I don't have time to feel emotions, let alone time spend with you. I can't even spend time with friends. I barley have time to breathe. I'm trying to feel numb, and this is in my way. With how busy I am, and my dad being... my dad, I'd spend more time regretting not being with you, than being with you. I'd feel bad like last time, and then the bad thoughts come. Right now, your making me feel emotions, and even if they're good ones, they're getting in my way.
I can't love somebody if I can't even love myself.
I can't spend time with people if I can barley get out of bed.
I sure as hell couldn't date someone like this, no matter how tempting.
I just have to get rid of my dad first. That'll fix it all. Try harder make my life come somewhat together.
The only problem is that I have dedication issues. That's why it took so long for us to get together in the first place.
I really do love you, though. I just can't love you like this.
A sociopath can't love.
