Our Story/TBS imagine

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It had been 8 months since the proposal and everything sort of stopped.

We hadn't planned anything with the wedding and we had been trying for a baby a lot but every test came out negative.

I must admit I feel self conscious.

I keep thinking that I can't do what my body has been designed to do. I keep looking at myself in the mirror and wincing. Every time the small plastic stick says negative or has one line which means no baby when I should of had two.

On the very first test, I didn't look at the stick. Thomas was sat on the bed so I ran out of our bathroom and we looked at it together-I could tell he was disappointed.

"We will just keep trying, don't worry." He would say every time then walk away.

Maybe we can't do it on our own, maybe we need to go get some help at the hospital there's plenty of ways! Like test tube babies and stuff like that.

I cupped my hand around my warm coffee as I worried about my body.

"What you thinking about?" Thomas asked, sitting on the couch next to me.

"Babies."

"What about babies?" He asked.

I put my mug on the coffee table and sighed "it's been 8 months, Thomas! That's a very long time to be trying to have a baby. There must be something wrong with me, maybe I just can't make them. We could go-"

"Hold on, something wrong with you?"

"I can't make babies."

"There's nothing wrong with that! And as far as we know it could be something wrong with me and anyway there's nothing wrong with that. If we can't do it it's just what makes up different and it's what makes you so perfect." Thomas grabbed my hand and squeezed it gently.

I smiled, "maybe if we just take a break for awhile? What are we even rushing for? Let's get married then try again and if it still doesnt work then we can go to the hospital, yeah?"

"Sounds like a plan." He leaned over and kissed me "I've been thinking about the wedding."

"Yeah?"

"Can we leave it till I've finished filming The Death Cure? I'll get the script soon after the premier next month. Then I'll film that and after that we can plan this beautiful wedding with no rush and no stress of having to learn my lines."

My heart shattered a little bit. That's pretty much a whole year, I guess I could wait "okay." I smiled and got up. "Oh, and have you seen my twitter lately?" I asked excitedly.

"I have seen the amount of tweets!" He laughed.

"I'm like famous I'm nearly at 1million followers! Its insane!"

"How did you get so famous?" He asked.

"I don't know, I guess people just think I'm pretty." I stuck my tongue out at him.

"You are. Make sure it doesn't get to your head!" He laughed and pulled my arm so I landed in a hemp on his lap "I love you."

"I love you too."