Poetry Book: Songs from the Heart [COMPLETED]

My Past. My Future. My Hell.

The world has always been cruel
Misshapen and unending in its gruel
But as time has passed and I have laughed
I have found myself among those
Who does not have been left unknown and broken
Lost to the void where we find no tokens

My past is full of darkness
Pain and depression
Death and madness
My past is full of unending years of agony
Lost to medications and hospitals
My past is full of bullies
Who always attacked my every moment of life
I was never the popular girl
Never with someone who could help me survive

My future is full of uncertainty
A lost cause, it may be
But when I look back and see
All the things that have happened to me
I hope I'll be happy
Happy to see that it was all worth it
That, in the end, the pain, misery, and death
Was somehow balanced out

My hell is my present
Consumed by depression and anxiety
By pain and fear and loss
My hell is my past
Where I was bullied and laughed at
My hell is my future
Of chronic pain and meds and hospitals
Of people who don't understand and won't ever
My hell is my life,
But I don't mind it at all

Because if heaven's for people like you,
And hell is for those like me,
I'd rather have horns than wings