24 hours I've been in this bed.

I can stand the silence, it's too quiet, I hear Draco's voice in my head and I need to drown it out. For the first time in like six hours, I moved, I grabbed my phone and earbuds and put music in, not depressing break up love songs like most women do after a breakup, that would make me cry more and I couldn't afford that.

I heaved a sigh an stared at the ceiling letting the music shoot into my ears and fill my head with the lyrics.

I'm not thinking about him, not Draco.

I didn't think, I just let the music fill my head and I grasped onto every word, desperate to keep him out of my mind.

With both earbuds in I began to feel anxiety, like someone could be in the corner of my dorm about to kill me and I wouldn't hear them, I needed to be aware. I pulled out the right side of my ear bud.

I heard a quiet and gentle knock on my door.

"Go away." I spoke, my voice was numb and had no personality to it. 

"It's Max, Y/n, are you alright?" I heard her say. I did actually want to see her right now. I turned off my music, but didn't leave my bed.

"Come in." my door opened and Max entered the darkness of my dorm.

"Hey," she whispered and sat next to me on my bed, "Pansy told me what happened, I'm so sorry. How are you feeling?"

I didn't know how to sugar-coat my feelings, so I decided not to.

"Honestly," I spoke, my voice was very quiet, "If I died right now I would really be okay with that." she brought her hand to my shoulder, rubbing it gently.

"It feels wrong, Mattheo and I got engaged the night you and Draco broke up,"

"We didn't break up...he broke up with me." my words stung like hell, admitting it made it real, I didn't want it to be real.

"Do you feel like talking about it?"

"Not really." she nodded.

"Have you eaten all day?" I shook my head. "Have you even gotten out of bed?" another slight head shake. "Leo was looking for you earlier, he somehow knows what happened and wanted to check on you."

"I don't want him seeing me like this."

"I understand."

"Who all knows?"