Falling for Temptation (A Kakashi Hatake story) Naruto fanfic

Chapter 24: Helpless

A/n: So the phrases and lines in bold italics are the lyrics of the song Satisfied from the musical Hamilton. I changed a few words and omitted some parts to fit the story. The video I attached is the cover of Annapantsu [Anna ft. Jordan], it's also the feel I want for this chapter. (Yes, I copied and pasted my author's note and yes, I know Helpless and Satisfied are two sides of a coin and I can't have both with one person's perspective but I'm doing it anyway.)

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Perhaps it was the years of mental instability, but at times Nhira could hear the voices of the roles she played. The countless personas she adapted and their names, their personalities and their stories.

All right, all right, that's what I'm talking about!
Now, everyone give it up
For the maid of honor, Nhira Aibelle!

"Sometimes I don't know if that's really me, the things I want. The habits or even my taste in food and the way I speak. I don't remember much of myself anymore. I want to be me, the one from before. I want him to love the real me."

A toast to the groom!
(To the groom, to the groom, to the groom)

"So I don't know, am I wrong for deceiving Kakashi? I claim that I love him but... Maybe it's the persona talking and not me. What if that's who he wants? What if it's the persona he loves?

After all, it's easy to love your dream. That's what I do, crafting the perfect girl to his tastes. "

To the bride (to the bride!)
(To the bride, to the bride)
From your other self
Who is always by your side
(By your side, by your side)

Over time, she began to have trouble extricating herself from the characters she created to seduce men. Was she the one who disliked matcha or was it Amiko, the mist shinobi she pretended to be?

Did she really prefer the cold over warm hot weather? Or was it the singer from the Cloud? The little things she didn't know anymore if it was hers or another woman's.

To your union (to the union, to the revolution!)
And the hope that you provide
(You provide, you provide)
May you always (always)
Be satisfied (rewind)

And she believed that when she returned to her home, the Hidden Leaf Village she would get some semblance of the old days.

It didn't help any.

Rewind, rewind, rewind
Rewind, rewind, rewind
Helpless, skies... skies
Helpless, drowning... drowning
Rewind (Rewind)

Now, she had trouble. Who was it that fell in love with Kakashi? Was it Ai, the name she was assigned for that mission? It was a fatal failure, falling in love with her target.

If not, was it the 12-year-old Nhira who had a crush on the cool young man? The same 12-year-old that considered him a friend and asked for his help only to be forgotten for 10 years?

Or, was it Nhira Uzumaki who fell for his charms?

She could not attach her mother's last name. That was a different person altogether.