My Sensei or the guy nextdoor (Kakashi)

Chapter 73

The Dr's were not happy when you told them you wanted to be released the next day but they had no reason to keep you other than caution. Kakashi had taken the boys to stay with Kurenai for the morning so he could get you settled even though you told him you were fine.

"This seems a little extreme" you said hiding your blushing with your hands. When you had walked down the hospital steps you wobbled slightly so we swept you up into his arms to carry you home.

"The Dr said you need to take it easy" he chuckled.

"He told you the same thing! You have just as many injuries as me!" you argued.

When he arrived at the house he set you on your feet and lead you inside, he sat you down on the couch and put a book in your hands. He made a motion for you to stay and then went into the kitchen to make you something to eat. You shook your head in annoyance and started to open the book when a light knock came from the front door and Genma let himself in.

"Its my Savior, good morning" you said flashing him a smile.

"Morning, how are you feeling today?" he asked his face in a flat expression.

"Im good, feel tired even though ive been unconscious for a week, but other than that just happy to see you" you patted the seat beside you on the couch inviting him over.

"Thats good to hear, im sorry i cant stay, ive got some work to do. Ill come by later though to check in" he said turning to leave.

"Hey wait!" you said getting up from the couch. "Whats wrong?" you asked worried.

"Im just tired, dont worry about it" he said shrugging it off.

You caught his hand in yours and stopped him from walking away, his eyes were cast downward and you knew that meant he was hiding something.

"Why wont you look at me?" you asked, your fingers gently reached out and touched his chin, turning it towards you. His eyes hesitated before flicking up and locking with yours. "There it is, now tell me whats wrong. Did i do something?" you asked.

"No...... im just in a weird place, im sorry. Im not ready to talk about it, but ill come by and see you later." his hand caught your wrist pulling your hand away from his face and he gently kissed your palm before letting it drop to your side and he turned and walked out the door.

You stood there looking at the dark wooden door racking your brain for any memory as to what your couldve done or said. The only thing you remember is seeing his face before everything went black and then seeing Kakashi's face when you woke up, there was nothing else. Just the dream.......

With a heavy sigh your shoulders sank forward, and you could feel sadness replacing the confusion but a warm presence stepped behind you stopping it in its tracks. Kakashi's hand snaked around your throat and lifted your chin up far enough that your eyes met his.

"Dont worry, itll be okay, now come eat breakfast." he instructed, he left a gentle kiss on your forehead and then stepped away.  Felling like there was nothing you could do you shook off the bad feeling knowing you would see Genma later and could talk it out then.

Days slipped by though and he never came by, he also didnt ever go home which you knew because you had gone over to check for him many times. Kakashi could feel your frustration and tried to ease it but there was only so much he could do.  When a week had passed you had had enough and got up early that morning and got dressed and declared you would comb the entire town till you found him and could make him face you. Your hand was on the door knob when someone knocked.

"There is no freaking way..." you growled throwing the door open. Low and behold there he was standing there as if he hadnt just been missing for a week.

"Morning, is Kakashi here?" he asked trying to be casual. A surge of anger  took over and you grabbed his hand and dragged him to his house, you pushed him inside and locked the door behind you.

"We are talking now, so sit down" you said pointing to his kitchen table.

"I cant right now" he started to say but you cut him off.

"Yes you can, so sit down." you said flinging your arms out and making yourself a barrier to the front door. His blank face turned into a frown and he walked over to the table, pulled out a chair and sat down. you followed behind him and pulled out the one directly across from him.

"So....... just say it" you urged.

"Say what?" he asked.

"Say you dont want to be with me anymore, youve made it really clear to me, i just wish you would say it rather than avoid me." you combed your hair away from your face in frustration.

"Is that what you want?" he asked a bit of anger seeping into his voice.

"No but you do!" you snapped. "Why else would you stay away, everyone said you stayed by my side when i was in the hospital but the moment i woke up youve been absent. Why??" you asked trying to keep your voice from wavering.

"Because you dont want me!" he shouted and then instantly regretted it, his face turned sorrowful and he dropped his head into his hands.

"What are you talking about? We had a wonderful weekend together with the kids and being together like that just made me fall in love with you more. Was i the only one feeling that way?" you asked knowing that wasnt the case.

"No, i loved being with you, it was like a dream." he said shaking his head.

"Then if we both feel that same way, why are you saying i dont want you?" you asked in a much softer tone.

"Because its always him that you look for first, its always him that you call when in danger, its him that you reach for without thinking, not me. Im not better than him, i cant beat him in this race" he said looking up to meet your eyes.

"Why does it have to be a competition, i love you both, and i dont compare the two of you, so why are you doing that? If anything he should be the one competing with you, there is no-one i trust more than you, you have been the only person to stick by me through everything, why are you abandoning me now?" your voice broke with the last part. 

"But he is the one you are meant to be with, not me, ive always just been the place holder, the glue to put you back together and make you happy until you found true happiness" he explained.

"Thats not true! Stop talking about yourself like that, you aren't second fiddle, or the loser in this so called race. Let me show you what you mean to me, dont give up on us so suddenly" you pleaded.

"Im not giving up, ive just lost is all" he said shaking his head.

"No you havnt, this isnt a race that needs to be won, love dosnt have a finish line" you argued.

"Then answer something for me, how long did you think both relationships would last?" he asked.

"I dont know, thats something i tried not to think about" you explained.

"Okay, then if both of us came to you one day and told you that we couldnt do it anymore and you had to choose, who would it be" he asked.

"I.... i cant answer that, i wouldnt be able to choose" you said throwing your hands in frustration.

"The thing is we both know that you could answer that question, but you dont want to admit it to yourself." he said with a heavy sigh.

"Stop making this seem like its my choice, ive made my feelings clear, i love you and im not ready for this to end. So what is your choice?" you asked.

"I need to go now" he said getting up and walking towards the door.

"Genma, dont do this, please...." you pleaded once more.

"Im sorry Princess, i love you, i really really do." he left quickly shutting the door behind him and your heart broke as the door clicked shut.

*Is this the end of Genma and Y/N? Only time will tell! Sorry this chapter is trash, im trying to get back into writing and i dont honestly remember where i wanted to go with this story so im trying to figure it out as i go. Ive decided on a new writing schedule though so hopefully i can get back to a chapter every week if not every two weeks.