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💬 Beomgyu - Insomnia

~ Beomgyu's POV ~

After our latest album release, I thought we would be able to get some sleep finally. We have been working day and night on promoting it, we were all exhausted. None of us could've taken another day of this.

I was right. We were given three full weeks off, our schedule was completely clear. So, the second we arrived back home from the last award show, we retreated into our rooms. I knew for a fact, that all we wanted to do was sleep.

I changed into my pajamas, put my phone on Do Not Disturb, and covered myself in blankets. I closed my eyes, and waited for the dreams. I waited, and waited and waited...

I tossed and turned for hours, but sleep didn't come. I gave up, and looked at the time on my phone: 1:52 am. I was in bed for more than 3 hours, and even though I felt so tired, I simply couldn't sleep. I laid there, staring at the ceiling, trying to relax my body and empty my head, but nothing worked.

Maybe a shower? I took a nice, hot shower, but it wasn't enough. Maybe a glass of warm water? Still nothing. I knew I shouldn't use my phone in bed, but I had no other ideas on how to make time go faster. I opened Instagram, and scrolled away. When I looked up, it was morning already.

I opened my window, letting the fresh air and the sounds of the city in. I took a few deep breaths, and slowly got ready for the day.

- Good morning, Gyu! How was your bed? – Soobin was already downstairs, sipping his coffee, and reading a newspaper. What a grandpa he is...

- Uh, I couldn't really sleep, but it's fine, at least we're home. How did you sleep?

- I slept so well! It was so nice! How come you didn't?

- No idea, hyung. I just couldn't fall asleep. But I will today. – He smiled at me, and went back to reading. I made myself some coffee too, and sat down outside on the balcony. I took in the sunrise and the blinking of the waking city. Seoul was beautiful this time of the day.

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During the whole day, I felt fatigued, but not enough to be able to take a nap. I played with the others, I went on a walk, I watched series. But in the evening, while the others took showers and baths, I felt a bit of anxiety creeping up on me. What if I can't sleep again?

I took a shower finally, changed, grabbed the book I started reading, and went to bed. I read a few pages, before I couldn't focus on the words anymore. I switched off the lamps, snuggled up under the sheets, and closed my eyes.

One sheep, two sheep, three sheep... two hundred and twenty-one sheep...

Oh god, I really can't sleep. I sat up, on the verge of tears. I wasn't sad, I was frustrated and tired. Why is my body working against me? Why do I have to go through this?

I wanted to see the time, but that would just upset me more, so I threw my phone far away. I laid back, squeezed my eyes shut, and started relaxing. First, my feet, my legs, my torso, my arms, my neck and lastly, my head.

I was still awake. I sighed in defeat, turned on the small lamp next to my bed, grabbed my book, and started reading again.

~ Yeonjun's POV ~

What a beautiful morning, again. I loved waking up in the dorms, knowing, that I have a full day ahead of me. Having no activities means endless possibilities, but it can also be boring. I'm so used to the quick pace of idol life, that I completely forgot, what it's like to have three full weeks to yourself.

Today was just like yesterday. I woke up around 10 am, lounged around until the afternoon, got dressed, went for a group walk, played card games, read, watched movies, scrolled through social media. It was such a perfectly boring day.