Our Story/TBS imagine

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Today was the day I decided I didn't want to keep going.
I didn't have the new soon-to-be-mother buzz or the excitement of becoming a mother to my first child.
I wasn't excited about the wedding.
I was completely finished.
Everything in my life that I had done just seemed so pointless.
I wanted to go back.
I wanted to go back to the day of the wedding.
To the morning that I woke up and my sister came running into my room and screamed "IM GETTING MARRIED TODAY!" And my mum came in smiling and said "you need to get ready! You can't have a wedding without the bride and the bridesmaid!"
That morning, now that I think of it, was perfect.
My sister was just so happy.
We had people doing our hair and our makeup with a small glass of white wine listening to the music channel in the background.
I remember looking into my sister eyes and said "I love you sis. Don't forget about me after this though?"
And she laughed and said "never!"
You know, I cried when she said "I do."
I want to start again.
I want to go back and I want it to be that amazing morning.
Then I want to meet Thomas and I want to keep Hazils parents alive.
And I want to be best friends with Alice again.
And I want to tell Thomas about the baby before he left to film The Death Cure.
I just want to start again.

I must of tried to phone Thomas over 20 times.

When he didn't answer I tried Dylan and Kaya but I didn't get an answer from them.

I ran down stairs and asked Hazil to phone them but she didn't get a reply either.

I was worried sick and tried phoning and phoning till my phone ran out of battery.

I went out for a long jog which was more like a speed walk because of my little bump.

I also went and got a coffee and watched the world go by for a few hours.

When I got back it was about 5 O'clock.

I had only been gone about 3 hours.

Just 3 hours.

"HAZIL! IM HOME!" I screamed and went for my phone.

I dialled Thomas's number but it went straight to answer phone.

I tried it again and again but got the same result.

"Hazil, have you heard from Thomas?" I screamed, I didn't get a reply so I dialled Kaya's number.

She answered on the second ring "Y/N! PLEASE TELL ME THOMAS IS WITH YOU!" She screamed, she sounded like she was crying and hyperventilating.

"Kaya, calm down what-"

"Y/N! ANSWER ME!" She screamed, picking up my heart beat.

"What? I haven't spoke to Thomas since this morning."

"Y/N..."

"Y/N, IS THAT YOU?" I heard Hazil run down the stairs. She ran right into me crying into my shoulder.

"Kaya, I need to phone you back."

"Y/N! NO!" I heard Kaya screamed just before I ended the call.

"Hazil, what's happened?"

"Y/N, I didn't know... Grandma called me... I need... Y/N... He can't... He can't." She couldn't talk, she was falling apart.

"Hazil, who can't?" I thought my heart had stopped beating.

"Thomas, Y/N, he has been in a car crash." She screamed.

"No! You already said that how many months ago? I'm not falling for that!" I pushed her away from me and walked into the living room and switched the TV on.

You wouldn't believe her though, would you?

I mean, I couldn't. I didn't want to.

"Y/N! LISTEN TO ME!" Hazil screamed, crying more.

"Hazil..."

"Look at the news!"

I did as I was told and i just wished I could start again.